A/N: The song's about Rick's perspective. The chapter may be OOC for Jay, I don't know. Enjoy
Disclaimer: Song by Billy Talent, Nothing To Lose
Need more friends with wings
All the angels I know
put concrete in my veins
"That was so bad ass of you, Greenpeace" Jay said, smirking at Emma.
The two were sitting outside of 'their' section of the ravine. It really was a breath-taking place. The water trickled nearby.
"Well, He needed to hear it at one point. Plus, it got him to back off" Emma laughed while moving closer to Jay.
Jay look over to her, she was sitting there with her head tilted looking out at the stream. Her blond hair bounced as she turned to look at Jay. The tension was unbearable, but it was something more than sexual, although sexual tension was definitely there.
"Why are you even with me?" Jay asked her, out of nowhere.
"What?"
"I'm, I'm the reason you almost died" Jay said, unable to look at her
I'd always walk home alone
So I became lifeless
Just like my telephone
"Jay, you weren't the reason. Rick was mentally unstable" Emma began, "Look at me. I don't blame you at all. We all pushed him, every single person did. I start a frickin' campaign against the kid! You didn't know that by pulling a prank on him would end in that result. It's not like you knew he was going to pull a gun and shoot Jimmy. You were just the last straw, he couldn't take it anymore. But your fault? Absolutely not"
There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change
"Seriously? You're the only person that doesn't point their finger at me. I'm not a great guy, but I never knew he would have a meltdown like that. If someone did that to me, I wouldn't kill them. Sure, I'd beat them up pretty fucking bad, but actually shoot someone? That's fucked up. Emma, I hate that he went after you, I always did. You remember when you were in the dot?"
"How could I forget, that look"
Never played truth or dare
I'd have to check my mirror
To see if I'm still here
"I saw that, and I knew some shit was going to go down. That look in his eye, I recognized it. It was the look that guys get when their about to bludgeon some chick. And all I'm thinkin' is that if he touches you, I'm gonna kill him. So I grab him, and take him behind the back. I'm getting so pissed because you just had a look of pure fear on your face, and the Emma I know never backs down and is never scared of anyone."
Emma blushed at his last sentenced and he noticed, giving her a quick smirk before continuing.
My parents had no clue
That I ate all my lunches
Alone in the bathroom
"I swear, I thought I was going to kill him. Then you jumped in front, and the whole time I was thinking, "What the fuck is she doing? He's about to murder her and she protects him?" I thought that was really cool of you, but I also thought you were fucking crazy. Which I guess makes sense because you are pretty cool… and fucking crazy. So I drop it and went home. The whole time I'm in the car I'm getting more pissed off, and I even debated coming back and finding him. But something in me, told me to stop in order to… protect you"
Emma moved her hand and touched Jay's shoulder lightly, sighing. It was silent for a couple of minutes before Emma spoke up.
"What did you think, when you heard that gunshot?"
There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change
There's nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There's nothing to gain
And I can't fight the pain
"I didn't think I heard right, you know. I was just sitting in class, that they threw me in wondering what was going on. Actually, I thought it was just some drill, like a fire drill. I had no idea what was going on. To be honest, I was thinking about smoking a cig. What about you, Emma, when you saw Rick and the gun"
Emma just looked at the ground, "we don't have to talk about this, Em" Jay said,
Teach us that it's just a phase
When I grow up my children
Will probably do the same
Kids just love to tease
I know it put me under ground
At seventeen
"No, it's okay. I, I didn't think. I went into total shock mode. Couldn't move. Couldn't talk. Couldn't think. I couldn't believe what was going on. It wasn't until I was standing in the office talking to the police that I realized what had happened"
"I'm so, so, sorry" Jay whispered
"It's okay" Emma said, leaning her head on his shoulder, "I think for the first time, I'm starting to believe it's okay"
There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change
There's nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There's nothing to gain
And I can't fight the pain