A/N: Sorry it's been so long. I will update when I can! Enjoy!

Sam got out of the shower, got dressed, and went to the bedroom to check on Donna. When he reached the bedroom he was surprised not to see her in bed. He scanned over to the couch in the alcove in their room and she wasn't there either. He was starting to get worried, after the events of the evening.

"Donna." He called out.

"I'm out here." Donna called to him from the balcony.

Sam walked out to the balcony and stood next to her, watching her stare out to sea. "Donna." Sam said and she turned towards him. He cupped her chin in his hand, he didn't want to touch her until she looked at him, he was afraid of scaring her.

"Honey, what are you doing out here? Why aren't you resting?" He asked while putting a strand of hair behind her ear.

"I was just thinking."

"Come one, let's go to bed."

"I can't."

"Honey, don't be afraid. I am not going to let him get to you again, besides, he is in jail."

Donna looked up at him with a soft smile on her lips.

"I know you won't let me get hurt, I just can't go back to that bed. I mean, that's where-"

"I'm sorry, I didn't think of that. I have a surprise for you; I was planning on showing you tonight anyway. Come with me." Sam said as she grabbed his hand and walked out the door. Sam led her to the old goat house.

"Okay, close your eyes." He said as they arrived.

"The goat house? My surprise is the goat house?" She asked.

"Just wait." Sam led her inside and up the stairs.

"Okay, open your eyes."

Sam had completely transformed the place. He had rebuilt it out of stone and brick. The bedroom was decorated in reds and tans. There was a huge king sized bed with end table, a fireplace, and two comfy chairs by the fireplace, and a plasma TV over the fireplace. There were pictures of THEIR family around the room. Off of the bedroom was a huge bathroom with a Jacuzzi, shower, and large vanity. There were two large walk-in closets off of the bedroom. Downstairs was a kitchen with all the necessary appliances.

"Sam? How? When?" Donna was virtually speechless.

"While you were recovering. I contracted some help so I could get it done sooner. I thought it could be a getaway for us, or even a place to live if you want. I can even add on. I thought this is where we could come and be Sam and Donna, instead of Mr. and Mrs. Hotel owners."

Donna jumped into his arms. She stared deeply into his eyes, "It's perfect, and you're perfect." She said with tears in her eyes.

"I'm glad you like it."

"I want to live here, with you, forever." She said into his chest.

"I think that can be arranged." He said holding her tighter.

"You make me feel so safe, and so loved." She said with a yawn.

"That's because you are." He said with a kiss to the top of her head. "What do you say we get in that big comfy bed and talk?"

"I would like that."

As Donna got into bed, Sam went and got a bottle of water and took her pills out of his pocket.

"Here, take one." Sam said giving her the pills and water.

Sam got into bed and Donna laid her head on his chest; Sam liked to cuddle like this because he was able to play with her hair.

"Babe, do you think you could tell me what happened, the first time?"

"Yeah."

"Just take your time. Remember, NOTHING will EVER EVER change my feelings for you." Sam said holding her closer.

"Sophie was only a month old. The Dynamos had talked me into doing a show on the mainland, so I could get out and have some fun. Carl was at the show. After the show, he came up to me and told me how beautiful I was, and asked if I would like to go get a drink. It felt like such a long time since anyone looked at me as if I was an attractive woman, other than a baby machine. So, I went. Afterwards, we were walking along the beach, and he started to kiss me. I didn't get a good feeling, and quickly told him good night and thank you. As I started to walk away, he pulled me back by my hair and called me a cock tease. I apologized and told him I wasn't ready. I was still really sore, and wasn't ready to have sex. He said he had needs, and I was going to fulfill them. I screamed but he slapped me hard across my face. I fought with everything I had, but he still raped me. During the rape, I tried to think about you and how loving you were to me; I was desperate to forget about what was happening. It didn't work. When he was done, he beat me up, then turned me over, and cut the back of my neck with his knife. He said it was a sign that I would always be his. I must have passed out, because the next thing I remember is waking up in the hospital with Rosie and Tanya holding my hands. I am just lucky you were my first time, because I knew how loving and amazing it could actually be." Donna was now crying.

"Baby, I am so sorry. I am so sorry he did that to you then, and came back to do it again. I should have killed him when I got the chance. But I will tell you this, if I ever get the chance I will castrate him." Sam was fuming.

Donna turned to look at him.

"NO, don't you see? You are the only thing that got me through it then and now. It was because of your love I know I could go on, even if you were no longer in my life. Then tonight, I knew our connection was so deep, you knew something was wrong and would help me, and you did. I need you here with me." Donna said as she ran her hand over his cheek.

"You've got me baby, now and forever." He said with a kiss to her forehead.

"It feels good to get this out in the open." She said.

"Why didn't you tell me until now?" He asked.

"I was afraid, I didn't want you to see me as damaged." She said.

"My God, Donna, you are my heart, my life. I could NEVER EVER see you that way."

"I knew that the first time we made love after our wedding. That was the first time I had been intimate with anyone after the rape. It was so magical."

"Wait. Your first time since the rape was against the side of the church?"

"Yeah."

"I was so rough with you. I pinned you against the wall, I just took you."

"Sam, it was incredible. I could see your love for me in your eyes. You didn't take me; I gave you my body and my heart. You can't take what is already yours."

"I love you so much, you have no idea." He said wrapping his arms around her as tightly as possible.

"I think I do. I love you so much I feel as if my heart could explode." Donna said. "I wish I could show you, but I don't think I'm ready."

Sam looked down and her and lifted her chin so he could look into her eyes.

"There is no hurry, you need to rest. I am just so happy to be able to hold you in my arms."

"You'll be here all night?"

"Of course, go to sleep baby. I love you."

"I love you too."

Sam waited until Donna fell into an even breathing pattern until he let himself relax. He was so grateful for the beautiful creature lying in his arms. He vowed to never let her go.