A/N: Okay so this chapter is much more action than thought, but I really like it. This is like a CRUCIAL chapter so you better comment on it.

Sometimes I walk alone at night when everybody else is sleeping, I think of him and then I'm happy with the company I'm keeping. The city goes to bed, and I can live inside my head. On my own, pretending he's beside me, all alone, I walk with him till morning. Without him, I feel his arms around me, and when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me. And I know it's only in my mind, that I'm talking to myself and not to him. And although I know that he is blind, still I say, there's a way for us. I love him, but every day I'm learning, all my life I've only been pretending. Without me his world will go on turning, a world that's full of happiness that I have never known. I love him, but only on my own.

It's been amazingly long since I don't see him, Sam, I mean. I've been trying my best to avoid him at all cost. Well, honestly, not exactly him, I've been trying to avoid Emily. She knows everything about my past with Sam and how it still hurts deep inside to see her happy with him, so I know my presence always makes her uncomfortable despite the fact she smiles and tries to act as if everything is okay; I just know it's not. I remember the time in which we were inseparable, in which we could talk about anything for hours and hours and simply laugh at out silliness, but things were so different now. Stupid, stupid imprinting. I kept looking straight to the ceiling as these thoughts rambled through my head.

Today, of all days, I won't be able to avoid her. It's Claire's birthday and they celebrating it at her house. I know I could have simply declined the invitation but I simply couldn't. I felt something for that little girl, maybe because she constantly reminded me of myself. It's fun to see how she tries to pretend she is a big girl and that she can "hang out" with the big boys of the pack, how she frown every time someone dares to call her "little" and how she tries her best not to cry or pout when she falls. I am certain Quill will have trouble controlling her. That will be something I would pay to see.

Giving out a loud sight, I got out of bed as quickly as I could. I needed to do this before I changed my mind. I ran to the bathroom and tried my best to look decent, but there was no make up that could erase the worried glance away from my eyes. I hated being this obvious sometimes. As fast as I could, I got into the shower only opening the cold water, having a temperature of 108.9 degrees; it's not easy to have a hot shower. For the final touch, I got into a plain beach white dress, I was sure the boys would be completely amazed by this. I was the type of girl who usually wore tight jeans and small shirts, but I guess the reason for that was because, deep inside, I still thought I could seduce Sam. Now, it doesn't matter any more.

The thought of seeing Jake today filled my mind, making a smile crave its way on my face. I am convinced I won't meet someone quite like him as long as I live. What amazes me the most is that he knows that I still crumble when I hear Sam's voice; that I still think of what could have been and, still, he is by my side. Well, I know he stills thinks of Bella and I am still there, with him. Maybe we are part of each other's healing processes.

"Wow have you been stung by some sort of weird bug Leah? Why are you dressed like that?" My little brother's voice filled the kitchen.

I rolled my eyes.

"Well…you like it?"

He suppressed an urge to laugh at his amazed face. Yes, this was the dress I had been looking for.

"I guess…you just look different. Honestly, Leah, is there something going on I should know about?"

"Oh come on! Just cut it! Let's get going, we need to help Emily with the decorations"

I began walking towards the door but, feeling that Seth had remained frozen in his place, I turned around and raised an eyebrow at him.

"Well?" I asked, crossing my arms in front of my chest.

"You actually compromised to help Emily?" he asked, his eyes wide in amazement.

"Yes, you know I love Claire and I want this to go right. Now, can you stop acting like a pain in the butt and just follow?"

I turned around with the speed of a hurricane and bolted out the door, not caring if Seth was following me or not. He probably was. I smirked as I started walking, for the first time in a long while I had felt like the old Leah. I had forgotten how fun it was to fight with my brother. The sound of my own laughter surprised me; I must be looking like crazy, laughing all by myself.

"Leah, do you need to see a shrink or something?" Seth asked quickening his pace.

"Oh shut up twat!" I snapped.

"There is the lovely big sister I love"

His sarcasm was obvious.

It didn't took us long before we arrived to Emily's. My heart was beating insanely fast as I knocked at the door. How would I say hi to her? Should I hug her? Shake her hand? I questioned my sanity at this point. I should have never agreed to come here, I could have taken Claire to eat ice cream some other day and not pass through the torture of having to see Emily again. I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn't even heard the door open.

"Leah you are here!" I heard Claire's voice.

I smiled at the little girl standing before me; her big eyes looked at me in a mixture of amazement and admiration. If she only knew I was not a person, who should be admired, not by her, not by anyone. I crunched down so that I was at her side and gave her a big hug. My smile grew larger as I felt her little arms wrapped around my neck. There was the other reason why I loved her so much, she was the only person I could be sure that loved me unconditionally.

"I wouldn't miss you birthday for anything in the world" I said as I pulled away.

My eyes widened as I saw the figure standing behind the little girl, Emily, her scared face, her perfect complexion. Why did I suddenly wanted to burst into tears? Oh yes, because that could have been my fate. I could have been the one whose face was deformed and, would I have been able to forgive the person who did this to me?

"Hey Leah" She greeted with her usual warm smile.

Was she faking?

"Hey Emily, nice to see you again"

I lied so naturally, it scared me.

"Come on in. Some of the guys are helping me in the backyard already, but I don't think I trust their taste" Emily laughed as she motioned the inside of the house.

"Sure" I said, doing my best to remain serene.

"Seth you need to come see all my new dolls" I heard Claire say behind me causing me to laugh.

I walked slowly around the familiar living room, my eyes taking in every single detail. Nothing had changed, except for the fact that the pictured of Sam had seemed to oddly multiply. I took two deep breaths before I actually went outside to the backyard. Emily was right; some of the guys were already there. Quill was trying to teach Embry how to set a proper table, while Paul scattered confetti around. The whole sight of it was extremely hilarious. I was about to start laughing when I saw Jake, casually standing next to Sam. My heart stopped, how was I going to go through the whole party without holding his hand, touching his face if, in this very moment, I only wanted to run to him and press my lips against his.

I was taken a back when Jake actually waved at me.

"Hey Leah, you came!"

Why was everyone so surprised?

"Hey Jake" I said giving him a kiss on the cheek and trying to be as distant as possible "Hey everyone" I added in a louder tone of voice.

Time seemed to fly as we both stood there in the yard. Suddenly, I wasn't worried about Sam any more; I even talked to him without my sentences having a hurtful intention. The rest of the boys seemed to notice this because they kept shooting compliments for no apparent reason. Of course they were times in which snappy, bitchy Leah needed to come to life, but none of them really seemed to care.

Little by little the boys started to leave the back yard in order to decorate other parts of the house.

"I appreciate you are doing this for Emily" Sam said with a smile.

By this point it was only Jake, me and him.

"I am not doing this for her, Sam, I am doing it for Claire" I answered possibly too dryly.

"Oh, thank you anyways. I'll be in the kitchen if you need anything"

Yes, he was definitely taken a back by my answer. My eyes followed him until he disappeared behind the living room wall. And even after that, my eyes remain stuck in that direction. That was, until I felt strong arm wrapping around my waist from behind me.

"So…alone again" Jacob whispered in my ear.

I couldn't help but to smile. He had that effect on me.

"Jake come on! Not here, someone might come and I don't want to think what will happen if they see us like this" I whined, although, I truly wanted to remain there.

Jake whirled me around in order to look into my eyes. He was playing dirty; he knew I could not possibly resist that stare, especially when he was so close to me. Slowly, he began leaning in and I couldn't help but to do the same. I closed my eyes in anticipation and then…nothing. I opened my eyes when I heard Jacob's low laughter.

"You…you…" I began to say but I was suddenly silenced by Jacob's lips on mine.

"What were you saying?" he asked cheekily once he broke the kiss.

"That maybe you should kiss me again"

My arms flew to Jacob's neck, pulling him into a much deeper kiss. He smiled into the kiss as he often did when he felt pleased with himself. His fingers softly combed my hair, making me feel even better than what I already was. It was amazing how I could get lost in his kisses, truly get lost. It is as if I was simply in a black room and nothing surrounded me, all I could think about was him, his lips on mine, his hand touching my skin.

"Leah?" I heard a voice coming from the doorway.

I instantly backed up as my eyes found his.

Sam.

A/N: I truly hoped you like the ending…a little bit of a cliffhanger over there but that is just because I WANT YOU TO REVIEWWW: please?