I knew she was curious about the conversation, but I just couldn't tell her. If she found out that it was certain that Light was Kira and he was close to finding me, I knew what would happen. She would become wary at every phone call, paranoid with each noise outside the doorway. And I could never live with myself if I brought that upon her. Never, not even until the day I died. I tried to push the thought away, but it came anyway. Which might be soon. You need to come to terms with that. A month ago, I would not have minded dying if I had a day to prepare. Now, I doubted even if I had a year I would be able to leave. Besides, everything inside me wanted to stay here. Stay with the one I loved beyond my own life. After all, that was the only reason for my hesitation. If I did not know Taiya, I would not mind. And if I lost her, I would beg Kira to kill me. As cliché as it sounded, my life truly did not mean anything if she was not in it. She was the only thing keeping me on this earth. My every move, every word, every thought revolved around her and making her happy. And so I stood up and left my room. It only took an instant thinking of her and a smile crept across my face. The smile stayed through the hall, and brightened when I caught view of her face sitting on my couch.