How does it feel
How does it feel? - Chapter 5 BPOV
I had finished lacrosse practice and Angela and I were walking towards the parking lot. A classroom had been open and many people were inside. "Ang, what's
happening?" I said. "Don't know, let's check." I pass through the mini crowd that was taking photos of something. I stepped in closer and saw Alice, with a very
smug grin. I turned and saw the sickest thing on the planet. Jessica was topless, in a tiny lace pink thong, stuffing her face onto his. You could smell a bit of perfume
it was seriously toxic. She had grabbed his hands and eghh I don't even want to continue. I watched the 'session' and saw poor Edward struggling, but Jessica keep
grabbing hold of him and moaning. I couldn't feel sorrier for him. But strangely, besides that—I felt a mixture of jealousy and want. I wasn't jealous of Jess—that's
for sure. She was just disturbing, dumb, and sleazy. I didn't want to be her at all—she was just about to suffer. Was I feeling something towards Edward? I had
always thought of him as a friend; a handsome one. I never considered him someone I'd go out with but I always had enjoyed his company. Or was it my
protectiveness that he was being jeje raped a la Jessica? Jessica pulled his face to her chest and maybe a minute after he went limp. I looked closer and saw his face
deathly pale and his breathing was too slow. Jessica put her clothes back on and turned around. Her face was hilarious, but I was too worried. I rushed to Edward
and put his head in my lap. I brushed his silky, disheveled hair and put my hand to his forehead. He was cold; I automatically put my head to his heart and heard his
heartbeat. I turned around and slapped Jessica hard across the face. I tried to pick him up but being unconscious he was way too heavy. I yelled at Emmett and we
took him to the car. Rosalie was waiting there and we drove off to my house. Rose and Emmett were in the front, and Edward and me were in the back. I drew
circles with my fingers around his eyes, cheekbones, and lips. I stroked his hair softly and checked his pulse. Alice and Jasper had beat us there and they helped put
Edward on my bed. I changed out of my comfy Forks Lacrosse hoodie and shorts into a crème colored Hollister tank top, a jean skirt, a beige and gold shrug, some
silver flats and a matching bag. I wore my vintage gold earrings, and urban outfitters gold heart necklace, some gold bangles, I quickly put some Dior eye shadow,
and my favorite luminizer, and a clear Dior lip-gloss. I rushed out the door and got into Alice's yellow Porsche. "Alice what exactly happened in detention?" Rosalie
started snickering. They were both wearing striped sundresses. Alice had a turquoise and white one, she had a silver heart necklace and heart earrings, her silver
clutch was on the floor, and her new Tory Burch flats where on the gas pedal. Rosalie was wearing a pink, red, and white dress with a pink and red scarf. She had
pink flip flops and her famous Juicy bag. Her lips were red and full, she would always be perfect and I would be the boring, pale, brunette Isabella Swan. "Well,
Jasper and I were making out we didn't really want to put up with Jessica." She giggled. "Edward was trying to explain to her about the Marshall plan and then she
was "Edward you showed me how! You're amazing. Then threw herself at him. Then I forwarded it to everyone and you know the rest." She said out of breath.
"That's all Edward is gonna get." Rosalie said under her breath. Alice commanded "First we will head to Abercrombie, then Delia's, Victoria's Secret, Forever 21,
Topshop, Hollister, The Body Shop, Anthropologie, get food, Bloomingdale's, Louis Vuitton, Coach, Urban Outfitters, Burberry, Aldo, Roxy, Sephora, and finally Pacsun.
"Rosalie I hope you've dug my grave." She rolled her eyes. Alice parked the car and before I knew it they were dragging me to Abercrombie. Alice had bought me 3
polos, 2 tank tops, 7 jeans, 4 hoodies, and 2 belts. Rosalie freely strolled out with a new hoodie, belt, jeans, and tee. Alice had bought every color polo and jeans. At
Delia's I had gotten 5 hilarious shirts and 2 dresses. Alice bought 4 dresses and 5 pants. Rosalie had some red skinny jeans (I have em') and 2 dresses. Why was
she untouched by the wrath of Alice? Now, I was in Vicky's—Yikes, not good at all. Rosalie's and Alice's faces turned evil. I had gotten 6 different models of bras in
every color and 15 PINK underwear and 20 of these lacy FLOSS! I had gotten 12 night slips and Rosalie went far enough to buy me a perfume, Strawberry Fizz. Each
of us had 3 bags in each hand from Victoria's Secret. At Forever 21 we just bought 8 dresses each. Then at Topshop we bought EVERYTHING! At Hollister we bought
shorts and baby dolls. At the Body Shop I bought the Vitamin E Skincare Set (It's amazing!) and some of those bath balls that fizz up. Alice bought lotion. We went to
Anthropologie and bought things for our rooms, jewelry and jeans. We stopped to eat at The Grand Lux Café and I had a really good salad. At Bloomingdale's I
bought some Diane von Furstenberg dresses, some scarves and some Clinique. Rosalie bought a Rose Essentiale from Bvlgari (it smells so good!). We finally
purchased Alice's matching bag and I got a new wallet. At coach I bought an umbrella, some cute key chains, a small purse, and a new bag. Rose got the same and
Alice had 4 new purses. At urban outfitters we bought 12 dresses, 14 tees, 7 jackets, 40 accessories and a lot of room décor. At Burberry I bought The Beat perfume
(so good!) the 4 new coats. Rose bought practically everything in sight and Alice too. My arms were practically falling off now so we purchased 3 Prada suitcases for
our bags. At Aldo we bought 5 pairs of heels for each of us and I got some cute sandals. At Roxy I bought a dress and some bikinis. At Sephora, they bought me a
mountain of cosmetics from Pop Beauty, Givenchy, Hard Candy, Sugar and Chanel. When Rose was looking for a new moisturizer, Jessica had entered with Nina. Alice
turned around and shouted "Whore alert!' Then Jessica had come up to us and said "What did you call me Alice Cullen. You should be thanking me for giving your
brother some action in his life, too bad he couldn't handle it." "You call that action? That's torture beyond the Geneva code. Why are you here anyways trying to find
something for your self-induced hickeys?" She turned red. "I could ask the same thing about you Alice, weren't you having a make-out session with Jasper?" Alice
glared at her. "Well, I have a boyfriend who enjoys my company. I don't go around snogging guys and suffocating them against their will." "I think your forgetting
who you're talking to, I am the Jessica Stanley the hottest girl on the planet." I joined in, "Jessica stop fantasizing, if you were the hottest on the planet. You
wouldn't need anything to be beautiful and what is that in your hand A Pimple Terminator?" She huffed and turned around. We couldn't stop laughing. At Pacsun we
got some flip-flops and some shorts. We where so tired. We forced the suitcases and bags into the small sports car and went home.
While they were out…
Edward was unconscious on Bella's bed for 4 hours. Emmett and Jasper where bored to no end and they were wrestling downstairs because Jasper had beaten Emmett at Halo 3.
"Is Edward awake yet?" Asked Emmett mischievously. Jasper shook his head. They climbed up the stairs and went to the Bella's room.
They grabbed his sister's makeup bag and started messing up his face. Then they got bows and tied them to his hair. They laughed evilly and went downstairs again. Charlie was at a conference in D.C. and Renee was at a spa in Hawaii. Emmett and Bella where always home alone because of their parents jet setting personalities. This is why the Cullen's, Hale's, and Swan's stuck together so much.
At 9pm Edward had woken up.
EPOV
I had waked up in a familiar light blue room. But wasn't I at Mrs. Parksley's class with Jessica. Memories played in my head Jessica jumping on me, kissing me, taking
her clothes off, grabbing before I got out, placing my hands on her chest, then grabbing my head and sticking in her chest then going cold. I was frowning but my
face was all sticky. She must have had a lot of lip gloss 'cause it was on my hair too. I hadn't enjoyed it all, she was sick and revolting. She was disgusting and evil I
had constantly denied her but she pushed it this far. I struggled but I didn't want to hurt her, Esme taught me better than that. I wasn't going to kick her, punch
her, or slap her. I was at the point but then she grabbed my hands and put them to her hard, cold boobs they were like heavy rocks she must have had plastic
surgery. Then she put me in between them and the smell was poisonous, it was a hazard to health. I couldn't bear but I had to breathe. I was really light-headed
and then it was light's out for me. I went to the bathroom and heard manly giggles down below. I looked in the mirror and saw several bows in my hair and my face
in a rose colored powder then my lips a striking red and my eyes covered in purple shadow. I ran downstairs and tackled Emmett and punched him in the face as for
Jasper I punched him in the gut. "What the hell!" I yelled. They couldn't stop laughing they were rolling on the floor crying because they were laughing so hard. I
kicked them and went upstairs. I looked quickly in the bathroom sink, I needed too take this off soon. Maybe Bella has a makeup remover, this was hers right? I
shuffled through the cabinets and saw "Not on My Pillow." A makeup remover from Benefit, I used it and it was off. I let out a sigh full of relief. I laughed at the
bottle's name and rushed downstairs again. They stopped laughing but they couldn't keep a straight face. "We should go buy things to see the move. Alice wanted
candy, smoothies, popcorn, and sodas." I said quickly. "Your forgetting one little thing, little Eddie. We want to grab some beers and condoms." I grimaced at the
Eddie, and gagged at the last statement. "Fine, let's go there not coming until 10pm right?" They entered into Emmett's Jeep. We headed to the supermarket and
we bought the food, then Jasper started to snicker and we headed to the pharmacy. Emmett and Jasper asked for their 'necessities' then when we cashier to pay,
none other than Lauren was there. Her nasal voice screeched "Alice, Jasper, Rosalie, and Emmett are in the mood—OOOH! What about you Edward did Jessica turn
you on?" We just left the store. When we got home Emmett and Jasper began chugging beers. Instead, I went to Bella's room and listened to my Ipod. I started
listening to Stop and Stare by OneRepublic. Her room was baby blue and her comforter was a black. Over her bed was a black and white Audrey Hepburn painting.
Her Cd collection was on the wall and there was an ebony desk with a crisp, white Mac. Then there was a rug that looked like it was a faux polar bear skin. On the
other side there was a large window overlooking a forest. The curtains were black with silver sequins so it looked like nighttime. She had an enlarged photo of
Rose, Alice, and her in black and white. They had their signatures on it. Then she had black and white photographs of Paris. Then she had her books on many
shelves that were also either black or white. Then a photo of me and her, another one with Emmett and her, then one with Alice and Jasper at the school carnival
last year. She had a photo of her parents on her nightstand. I kept pacing around in her room until Alice called for the guys to help with the shopping bags. They had
bought an insane amount of clothes, Bella looked wiped out but once she saw me she came and hugged me. He squeezed me tight "You're alive!" she shouted. I
inhaled her strawberry scent, her body felt so soft against mine. We fit together so well, she was meant for me. I loved Bella, she was my everything. But I kept
telling myself she only loved me as a brother and I should love her as a sister. I wanted to not believe that; but it was reality. I gave her my crooked smile that she
loved so I could disguise my dissatisfaction and we enter with all the bags of clothes. We carried her to her bedroom and I helped her put them in her closet. Rose
was putting hers in her red convertible but did I see a Victoria's secret bag that she left in the guest room? Alice also kept one; I tried to not let my brain wander.
Bella and I kept hanging endless amounts of clothes: jeans, shirts, dresses, shorts, bathing suits. Then we organized her jewelry and she put it in the musical box I
gave her when I was nine. I had a goofy grin on, she still had it! Then she got these crèams from the Body shop and organized them in her bathroom. The others
were getting the food ready and setting up the movie. There were only 6 bags left all very PINK. Bella blushed, "You can sit on the bed while I handle this, Edward."
She looked so cute. I sat on the bed while I saw her unload this perfume set also pink and rush to the bathroom. She grabbed a handful of silks in one hand which I
presumed where nightdresses; then one fell on the floor and it was completely sheer with a lot of black lace. She blushed even more if possible and picked it up and
stuffed it in a drawer. Then I thought how Bella would look in one of those. I pictured her longs legs creamy white in a red silk slip so tiny it could barely cover her
legs, you could see her large breasts through a light pink lace—"Edward are you ok?" I was staring into space and drool was forming at the bottom of my lip. She
had some lacy strings in her hand. "Oh nothing, I'm just really hungry and the popcorn smells mouthwatering." I said trying to hide my fantasizing about her body.
She headed off to another cabinet and tucked the strings there she had one last one in her had that she stretched and then I noticed that they weren't strings but
they were thongs. She looked quizzically at it and I noticed by the look on her face she didn't feel she was beautiful and could ever be in such a tempting item. It was black and sheer and it's back and top was lace and it had crystals around the lace. She put it back in the cabinet before I could ponder on.
Rose called "MOVIE TIME!" And both of us rushed downstairs. Emmett had taken the sofa and Alice and Jasper had taken the loveseat. But Bella was quicker she had set up some blankets and I lay down and held her in my arms.
Epic movie started and Emmett kept acting like Willy Wonka and Bella shook as she laughed. So cute I thought as she watched intently at the movie and laughed I played with her hair and traced her jaw line. She reached up to my cheek and caressed it then her hand swept my hair and then she traced my eyes and nose.
I turned to see the other couples and Alice was whispering things in Jasper's ear, and Rose was on top of Emmett her lips on his face.
I couldn't stop laughing at the Harry Potter scene. She started cracking up at the battle scene, so did Alice who was quite content with Jasper. It took a while for me to get used to them dating, but I trusted him.
Then at the end, Borat came out and did the butt cheek thing we all started laughing. She turned to me and gave me the loveliest grin in the world, but I sat there smiling like an idiot. Was it obvious that I loved her?
A/N: Awww sweet chappie. Edward is more like the common adolescent male here but he's still the same. It was a veryyy long chapter for you guys. And I tried my hardest to update my fastest! I'm going to try to make the next chapter with more of B+E. Feel free to give me any ideas! I accept anonymous reviews, so if you don't have an account you can still review! Any one who reviews automatically becomes Edward's singer:)