Chapter 2- Healing
Cuz
we, are just gonna be, enemies
As long as we breathe, I don't ever
see, either of us
Coming to terms, where we can agree
There
ain't gonna be, no reason, speakin wit me
You speak on my seed,
then me, no speakin Englais
So we gonna beef, and keep on beefin,
unless
You're gonna agree, to meet with me in the flesh
And
settle this face to face, and you're gonna see
A demon unleashed
in me, that you've never seen
Eminem- Go To Sleep
Renesmme's POV
I was vaguely aware of a couple of things at once. The first was the family running towards my mommy and screaming frantically. The second was a now still great red wolf who was staring down at my mommy with wide eyes. I was sure that I saw a big tear roll down his face for a brief second, but he fled. I hesitantly put my hand up as if to stop him but put my hand back down. I didn't bother to look up to see where he went.
The third was my daddy. He didn't yell or scream. He didn't do anything. He just stared with big eyes at my mommy and fell on his knees. I mimicked his movement, but I was crying. This was somehow worse than everybody else's reaction.
"Rosalie," my daddy said softer that a whisper. "Take Renesseme upstairs."
My head immediately snapped up and looked for Aunt Rosalie. She was standing about ten feet away looking down at my mommy with true loss and sorrow in her eyes. Her head snapped up when mine did and she looked at my daddy then at me. I shook my head violently and moved closer to my mommy.
"Now!" said daddy much louder this time. Aunt Rosalie picked me up and started up the stairs. I gently touched my hand to her temple when we were half way up. Is she going to be alright? I asked her frantically. She looked down at me and looked away. I started to cry again.
"Carlisle, please. Is there way? Please, Carlisle, please," I heard daddy say just as frantically as I did. There was no answer and I heard my daddy start to heave almost silently.
"Edward, you have to calm down," urged Grandma Esme say. Auntie Rosalie took me deeper into the house, and I could hear no more. She opened the door to a room that I realized was hers. She placed me gently on the bed and stood there looking at me.
I sat up and touched her temple again. Why did Jacob do that? I asked. She looked down at me with an expression that crossed a slight grimace and great disgust. And sighed.
"He just cares about you and your safety is all. Your mommy made him mad when she said that she was letting you go to school, and that's the way he handles his anger," she said with obvious effort. She said something under her breath that sounded like "stupid" and "mongrel".
We both heard a loud shriek of pain. Our heads both snapped to the door. "I'll be right back, sweetheart," she said absently and then ran out the door. I heard another wail and a snap that followed. I started to cry more and I laid down burying my head in the pillow until all sounds became distant.
Bella's POV
"Alice…Alice…when?" I heard somebody ask softly. My Edward… my mind clicked together groggily. A stab of pain shot through my back and up my spine. I tried to move or shriek or some kind of protest, but my body wasn't cooperating. Like it wasn't mine. Drugged perhaps? What had happened last night?
"Give her time, Edward," said another voice, closer to me. Carlisle…my mind told me. I heard a great sigh and a slight movement. Something warm touched my hand. Renesmee… I thought joyfully. I wanted to see her face…her smile. Just to ensure me that everything was okay…but was it?
He's in pain, I realized slowly. I took a shuddering breath and began to lower the solid barriers around my mind. Whatever was in my head made Edward gasp and rush over to me too. "Carlisle, the amount of pain…is…unbelievable…and I can do nothing," spoke Edward hopelessly.
I tried to relay the events night in failure. We…came to the house to tell them something…then…Jacob came…and…. What happened next? I laid there silently listening to the slow motions of Renesmee's breathing. After a while, my eyes fluttered open.
Edward's POV
I stared down at the incredibly beautiful face that was now blank. She didn't breathe; she didn't need to. She was one of us now. She assured me that it wasn't a mistake. But somehow, it all felt that way. Everything felt wrong. Like the world was off its axis or three times three didn't equal nine. And yet, I had someone to blame for that.
Jacob. That was all I could think about for the past fourteen hours. How he was to blame. I was on the verge of starting to blame him for global warming. Edward…calm down. Please, thought Alice who was staring at me from across the room. I met her gaze equally. "Alice…Alice…when?" I pleaded almost soundlessly, like if I spoke any louder the situation would get worse.
Alice stared at me for a moment and shook her head. I felt like I was choking. "Give her time, Edward," Carlisle said coolly. A new wave of hysteria was about to hit, so I took a deep breath and sighed. Something warm and soft touched my temple. I think she's gonna wake soon, said a detached voice in my mind. A slideshow of pictures moving so fast that I could barely distinguish them flared through me. They involved me and Bella standing with Renesmee or playing with her. I smiled and looked down at her.
She got up and walked over to Bella's motionless body and placed her hand upon hers. Suddenly, a new awareness flared into the room. Blackness and pain washed over me. I gasped in pain and shock and ran over to Bella taking the hand that Renesmee was holding and squeezed it tightly.
"Carlisle, the amount of pain…is…unbelievable…and I can do nothing," I said with hope flaring in my voice for a moment, and then falling back down as fast as it came. I stared at her face, the face that I could only imagine before actually seeing it. The face that made me smile so many times before. And…was I going to lose it?
Her eyes slowly opened and revealed pure sadness and distraught in them. I bent my head so that my lips brushed hers. "You're awake," I said simply. She nodded feebly. She slowly sat up and pulled Renesmee into her lap.
"What happened?" Bella asked looking at me, and then to Carlisle, then Alice. Renesmee let out a small cry and Bella's hold tightened.
"You honestly don't remember?" asked Alice inching closer. She shook her head. Anger flared into me. I stood up to leave.
"Where are you going?" Bella asked with panic streaking her voice. I softened my expression and kissed her forehead.
"Business," I said slowly and walked out the door. But before I did so, Carlisle caught my eye, and I regretted it.
Don't be stupid, were his parting words.
I ran through the forest, speeding pass tree by tree until I stopped at where I needed to be. I crouched down to almost the floor and waited. A twig snapped to my right, followed by a remarkable stench. "Show your self!" I screamed.
"Don't…I already feel terrible," said a voice from behind a tree. I growled and crouched lower. "Please…you can't possibly understand.
"Oh, I think I do," I said harshly. Jacob Black appeared from behind a shroud of green. "I think that you care about my daughter so much that you lost your senses. Your sense of being or feelings or the judge of what's right," I continued as I spat the last word. He cringed.
"Do you know what you did to her? Her spine snapped. She went into shock. We had to drug her, and was out of touch for fourteen hours. Renesmee has been crying for at least half of them and asking why you did it. My family has been submerged in grief and I…can't even describe how I felt. And all just because we proposed for Renesmee to go to school.
"Do you know how stupid that was? But then again, why should you care? Bella's meant nothing to you ever since Renesmee came. And don't give me the imprinting ordeal because you two used to be best friends. And you're not making an effort to go to her anymore. To go against her, maybe, but not with her." I finished with anger slowly subsiding.
Jacob slouched down and placed his weight against a tree. "You're right. I have no excuse. But, I just don't feel the same way for her. And you know what, I don't think I care," he said and got back up with a new look of pride in his eyes. I felt my eyes go wild and my growl intensified.
"Let me explain," Jacob said before I ripped him to shreds. He paused to see if I objected and then continued. "The whole imprinting thing…it's not a one way street. You have to understand that. So before Renesmee was born, Bella was the closest thing there was to her. So, it was like…a slight imprint. And Bella felt the same way. But now, Renesmee's here, and that's all I need," he said and smiled, proud of his explanation.
I snapped. I jumped at him, but a million things raced through my mind. Including Bella and Renesmee's pain or my family's guilt at what I had done. At the last second I moved just a fraction of an inch and hit the tree instead. Suddenly, Jacob Black disappeared and was replaced with a now murderous wolf.
I stood back up and walked away not bothering to look at him. "Don't neglect everyone," I whispered and ran suddenly feeling deep guilt and shame set in.
A/N: I am so sorry about the long wait you guys! My life has just been hectic, but I tried to put all my spare time into this! Chapter 3 coming soon! I promise! Please rate this!
- Daisy