Okay, here's chapter four for you all! Hope you enjoy it. Sorry it took a long time, my computer has been dying and I've been writing on a laptop. Though I didn't have the first half of the story so I had a few problems. I'm still figuring out where to draw chapter lines so bear with me here! I have some interesting plans for the rest of the story. Again, sorry if there's grammar errors, I'm not perfect and I never will be either. I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT CHARACTERS, I JUST MAKE UP STORIES ABOUT THEM. :D

I woke up at 8:00 that morning. Alice was on her laptop with her iPod plugged into her ears. I stretched and tried to recall what happened last night, or rather, this morning.

"Alice, I'm awake!"

"Ah, Bella! Happy Birthday, again!" Alice seemed excited.

"Thanks, I guess." I think I'm going to take a shower and then get some breakfast at the cafeteria. What time does orientation start?"

"It starts at 9:30, so hurry! If you want, I can make your breakfast."

"Sure, I would like that! Okay I'm going then." I hurried and took a shower. When I came back Alice had already fixed chocolate chip pancakes. They were the best pancakes I had. I wondered how someone who never ate real food could be such an excellent cook. We rushed down to the main hall and waited for a tour of the campus. I was wearing my necklace Alice gave me, and my pear earrings Emmett and Rosalie gave me. Ryan came and found me, and Alice immediately told him about my birthday.

"Well, looks like I owe you a birthday dinner, how about it Bella," Ryan said.

"Sure, I don't have anything else to do tonight I guess," I agreed. I turned to Alice because something just occurred to me.

"Alice, what are you subject are you majoring in, or are you an undergraduate too?"

Alice chuckled and replied "I'm majoring in music. I play cello so I want to get a degree and play professionally." I knew that was her cover story, but I still found it fascinating that she could play music. I thought Edward was the only musical one in the family. I fell into a trance thinking about the lullaby Edward composed for me when we first started dating. Before I knew it I started crying again. I sat next to him a number of times over at his house listening to play music. He was very fond of Debussy and played Clair De Lune almost every time I sat with him. I missed his piano playing deeply, sometimes it was the only way he could calm me down, especially after the James incident in Phoenix.

"Bella, not again!" Alice hissed at me. "Come on, pull yourself together, you're fine." Reluctantly I did and stopped my blubbering in time for the tour guide to show me around. Ryan walked with Alice and I the whole time. I kept trying to get him away so I could tell Alice about the cold hand on my face this morning. Finally after eternity the tour was over.

"Bella, can I pick you up around 8:00 tonight?" Ryan asked.

"Sure, I guess that's fine. You pick the restaurant because I don't know about any of them up here."

"Okay, see you then! Bye Bella! Bye Alice!" Ryan waved and left.

"Alice, we need to go back to our room and talk," I said anxiously.

"Sure thing Bella, whatever you say." We walked back to our room in silence, at a very quick pace. I struggled to keep up with Alice. When we reached our room I went and sat at the chair at my desk and motioned for Alice to sit close to me.

"Alice, did you touch my face at all last night?" I said with a tone of fear in my voice.

"No, Bella, what are you talking about?"

"Alice, I felt something weird on my face last night, it was a hand, and it was cold as ice. The hand was on my face for a whole two seconds until I woke up. It was the happiest two seconds of my life, this is going to sound crazy but I think it was Edward."

"Bella, you're talking crazy. Edward should be somewhere in Africa."

"Really? Am I talking crazy? Carlisle said you haven't seen a vision about Edward in a long time. Can you tap into his future and see where he is?"

"I can try, but he's been gone so long I'm not attuned to him anymore."

I left Alice alone for the next hour and a half while I started on homework. I could not believe I had homework and class had not started yet. Finally Alice spoke.

"I can't see into his future Bella. If he was anywhere near us then I would be able to tap into his future, so he must still be far away."

I sighed and said "okay, thanks for trying anyway." I could not help but feel sorrow and my heart ached. The hole was getting bigger, almost as though it was eating my heart.

The next day came uninterrupted by strange dreams or cold hands. My birthday was not as bad as I thought it would be, but I was now nineteen and I hated feeling so old. I woke up at 7:30 and got ready for class. Alice was already gone for orchestra class, so I was on my own. I looked at my schedule and it said I have English first. I packed my laptop, paper, pencils, and my other school supplies and headed out to class. I was one of the first ones to the class because I did not want to sit alone in my dorm room. I picked a seat in the middle of the lecture hall and turned on my laptop.

"Well hello there Bella" a familiar voice said.

"Oh, Ryan, hi." I was hoping I would not have a class with him. He was a nice guy, but he talked non-stop. He reminded me a lot of Mike Newton. We talked for a while, or rather he talked for a while and I sat there pretending I was listening. More people filed into the classroom as 8:00 approached.

The professor walked into the classroom and said "Good morning freshman! Welcome to English 100. Look around the room and take one minute to introduce yourself to any new faces. I guarantee you will not meet everyone." He was right, the class was huge! There were at least 250 people in the hall, and it was crowded. This was a big change from the little town of Forks. The class began and I tried not to notice Ryan's nervous stares at me. To keep myself occupied, I took notes and raised my hand whenever the professor asked a question. Normally I hated answering questions because it draws attention to myself, but I wanted everyone to stare a me so Ryan would not be the only one. The clock ticked slowly, and I found myself glancing at it every three minutes. The sooner I could get out of this class, the better.

After another hour went by, the class was finally over. I sprinted out of the lecture hall so Ryan could not catch up with me. I had an hour until my next class, so I walked to the cafeteria and ate lunch. I checked my watch and sighed, maybe Ryan will be in a different class, this university is huge after all. I walked to the art building and I could hear lovely music. I peeked into one of the practice rooms to find Alice, and three other people playing music in a quartet. She looked up and waved and before I knew it she was outside standing with me.

"So, how's you're first day going so far?!" she asked excitedly.

"Oh okay, Ryan is in my first class," I said with a hint of disgust in my voice. "He stared at me the whole time, and I found it a little scary. The professor seems nice though, and the class is huge!"

"Well, don't worry about Ryan, he won't give you any trouble. What did you think of the Bach quartet we were playing?"

"I didn't hear much, but you guys are wonderful artists. My next class is an art class up on the next level, I'm sure I'll be able to hear you. Speaking of which, I need to get up there and grab a seat before they're all taken." Alice waved and went back inside the room.

I walked up stairs two at a time and found my class. This was a much smaller class, only about fifty people. The professor introduced herself and began the class. She asked us to draw or paint anything today. I grabbed a big sheet of paper and a few pencils. It had been a long time since I last painted or drew anything. The last time was during the summer, before Edward left. I took one of the pencils in my hand and began drawing. I threw myself in my work, not stopping until it was perfect. The professor peered over my shoulder and said "Trés Magnific!" I looked up and realized she was talking to me.

"It's nothing, really!" I said, embarrassed about my work.

The professor spoke in rapid French. Then she said," This is an amazing drawing, did you come up with this image all on your own?"

"Actually," I choked trying to fight back tears. "It is a person I once knew. We were close, very close."

"I can see so much emotion behind this, and he is absolutely gorgeous! You are a wonderful artist. What is your name again?"

"Bella. Bella Swan. Thank you very much for appreciating my drawing. It has been a long time since I've drawn anything."

"Well Bella, you have some real talent. I look forward to working with you this semester! You have a real career on your hands, what are you majoring in currently?"

"I'm an undergraduate, I didn't pay attention on career day."

The professor laughed and said, "Well, you should consider being an artist, go and think about it and let me know by the next class period."

The clock on the wall chimed two in the afternoon. "Ah, my pupils! It is time to part. Until then keep your eyes on something interesting for your next project!"

I liked this art class. Sure, it was the basic art 100, but it was oddly thrilling. I cannot remember being so excited about school before. It felt so liberating to sit down and draw Edward; it was very easy once I got started. Though the details of his hair and nose structure are vague because it has been so long since I last saw him. While thinking about Edward, I delicately placed my project on the professor's desk. I was sure to be careful, treating my masterpiece like the Mona Lisa.

I walked out of the classroom and went back to my dorm room. Alice was there with a melancholy look on her face. I do not think I had seen her that way before.

"Alice?" I said trying to hide my curiosity and concern. "What's going on, you look like you've seen a ghost! Don't tell me they're enemies of yours too?" I immediately felt guilty thinking about Jacob and considering Alice might really be bothered by something.

"Bella, I had a vision…This is hard for me to say. It's about Edward; he's in pain." I looked at her with a confused expression on my face, and also with worry. I sat down on my bed and put my hands over my face to stifle tears.

"Is Edward in any danger?

"No, not that kind of pain," Alice replied back with a little bit of relief in her tone.

"Where is he? Is he near by? Does he know you're with me?" Questions had started pouring out of me and Alice held up a hand to silence me. I did not care if Edward was on the other side of the world, I would go to him.

"I can't see a place. The vision was him sitting against a white wall. His eyes looked black. He was curled up in a ball and I'm sure if he could cry, he would. "

"Alice, we need to find Edward. I can't live without him here. You know that. He must be hurting as much as I am."

"We'll try Bella. I want him back as much as you do. I'll keep trying to watch his future. It's so distant though, I'm really struggling. Maybe I'll call Carlisle a little later. For now I just need to go walk and try and clear my head."

It seemed odd for Alice to say she was going to clear her head. It seemed like she was always in constant motion. Vampires could also think several different things at once, to clear their heads would seem very close to impossible. I sighed and sobbed into my pillow. After a minute I picked up my head and looked toward the picture of Jacob and myself. My heart throbbed, feeling more empty than ever before.