Yup, another chapter here for you all, I'm still posting what I've had written for a while so that's why it's coming so fast. I'm making up for lost time, there.

POV—EDWARD

Being apart from Bella all these months has been killing me. I wish I was dead because I do not think the pain would be as much. I had done so well over the past year staying away from her, though not a second went by that I was reminded of her, or thought about her. My heart is empty, nothing is important to me without Bella to share it with. I told Alice that I would not see her as long as she was with Bella, but I think I am going to break all the promises I made within the last year. I need to see Bella. I need my heart back.

But she needs to adjust to human life. She cannot wait around for me, when all that would come out of it would be me hurting her. I could not deal with the amount of guilt if I harmed her. She needs to form her own life, and find her own love.

However, she did find her own love. She chose me when she could have chosen Mike Newton or any of the other worthless boys at Forks High School. Alice said her date with some Ryan kid went very poorly, and after that I knew Bella would not be content until I decided to come back. I sat against the white wall and curled up into a ball. I am going back.

I went to the airport and ordered a plane ticket to Seattle. I imagined the look on Bella's face when I walked into her dorm room and scooped her up into my arms. I hope she will take me back. That lie I told her a year ago burned farther into her soul than I imagined. I do still care about her, I do want her.

She should not take you back Edward, she deserves much better than you. She threw her heart and soul at you and all you did was tell her you did not want her? Bella does not deserve a jerk like you.

No, I have to go. I hopped on the plane eager to be in the same state, let alone country as Bella. Canada was a nice place, but nothing could be excellent without Bella. After what seemed like hours I finally landed in Seattle. I could hear thoughts of people wanting coffee, and I knew I was in Washington. I headed through customs with a spring in my step. I rented a car and drove lightning speed to the University of Washington. Alice's thoughts were still vague to me because I am not attuned to her anymore. I can fix that with a little practice. I parked the car and went along with my instinct to the dorm I assumed was Bella's. I could hear Alice's thoughts more clearly now and followed them to her room. Jasper must have been inside too because he was thinking about taking Alice on a walk. Alice was thinking about skipping class tomorrow afternoon to go hunting.

I knocked on the door and waited for a response. Alice opened it the next instant with a big smile on her face. It vanished once she saw it was me.

"Hello Alice!" I said with excitement in my voice. "I missed you so much, and you still look as lovely as always. How are you doing?"

"Edward?" She asked. "What are you doing here, why did you come?"

"Alice, you were right. I miss my Bella so much. If she doesn't want a normal human life then that's her wish. I just can't live without her. I hope she feels the same way and will take me back. If not, then that's her choice. Now, is my Bella here? Don't tell me you're going to leave your brother that you haven't seen in a year standing out on the doorstep."

Alice moved hesitantly and let me into their room. She sighed and said, "Bella isn't here."

"When is she coming back? She must be in a class or eating. I am so excited I feel like running to her and disrupting whatever she's doing. Oh, Jasper! I forgot you were in here too, nice to see you too!"

"Nice to see you Edward," He said. He looked guilty about something.

"Edward, do you want to go take a walk for a while, I mean I've been cooped up in my room all day today and I just want to stretch my legs," Alice said nervously. She was hiding something, I could feel it.

"Alice, what's going on, where's Bella? Why are you trying so hard to get rid of me?"

"Edward, Bella isn't here and she won't be coming back. She went out a couple nights ago by herself. I was in class when she did this and she left a note saying she wanted a change. She never came back. Had I seen it coming I would've stopped it. Though that sonata my quartet played the other day was just so lovely."

"Well, do you know where she went? I didn't think she would hate college this much, I feel really bad now."

"No, Edward, you don't understand. She isn't coming back not by her own choosing, but because she was kidnapped."

I felt my eyes turn black. "Kidnapped?" I could not believe what I was hearing. I went and sat down in a chair and ran my fingers through my hair. "Bella was kidnapped and you couldn't even think about calling me?" I said trying not to yell.

"Edward," Alice said. "We didn't know how to tell you. Carlisle told us not to tell you until they figured out a plan. They only got back yesterday. They're staying at our house in Forks for now. We think we're going to go looking for her, but I haven't seen any visions of where Bella is. It's because I've been away for so long that it takes that same amount of time to become attuned again."

I sighed and wandered over to where I thought Bella's bed was. I sat down and sniffed her pillow. It smelled so good, I missed this scent. Finally I said, "Well, going and looking for her would be a good plan. Perhaps we can track her scent. We can bring one of her clothing items with us to remind us of the smell."

"Yes, that was my plan, even though I can keep a smell for a long time, it would be even better if we brought something of Bella's along with us," Jasper said. "We will find her Edward, and she'll be okay."

"I should have never left Bella. I wish I could have been there for everything that I missed; Christmas, New Year's, Valentines Day, her graduation, all of it I should've been there with her. This may have been the worst mistake I've ever made. All I wanted is what's best for her, but it's clear now that it ended badly anyway."

"Edward," Alice walked over and placed her hand on my shoulder. "It's not your fault, you didn't know how this was going to end. You can't keep blaming yourself for everything. Now, we're going to try everything we can to get Bella back. Carlisle and Esme will be arriving in about five minutes."

"Okay, I will try Alice. More than anything I wish I could have her in my arms and to be safe from everything. Alice I owe you a tremendous apology, like I said earlier, you were right about coming back. It's evident that Bella needs more protection, rather than all of us disappearing from her life. Can you please fill me in on everything I missed?"

"Can I show you? I've been documenting everything with my camera. I knew one day you would want to know what you missed." She danced over to her computer and opened up a file that said 'Bella Slideshow.' It started when she came back in March. The first picture was St. Patrick's Day. Bella was smiling wearing all green, with streaks of green in her hair. She had shamrocks painted on her delicate face. I chuckled because though she looked silly, though still breathtakingly beautiful. The next few pictures were of her and Alice together. The slideshow was set to music, happy music. Even though Bella looked like she was smiling in all the pictures, I guessed Alice told her to smile. I could sense in her eyes she was miserable. The next round of pictures that really caught my attention were the graduation photos. She looked so beautiful in her gown. She was holding her diploma and standing next to Charlie. Again, she looked miserable when I looked at her eyes. There were many pictures of the Graduation All Night Party, and Bella looked like she was trying to have fun. The rest of the pictures were summer pictures, it looked like Alice and Bella went to the beach many times. The most recent ones were of Bella's empty room and a last picture of Bella standing with Charlie. Then a picture came up with Bella and Alice standing in the doorway of their dorm room. This was the first picture I saw where Bella was not smiling. She truly looked like she was in pain.

"That's the last picture," Alice finally said. The music ended soon after.

"Brilliant Alice, this is very nice. I wish I could have been there. The pictures are wonderful, but it isn't the same as being there. Plus, the pain behind her eyes wouldn't be there if I was around. I feel like I could kick myself hard for what I did. Alice I owe you so much for coming back."

Then I heard a knock. I already knew who it was, and so did Alice. She had a somewhat relieved expression on her face. She raced to the door and opened it. There was Carlisle and Esme. I got up from the chair I was sitting in and walked over to my parents. Immediately Esme wrapped me in the biggest hug.

"Don't you ever do that to me again," she hissed in my ear.

"I'm so sorry Esme, I don't know what I was thinking," I replied back ashamed of myself. I turned to Carlisle. "It's so wonderful to see you again too. Thank you for helping us find Bella. I'm also so very sorry I didn't call more often, it was very idiotic on my part. I do hope you both find it in your hearts to forgive me."

"Of course," both Carlisle and Esme replied at the same time. Then Esme said, "Alice, did you call Edward and tell him about this?"

"No, Edward had no idea until he came here," Alice said plainly.

"Well, we have some major work to do here," Carlisle said clapping his hands together and sitting down on one of the chairs. "Edward, can you fetch an article of clothing from Bella's closet?"

"I'm right on it Carlisle." I had some faith that we would be able to find Bella after all.