Chapter 12: The Horrible Question

It was about 3:30 a.m. in the morning. I tried to open my eyes, but I was too tired. So I closed them.

About 2 minutes later, I decided to get over it. I slowly opened my eyes and noticed that I was in the base. Suddenly, I noticed a figure sleeping and snoring on my right. Although, he was holding my hand.

He always snores so loud…

"You know you snore really loud," I whispered. Suddenly, the person woke up.

"You're awake!" Suzaku wrapped his arms around my neck.

"Um, Suzaku," I said.

"Hm?" he asked.

"You're choking me," I said. He let go of my neck.

"Sorry," he said. I put my left hand over my head.

"How long was I asleep?" I questioned.

"About 2 days," he said.

Shit! I've got a lot of homework to do now!

"Are you ok?" I asked.

"I think you should worry about yourself," he said "you nearly died."

"What about Lelouch?" he frowned.

"He hasn't been in school," he answered "he's been gone for a while."

"Oh," I said.

"You should get some rest. I'll check on you in an hour or two," he said.

"Ok," I said. He gave me a gentle kiss and walked out. However, I didn't close my eyes.

"Alright, May," I said "you can come out now." May carefully crawled out from under my bed.

"Did you get a good 2 day sleep?" she asked. I laughed.

"Did anything happen while I was asleep?" I asked.

"Well," she said "Lelouch lost his memory."

"Really?" I said "that's a relief."

"Actually, he doesn't being Zero and he also forgot about his parents and Nunnally," she explained.

"Oh," I said "what about geass?"

"That, too," she said.

2 Days Later

About 2 days past. Lelouch regained his memory, but Nunnally wasn't found.

Great, I hope he doesn't remember me.

After school, Suzaku and I went to the music chamber to write a new song. Although, he had to leave early. The Emperor needed him for something.

"Ok, let's see," I was sitting by the piano, trying to figure out a song "ok, chorus, um." I played the piano as I sang along.

Author's Note: I really wrote these songs, except for CrushCrushCrush, just to let you guys know. Tell me what you think of them!

Chorus:

This is who I am

And this is who I'll be

No one can stop me from reaching for my dream

They can tease me, hurt me, or call me names

But they can never change who I am

*5 Seconds Later*

Who I am

"That's it!" I wrote the chorus on my sheet music.

"Well, I'll finish this tomorrow," I said.

As I stood up, I figure turned me around.

"Miss me?" he asked.

"I see you got your memory back," I said. He smiled.

"I've come to ask you something," Lelouch said.

"Do you possibly believe that I'm going to forgive you for what's going to happen in the future?" I asked.

"It's not about that," he smirked "but I do want you to forgive me." I looked away, so I wouldn't see his face.

"Like that will ever happen," I said. He took his hand and turned my head, so my face would be facing his.

"Back to topic," he said "Euphie killed your parents, Suzaku lied about it, and you still fight for Britannia." I took his hand of my face.

"That's none of your business," I said.

"That's why I'm making it my business," he said "join me."

"Join you in what?" I asked.

"Bringing Britannia down," he said. I put my face closer to his.

"You mean the Black Knights?" I asked.

"Yup," he said "you hate Britannia and so do I. You want revenge for your parents' death and so do I. What do you say?" I looked down.

"That's ok," he said "I'll give you 3 days." Suddenly, he moved closer to me. He wrapped his hands in my face as his gentle lips touched mine. I tried to pull away, but I couldn't resist.

"Clarissa!" yelled my good side "you can't do this! You love Suzaku, not Lelouch!"

"Hey!" yelled my bad side "you want revenge for your parents' death, don't you? Join him! He can help you."

"Fight him!"

"Join him!"

"Suzaku!"

"Lelouch!"

"Don't forget, Clarissa," said my good side "you're the top soldier in Holy Britannia history! You're the Emperor's private guard!"

"Boo hoo!" said my bad side "the Princess killed your parents. You must take revenge!"

Mother, father, help me choose the right thing to do. I know I must have revenge for your deaths, but I want to do the right thing. Please help me, help me with his horrible question.