Disclaimer: I do not own anything related to code geass. I own Arie/Eira Tsouna.

Forever Not

I was studying in Suzaku's room. Suzaku was reading his English books silently. "Arie." he stated without moving his eyes from the pages. "Suzaku?" I answered. "How are you feeling?" Suzaku asked. "I'm alright. Why do you ask?" I retorted. "You haven't been coming home as usual." Suzaku spoke calmly. My eyes slightly widened hoping that he didn't know about Lelouch and I. "I've been busy." I said nervously. Suzaku leaned his head in closer to mine as he continued reading the book, but this time aloud. "..." I felt my face heat up as he was coming in too close. "Su...zaku?" I stuttered as he placed his lips on mine. "Mmm..." I felt like losing myself to him. Suzaku released me after a moment and blushed.

"I'm sorry." Suzaku said nervous. I blushed in embarrassment and turned away. "...Well, let's get back to-" I trailed off until Suzaku kissed me again. "Suzaku, what are we doing?" I questioned. "Close to making out." Suzaku chuckled. I hugged him and closed my eyes. "Heeyyy!!!" Gino barged in the room and I pushed Suzaku away in shock. "Dang, you two are closer than I thought." Gino approached me with a grin. Gino placed one arm around me and poked my cheek. "So you and Kururugi share a room? I wonder why..." Gino said happily. "Gino, get out." Anya ordered. "What?! No way." Gino pouted. "They do not want you to bother them, it seems that they were studying." Anya said observing the books. "Yeah." Suzaku said. Gino released me and stomped out of the room. I sighed.

As the days went by, Lelouch, Shirley, Suzaku, and I were walking around the park. However, we all were separated. Suzaku and Shirley had to talk alone. "I wonder what's going on?" I asked Lelouch as we stepped by the pond. I touched the water with my fingertips. "I don't know, but what else should we do today?" Lelouch smiled cheerfully. He was optimistic and it was scaring me. "...How about the mall." I suggested as I sat down. "Okay, we'll just wait here for them to get back." Lelouch sat down next to me. There was a bit of a chilly breeze and I pulled my jacket closer to me. "You don't like being cold do you?" Lelouch teased. "Shut up." I blushed. Lelouch laughed as I turned my eyes away. Suzaku and Shirley approached us.

"Eira wants to check out the mall. You guys up for it?" Lelouch spoke. "Sure." Suzaku said. "I'm in." Shirley smiled cheerfully. After the incident with Shirley almost falling off the rooftop of the building, we all needed to do something without getting hurt. Suzaku walked beside me. I knew he was very cautious. Just as we entered the mall, I dragged Suzaku away from the two. "Come on. You are too suspicious." I said as we entered a bakery. "Eira, you are not suppose to be eating sweets. Not since Milly got you hooked that night." Suzaku nagged. "Whatever." I yawned as I looked at the cookies. Suzaku sighed.

"I am hungry and I have a sweet tooth." I said with a cheerful tone to lighten up Suzaku's mood. The woman behind the counter laughed happily. "You two are a cute couple." she complimented. Suzaku was embarrassed. I smiled and hugged him. "We are close aren't we hun?" I teased him. Suzaku kissed my cheek and pointed to some sweet buns and chocolate cookies. "I know you enjoy these." Suzaku said thinking. "Oh come on Suzaku, you don't have to get them for me." I smiled giving a sigh. The alarm went off causing everyone to panic. "Suzaku!" I grabbed his arm and held onto him. "Do not worry Eira." Suzaku smiled gently kissing me on the lips. "There are terrorists around here." The woman was scared. "Do not worry ma'am." Suzaku pulled out his I.D. card. The woman calmed down and Suzaku called the Lancelot over. As we were able to get inside the Lancelot safely, I fell asleep knowing that my Geass would soon take over due to the fear I sensed. All that I dreamt of was hearing a gunshot.

The next day, I realized that Shirley hasn't come back to school. I looked around her room, but her room mate said she is gone. I was getting worried. I tried to find Lelouch but he wasn't at school. Rolo was in his room the whole day since he was sick. Suzaku had to work. I decided to go to the park alone. "This place does make me sad…" I thought knowing that my Geass wanted to be released once more. "You seem worried a lot." A voice came from behind me. It was C.C. "Huh?" I turned to her. "You are caught in between a love-triangle. That was once a square, but Zero has eliminated the competition by one. Now, you are separated from him due to your emotions. Who will you choose? Or will your Geass decide for you?" C.C. asked.

"Shut up witch. Where is Shirley? I know he knows something about her not being here." I clenched my fists. "Shirley is gone. There is no more of her." C.C. stated coldly. I grabbed C.C. by the neck with my hands. "You know the truth don't you?" My Geass activated as I clenched C.C.'s throat. "You want to know where your mother lies? Ask V.V. he knows everything." C.C. stated not afraid of what I might do. "…! V.V.? Who the hell-another one like us?" I questioned.

"I don't think you should worry about that right now, Lelouch is in pain and he needs your comfort." C.C. said as I released her. I shook my head silently and walked away. Lelouch was in his room alone. With his head placed in his hands. "I couldn't save her." he stated softly as I entered the room. I decided not to turn the lights on and stood across from him. "Shirley is dead." I blurted. Lelouch pulled out something from his desk. It was small, but I couldn't tell what it was until I glanced at the strange color. "Lelouch!" I gasped as I slapped the object out of his hand. "Was…that refrain? Why the hell are you using that shit!?" I slapped Lelouch across the face. He just sat there silent not even opening his mouth to give me an answer. I felt a hand touch my arm weakly.

"Arie, no…it's Eira now. Do you despise me even more?" Lelouch murmured. I looked at him sadly and kneeled down to meet his eyes. "Lelouch," I spoke calmly, "…Don't hurt yourself. It worries everyone." Lelouch leaned his forehead against mine and basically fell on top of me. He had his head against mine and my arms wrapped around him. "Arie, I'm sorry." he said exhausted. I kissed Lelouch gently and tried not to cry in anger. "You try too hard to stay close to me." I spoke gently. "Sleep for a while, I'm not leaving." I added with a yawn. Lelouch relaxed himself on top of me with a weak smile. Lelouch closed his eyes and held onto me tight. I had to leave Lelouch around seven, Suzaku was waiting for me to get home. "Eira? Is that you?" Nunnally spoke to me in the courtyard.

"Yes." I smiled weakly. I sat down at the table Nunnally was sitting by and she took my hands. "You are sad. Did something bad happen?" Nunnally asked. I turned my eyes away, "No, I'm just worried. I guess I've been stressing a lot." Nunnally gave me a worried look and ran her finger over my palm. "You are worried about someone. Someone dear. Is it big brother?" she asked. My eyes widened and I shook my head nervously. "Um, of course not, uh…he's doing fine!" I stammered.

"Really? You've seen Lelouch?" Nunnally was getting excited. "Yes," I lowered my voice, "But I haven't seen him lately. Honestly, the last time I had talked to him was about a month ago." "Oh." Nunnally sounded sad. "When I find him-I'll tell him to talk to you." I said happily trying to cheer her up. "Thank you Eira." Nunnally said with a gentle smile. Suzaku approached us with a gentle smile and I excused myself. "Thank you Nunnally." I said politely. Suzaku took my hand and brought me to our room.

"I know you have been hanging around Lelouch." Suzaku looked at me seriously as the door closed. "…So what? He hasn't regained his memories and I was worried about him Suzaku." I said grabbing a book. I threw the book at Suzaku recklessly and he pinned me down to the floor. "Arie, stop trying to hide everything from me. I know that you and Lelouch are getting closer. The charade is up." Suzaku gave me a harsh tone. "You don't own me." I retorted. Suzaku gave me an angry glare and I slapped him across the face. "Don't give me that look." I almost shouted as I was able to move from under him. "Stop acting childish!" Suzaku said calmly. My Geass insignia revealed itself in front of him. "You have that Geass?" Suzaku was surprised. "…I was born with it!" I yelled. "So, you have had that since we met…?" Suzaku didn't know what to say.

"Why the hell are you surprised?! I'm suppose to be dead remember!? I-" I grabbed another book and was ready to throw it. Suzaku ran over to me and snatched the book out of my hand. My markings glowed purple and I fell on my knees crying. "This pain, it reminds me of my mother." I said nervously. "Arie." Suzaku pat me on the head and then picked me up. "The marks look cool on you." Suzaku complimented.

"Oh shut up. I know that you were scared." I crossed my arms. "Arie, I'm sorry." Suzaku said with a frown. "No, you shouldn't be. I'm the one that has been hanging around Lelouch, but I can't help it. He's my friend too." I explained. "Arie…" Suzaku placed me on the bed with him on top of me. My face was turning red knowing how close he was. Suzaku cupped my chin in his hand gently with tears almost falling down. "Suzaku…" I was in shock as Suzaku was trembling. "You can't be in harm's way anymore…I lost Euphemia, and now…" Suzaku didn't know how to say anything.

"Suzaku, I know that something is going to happen, but it will not be a bad thing." I smiled happily. "You keep talking positive and yet you still hate this reality. I want you to stay by my side as well as Nunnally's now." Suzaku wept.