Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter just the plot is mine
A/N: This is an Hermione/Ginny little story so if you don't like then don't read it. Just a little something for the Christmas season told from Hermione's point of view.
Again I just wanted to say thanks to the people who reviewed, the next chapter will be the final one and it will be a happy one. Someone reviewed that Hermione was a 'loser' and 'running away like a jackass' so I just wanted to defend her by saying that she was struggling with her sexuality and I didn't think it would be right to have her accept it right away and act like it's nothing.
All opinions are welcome.
Hermione awoke the next morning and turned over in her bed to find that the dorm room was empty. Looking at the time, she found that she would have to miss breakfast if she was to make it to Potions on time.
Well that doesn't bother me too much, at least I won't risk the chance of bumping into Ginny. I don't think I could handle being confronted by her so soon, the more I can put it off the better I'll be.
Hermione dragged herself out of her bed and headed for the showers to try and relieve some of the tension from her shoulders and neck.
After her short shower which served to relieve no tension at all from her body, Hermione made her way down to the dungeons, thankful that she didn't spot Ginny anywhere in sight. She found herself outside the class room five minutes before class was due to start so she decided to take this time to try and sort a few things out in her head.
Now I have to think about this situation logically, maybe things are not as bad as you think…Yeah right and Voldermort is just misunderstood and needs a hug. Come on Granger, think! I could say it was an accident?...Yeah ok I doubt Gin would fall for that…or maybe I could try and convince her to forget about it? Again, doubtful…a memory charm perhaps? Now you are being ridiculous…I'll get expelled. There is one thing I haven't thought of…what if Ginny likes me too…I mean she did start the kiss, and she was the one who deepened it…what if? No that can't be right…I'm just imagining things, why would she like me?...I'm just seeing things that I want to see. I just hope I haven't ruined our friendship beyond repair.
Hermione looked up to see Ron and Harry heading her way.
"Hey" Hermione greeted trying to look cheerful
"Hey Herm, how come you weren't at breakfast?" Harry asked coming to a holt beside her and leaning against the wall.
"I just over slept"
"You ok?" Harry asked, nudging her slightly in the side
"Fine" Hermione answered not really wanting to discuss her problems with her two best friends.
"Ginny was looking for you, she looked a bit upset. Is there anything we should know" Ron asked looking concerned.
She's upset!
"No…not that I can think of…have you asked Ginny about it?" Hermione wanted to know, she shifted slightly in her position and looked uncomfortable.
"I asked but she just said it was nothing and when I tried to push her she practically bit my head of and told me to mind my own business" Ron sighed
"Well I don't know what it could be…she hasn't said anything to me" Hermione muttered
"We should forget it for now, Snape's heading this way" Harry warned
Hermione sat through the rest of her classes and managed to get through them all whilst only having Ginny flicker through her mind about six times in each class.
Before she new it, Hermione found herself heading towards the great hall for dinner with Harry and Ron in toe. She would have gone to the library but the boys didn't give her much of a choice, and not wanting them to know that anything was wrong she decided to go to the great hall and hope that she could survive dinner without having to speak to Ginny.
Harry and Ron were in the middle of a conversation about Quidditch and didn't notice Hermione becoming more and more nervous with every step closer she got to the great hall.
I just have to relax…maybe she isn't even here…
That thought was ruined as soon as she stepped into the great hall and looked down the table to see Ginny sitting next to Colin talking. Hermione took a deep calming breath and made her way down the table and sat herself next to Ron with Harry sitting across from her, on the other side of Ginny.
"Hey Ginny" Harry greeted as he sat himself next to her
"Hey" she replied
Ginny looked across the table at Hermione "Hi Hermione" she greeted the older witch softly.
Hermione kept her head down and muttered a quick "hello"
"How have classes been?" Ginny tried to encourage Hermione into conversation
"Ok…yours?" Hermione still didn't look up at Ginny but thought it was better to answer her rather than ignore her in front of everyone.
"Good" Ginny replied
"Good"
Hermione glanced up and noticed that Harry, Ron and Colin were all looking between the two girls, obviously finding that there was something amiss.
Why is every-one looking at me? I'm not ignoring her…this is really awkward, well at least she hasn't said anything about what happened…well of cause she wouldn't, I doubt that she wants everyone to know. I've lost my appetite…probably best to go back to the common room before anyone else, I need to be on my own for a little while.
Hermione cleared her throat and stood from the table.
"I'm not really hungry…I'll see you back in the common room" and with that she walked swiftly out of the great hall, not turning back or waiting for any response from the others.
Hermione made it to the common room and found that there were a couple of third year students sitting around playing exploding snap.
Do they even know that it's dinner? I might as well go to my room, at least I know that is empty.
Hermione walked up the stairs and entered her bedroom she shared with Lavender and Parvati and flopped herself down onto her bed, releasing the breath that she wasn't even conscious she was holding.
Staring up at the ceiling, Hermione jumped slightly as the door to the dorm room swung open and Ginny walked in closing the door behind her and locking it.
"What do you want?" Hermione asked unsurely whilst looking at the now locked door nervously.
"To talk to you" Ginny said whilst stepping further into the room.
"There's nothing to talk about…so if you please…" Hermione stood from the bed and faced Ginny with her arms folded across her chest.
Ginny cleared her throat and took on a determined stance "I'm not leaving until we talk about what happened"
"Nothing happened Ginny…we were stuck under mistletoe…we kissed…end of" Hermione still had her arms crossed and tried to look annoyed at Ginny but she found it difficult as she was becoming nervous and frightened at what Ginny could have to say.
"I've been thinking about not just last night but over the past week or so and you have been acting weird…not yourself…and I think…I mean I could be wrong…I thought I was imaging it…but after…"
"What? Ginny just spit it out" Hermione snapped as Ginny's nervous stuttering was making her feel even more uncomfortable.
"Ok, Hermione do you like me?" Ginny decided to be direct
"Sure I like you Ginny, we're best friends"
Ginny growled in frustration at Hermione dodging the question and stepped closer to her.
"You know exactly what I mean, Hermione. Do you fancy me? Have feelings for me that are deeper than friendship?" Ginny looked Hermione directly in the eye in a silent challenge.
"Don't be silly Gin" Hermione tried to side step around Ginny but Ginny caught her by the arm and pulled her back.
"I'm not being silly Hermione! You and I both know that you enjoyed that kiss, so why don't you stop playing games and just admit it!" Ginny was clearly not in the mood.
"Ginny…I'm not…" Hermione muttered softly trying to free her arm from Ginny's tight grasp.
"Yes you are! You want me Hermione so just admit it!" Ginny was practically shouting
How dare she!
"I will admit to nothing Ginerva Molly Weasley! And why do you care so much anyway?...You have no idea…" Hermione was cut of from whatever she was about to say as Ginny's lips claimed hers again.
Hermione forgot everything, including her own name as she kissed Ginny back with vigour, clinging to the other girl like she was a life line. All too soon though the need for oxygen forced them to separate.
Breathing heavily, Hermione backed away from Ginny with her hand over her heart and shaking.
"Why did you do that?" Hermione asked still breathless
"Why not? Ginny asked a little out of breath but smirking all the same.
"Because…you shouldn't…its wrong Gin…
"Who's to say its wrong?"
"We can't…"
"Why can't we? What are you so afraid of?" Ginny asked, not really seeing a problem
"Afraid of…afraid of…Ginny, what am I afraid of?" Hermione's voice was steadily building in volume, her face becoming bright red her eyes narrowed in anger and fist clenching and unclenching at her sides.
Ginny stepped back slightly, expecting Hermione to explode at any moment.
"I am scared of my feelings for my best friend! My best female friend!...I'm scared of what that means…It frightens me to think that I am different…It terrifies the living day lights out of me thinking how people will react…my parents, Ron, Harry…
Hermione was now openly crying and shaking, heart beating hard, palms sweating and voice beginning to crack. Ginny stepped forward looking angry.
"And you don't think I feel those things? You think that you're the only one with those fears? Well let me tell you something Hermione…your not! It scares me too…but unlike you, I'm willing to deal with it…to accept who I am and who I love…but the one thing that terrifies me more than anything else in this world…is that I would never get the chance to do this again.
Ginny moved into Hermione and kissed her hard, her arms wrapping themselves around Hermione's waist and holding her close against her. Ginny broke the kiss and without releasing Hermione, Ginny asked "Can't we just forget about our fears for a little while and at least see where this goes?"
"But what about…"
"Hermione for Merlin's sake stop thinking for one minute and just let go" Ginny whispered
Hermione nodded and whimpered an almost inaudible "ok" Hermione touched Ginny's cheek gently, as though to make sure she was actually real and standing there. Then she leant up and kissed Ginny tentatively on her other cheek and then moved slowly down her jaw and finally she brushed her lips against Ginny's. She felt Ginny smiled into the kiss and Hermione was able to have control, letting her choose how fast or slow she wanted to go.
Hermione was shocked when she found herself begging for entrance into Ginny's mouth and she was relieved when Ginny willingly opened her mouth to allow her to deepen the kiss. Feeling confident Hermione started to walk backwards, pulling Ginny along by the collar of her shirt.
She felt her legs hit the bed and she lost her balance and fell onto her bed, leaving Ginny stood in front of her looking as though she had been hit by a bludger to the head. Hermione smirked at the affect that she had on the red head and feeling a little more empowered, Hermione reached up and grasped Ginny by her loose tie and pulled her onto the bed and into another kiss.
Hermione was startled when she felt Ginny's hand glide lightly up her side, under her shirt and caress the skin lightly. Hermione gasped and broke away from the kiss but kept Ginny close to her.
"Gin, slow down a bit ok" Hermione spoke softly but smiling brightly.
Ginny blushed and pulled her hand away "Sorry Mione…just getting a bit carried away"
"Don't worry about it Gin…this is just all new…I want to take it slow"
"But you do want to try…give us a go?" Ginny asked looking hopeful
Hermione held her hand up to Ginny's cheek and brushed her thumb lightly over it.
She is so beautiful…and makes me feel things I have only ever read in books…and she wants to be with me.
"Yeah Gin, I want to 'give us a go' I want to be with you" Hermione smiled and blushed.
Ginny grinned stupidly, which looked so cute that Hermione couldn't help but laugh.
"What are you laughing at?" Ginny asked still grinning
"You just look really cute Gin" Hermione managed after giggling
Ginny lent down and kissed Hermione on the cheek, "Well I think your really cute too. When your not being a stubborn pain in the arse" It was Ginny's turn to chuckle.
Hermione looked stunned and hit Ginny playfully in the arm whilst a small smile broke across her face.
Ginny laid herself down next to Hermione and held her hand in comfortable silence.
"So there really wasn't anything going on between you and Colin?" Hermione felt silly for even asking but she just had to make sure.
Ginny turned her head and looked at Hermione for a second, still holding Hermione's hand Ginny sat up and looked down at Hermione.
"If I tell you something, will you promise not to tell anyone else?"
Oh no, what could possible be the problem?
"Yeah of cause…you can trust me" Hermione looked anxious
Ginny smiled and nodded her head "I do trust you…more than anyone in the world" this made Hermione smile a bright smile
"The thing with Colin…" Hermione's smile fell from her face
"What?"
"Colin is gay, he has a big crush on a guy called Ryan in Hufflepuff. I found him sat by the lake and he broke down, telling me that he thought he was gay and that he didn't know how to deal with it. We became friends and I told him about my feelings for you, we've just been there for each other…you know" Ginny finished and looked down at Hermione.
Hermione chuckled to herself and shook her head nibbling on her bottom lip.
Merlin I'm such an idiot
"You ok?" Ginny asked looking at Hermione as though she had just gone mental
"Yeah, just thinking how much of an idiot I am"
Ginny smiled and kissed Hermione lightly on the lips "I want argue there"
"Hey!"
"Do you want to go and find the others?" Ginny asked
"Er…actually…I would rather just stay here with you if you don't mind?" Hermione asked
"That, sounds like a great idea Miss Granger"
Sorry this took a little while to write, it's Christmas eve so things are a bit hectic right now. I have one more very short chapter to write which I will be starting as soon as I have updated. That will be up tonight I should think, hope you enjoy this chapter and let me know what you think : )