So here is a new chapter. This is kind of just a bit of a background It's not the best, but as I promised before, it'll get better.

He was so close. I just wanted to touch him. Or punch him.

"You look amazing Bella," he said, I could feel his eyes roam my new body.

Since he left me about a year and a half ago, I started working out. I started wearing new clothes, doing my hair and make up. If I didn't have an emotional break down, Alice would have loved that I was changing. But ever since he left me, I changed. It was an all new Bella.

"Thanks," I didn't know what to say. He did look good, but he ALWAYS looked good.

"Alice really told me you'd be ok with this."

"Why would you think I'd be ok with you here?" I finally looked at him and I could tell that hurt him. Which hurt me.

"You can't stay away from me forever," he pleaded.

"Yes I can," I would do anything in my power to avoid him. Not that it means anything now.

We sat there in silence for a few minutes. I cheered for my friends as they played. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to feel.

"I'm sorry," that made me mad. That is all I ever heard from him.

"Like that really means anything," that got under his skin.

"I just thought after this long, you'd be able to talk to me," just like his sister, he was so wrong. I wanted to stand up and argue and scream at him. But I didn't like causing scenes and I didn't want John to notice.

"Edward, when you told me you didn't love me any more it felt like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, stabbed it a million times then put it back in my chest and just left me for dead. I didn't know how to breathe, move, or eat. I just laid and bed in cried for months. And as long as you think it's been. I just recently found the new me. And seeing you only makes me feel the feelings I felt a year ago," I said quietly and kept calm so no one noticed a thing. I wanted to curl up in a ball and cry. He just stared for a minute, lost for words.

"If you want me to leave, I will," he looked at me with the eyes I fell in love with.

"No, Alice wants you here. I can do this," it just slipped out. Why didn't I tell him to leave? He just nodded.

We sat in silence the rest of the games. We didn't know what to say to each other. I thought about the last night that I saw him.

Flashback

We were sitting on the beach, about a mile away from mine and Alice's house in California. It was about a year or so into our college years. We had been doing the long distance thing since he was went to a college in Arizona. It was his last night before he went back to school.

"Bella, I really want to talk to you about something important," he said in such a serious voice.

"All ears," I replied as I snuggled closer to him.

"Here's the thing. I love you. You are the best friend I'll ever have," he stopped, I pulled away, I knew this wasn't gonna be good.

"But I just think, with the long distance thing, I think it'd be better for now if we'd just be friends. I think we should see if there are other people out there, that are closer," he said while I stood up to run but I couldn't move. He stood up and grabbed my face with his hands, gentle but I could feel my whole body breaking.

"I think it'd be easier for the both of us. I don't think I love you like that anymore. It just isn't there like it used to be."

The words he spoke were like knives stabbing me every where. I couldn't move. I couldn't speak. He dropped his hands by his side. We just stood there looking at each other. He waited for me to respond.

"Say something Bella," he demanded.

"Like what Edward? Do you want me to start cheering and saying oh yay! I've been waiting for you to break my heart?" I screamed, to both of our surprise.

"No," he said quickly.

"Then what Edward? What do you want me to say? That I'm ok with you breaking up with me and telling me you don't think you love me?"

"I don't know," he was mad.

It started raining and again we just stood there. I just wanted to run away from everything, but I couldn't stop looking at him. I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"Look Bella, I just think this would be best," he said trying to reason with me.

"Well Edward, if you think it's best then I guess it must be," I said sarcastically.

"Just please try to see where I'm coming from."

"Oh I'm sorry that I'm not ok with my boyfriend of 3 years breaking up with me," I shot back. I started walking away and he grabbed me to stop me.

"I'm sorry Bella," I laughed at him when he said that.

"I bet. Just let me go. You don't want me. Just go home. Leave me alone." I got out of his hold and sprinted away.

My thoughts were brought back to reality when the volleyball game was over. They had won and they were all cheering and screaming. I pulled myself together and ran over to congratulate them.

"All right, guys to celebrate we are going out tonight! Dinner and then whatever after! If you don't want to drive you need to find a designated driver. We will go our separate ways and be ready in about an hour. Then we will all meet at Bella's before dinner." John yelled to everyone our plans for the night; did that mean Edward too?

We walked hand and hand to Edward. Everyone else had left to go start getting ready.

"Edward, you are more than welcomed to come. You'd love it. And I wouldn't want you to be by yourself tonight," John offered him, damn it. Why was John so nice?

"Oh that sounds great. Thanks for inviting me. I'll be a designated driver if you guys need one."

"Well I'll be one, but if we need another I'm sure no one will refuse it."

They both nodded.

"So I guess you can ride with me. Doesn't look like Alice is coming here."

"Thanks."

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It was awkward getting ready at home with just me and him. I had dropped John off at his place and so it just left me and Edward. Alice had left a note on my bed explaining her where about.

Bells,

I know you hate me right now. And I'm sorry but what I've done I think needed to be done. I think it is time for you two to stop ignoring things. I think this is the only thing that will help anything. I know it is hard but you will be ok. Me and Jasper are gonna be gone all week. We went on vacation since our classes are over. I hope you have a good last week. Good luck on your finals. I love you so much. Call you when I can!

Alice

P.S. Bells, it's Jasper, I tried talking her out of this really. But you can do it! Love ya!

No matter how much I hate what she did, I can't hate her. To get my mind of things, I turned on my stereo, turned up the music and sang while getting ready. I knew he could hear me but this is my house last time I checked. In the process of getting ready I had busted out in a dance and when I had turned around Edward was standing in my doorway watching me. I could see how much it took him not to laugh. I turned down the music.

"I'm sorry Bella, but I wanted to talk to you before everyone got here," he smiled trying not to laugh.

"You can laugh, I know you want to."

"No I just want to talk."

"Well I guess go ahead," I really didn't know what he wanted to walk about but I really didn't want to find out.

What do you think he will talk to her about? Got any suggestions?? Let me know! More will be coming! Review please!