Here is the next chapter. It is a tad bit longer than the others. But enjoy!

My phone ringing woke me up. I looked at it and saw it was Alice. I didn't want to talk but I couldn't ignore her.

"Hey Alice," I answered my phone.

"Hey Bella!" Alice replied all giddy.

"So vacation good so far?"

"Florida is beautiful! Very different from California."

"Good," I tried to sound enthused.

"How are things going there?" Should I tell her?

"Horrible," I blurted out before I could catch myself.

"Oh Bella just give him a change," she thought I was talking about Edward.

"It's not him. Me and John are fighting."

"Why? What happened?" She sounded worried.

"Alice Cullen, you are on vacation. Don't worry. I can handle this. I'll catch you up when you get back," I really just didn't want to talk about it.

"Bella," she pleaded.

"No. Tell Jasper I said Hi. I miss you both. Have fun! I love you!" I hung up before we could go any further.

I laid there for a minute and realized I was hungry. I got up to go make something to eat. Edward was sitting at the kitchen table playing on his laptop.

"Morning,' I said letting him know I was there.

"Good morning," he looked at me.

"Have you ate? I was gonna fix well breakfast but I guess lunch now," I looked at the clock that said it was noon.

"No I already ate, but thanks," he smiled.

That was the smile I fell in love with. This was awkward. What do I even say about last night? I started to look for something to eat. We had nothing. We haven't when to the grocery store in awhile. I just grabbed a banana and sat at the table with Edward.

"Big lunch there. Don't over do it Bella," he chuckled.

"We have nothing, how did you eat?"

"I've been up for a few hours so I went and got something," he laughed again.

"What is so funny?"

"You know you are still in your clothes from yesterday right?"

"Shit, I forgot I fell asleep in them," I laughed but he stopped smiling.

"I know I'm not the one you want to talk to but if you need me, I'm here Bella."

"I'll be okay but thanks," I should stop lying.

"Whatever you say," he didn't believe me. Why should he?

"What are your plans today?" I asked him changing the subject.

"I don't know. It is a nice day our. Maybe take a walk or shop maybe," he was so much like his sister.

"Well if you don't mind company I'd love to tag along," I needed to get my mind off things.

"Really?" he sounded shocked.

"Yes," I giggled.

"Well you at least have to change first," god that smile.

"Deal. I'll be ready in a few," I said while throwing my banana away and going to my room.

I threw my hair up in a bun, put on jean shorts and a black razor back top. Slipped on my flip-flops and cleaned up my make up. Then I went and joined Edward in the kitchen.

"You clean up well," he complimented me.
"As do you," this felt natural.

We started walking into town. I was only a mile or so away. It was a beautiful day.

"Today is beautiful," he read my mind.

"It is perfect," it was silent for a moment.

"Bella can I ask you something?" I hate when he does this.

"Anything," I said while looking at my feet.

"Why is it I didn't know you and Emmett were so close?" Damn it. What am I supposed to say?

"Um I don't know. I guess no one felt the need to tell you."

"He doesn't talk to me much."

"Oh, I'm sorry."

"Is it because I hurt you?" he asked while looking down. I hesitated.

"Yes," I couldn't lie.

"Oh, well does he know I'm here?"

"No, I don't know how to tell him."

"Will he be mad?"

"Most likely," he just kept looking down in silence.

"I'm sorry Edward," I put my hand on his shoulder. He jumped at my touch.

"My fault. Thanks for being honest though."

We walked a little farther in silence. I wanted to hold his hand so bad. I missed him. I missed this.

"So how is school?" I asked him.

"Um, it's ok. I mean I have perfect grades but other things aren't the best," he admitted. I wanted to ask more but I couldn't.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I guess you are ready for summer than."

"Oh yeah! I'm actually going back home after I leave here."

"I bet your parents will love that," Emmett wouldn't.

"Are you gonna go see your dad?"

"He is actually coming up here for a bit but maybe I will."

We talked more about parents and school until we reach town. We decided to shop and then go get something to eat.

I actually enjoyed shopping. We got comfortable with each other and we weren't hesitant on what we said to each other. We were becoming friends.

"I'm so hungry," I said as we sat at out table for some lunch.

"Shopping can take a lot out of you," we both laughed. We both scanned the menu. We ordered our food and drinks and started talking about old times. This felt so good. Not having to hide, just relax and be me. He was truly helping me with the John thing even if he didn't know. I loved this feeling.

While eating I got a text message. I took out my phone and saw it was from John.

We need to talk ASAP!

I just closed my phone and threw it in my purse. He wasn't spoiling my day.

"Edward, do you mind if I say something," I said while wondering if that's what I looked like when he did this to me.

"Nope, you can tell me anything you want," he said hesitantly.

"Well last night wasn't exactly easy on me, so I just want to thank you for today. It has kept my mind of things," he smiled at me with his killer smile that gave me butterflies.

"Anytime Bella. You deserve to be happy," he said in the sweetest voice and for a moment I believed him.

"You don't believe me, do you?" he asked me. I swear he could read my mind.

"No I don't. I hurt him. I didn't mean to do that," I was hesitant to go on.

"Bella, he took it out of line. He didn't need to yell at you like that," he said defending me.

"He was just upset," I didn't know how else to defend him.

"He also jumped to things when he shouldn't have."

"Edward I need him."

"No you don't," he interrupted me.

"Yes I do. You don't understand," I wanted to continue but the waitress came over with the bill. Edward paid for it before I could even try. We stooped up and left the restaurant. We started heading home.

"What don't I understand?" he questioned me, continuing our previous conversation. I stopped on the sidewalk and he stood there waiting for me to respond.

"Listen when you left me I fell apart. I couldn't hold myself together. Ask Alice. I ate once a day, skipped class, failed every test. I stopped talking to anyone but Alice and at times Jasper. Alice would sleep with me at night so I would stop crying and sleep.

I couldn't hear someone say your name, it was even hard seeing you family. Alice put away anything and everything that reminded me of you. She even left the room when you guys talked on the phone. I couldn't watch TV or listen to music. It all reminded me of you. So I started working out to get my mind off you and shopped more.

After months of crying Alice made me start going out and little by little I was becoming ok. I still could never talk about you though. So we acted like you didn't exist," I stopped to breathe and we started walking again. I could see in his eyes this was hurting him but I continued.

"It took awhile but my grades started going up and I went out, made new friends. Then I met John. We were friends for a while and then we started liking each other. It was weird because I didn't think I could like anyone again. So Alice convinced me to date him. Since then I have healed faster, not fully but it's been better. I can hear your name, and listen to music. I don't tell people what happened because it still hurts but I can somewhat. I've told Christina.

So you see John has helped me heal. And I need him so I can keep healing. I don't know how I can get through things without him." I was finally finished. I needed to get that off my chest. I waited for him to reply. I don't think he knew where to start.

How will Edward reply? Review please!