I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while! I have been crazy busy with school and stuff! So here is the next chapter...! Hope you like it!

I woke up before Edward. Today was going to be a long day. I had to call John and have him come over so I could sit down and tell him about me and Edward. I hope he understands it all. I know I hurt him and I really wish I hadn't. But before I did anything related to John, I got in the shower and made me and Edward some pancakes. That was his favorite breakfast back home. I miss cooking for him.

I heard his door open and he went to the bathroom. I got butterflies know he was up. He came out in the kitchen in just gym shorts and my heart skipped a beat. He stretched and smiled at me. His body was perfect, I couldn't help but stare.

"This is the best smell to wake up to," he was referring to my breakfast.

"I knew you'd like it," we both smiled.

"How did you sleep?" he asked me.

"Good actually, and you?" I started thinking about my dream about us together.

"I've had better," he sat down at the table. I continued cooking.

All breakfast I was thinking about John. Even thought me and Edward talked a lot, my mind was not on our conversation.

"You gonna talk to John today?"

"I'm gonna try."

"Well do you want me to leave so you guys can take here? I have a few things I want to do."

"Yeah and if you want to take my car you can. Just don't wreck it. That is my baby," no joke. I loved that car and would kill anyone who damaged it.

"I promise I won't do anything to it. Thanks. I'll be leaving in about a half an hour."

"Thanks," I smiled.

"Good Luck," he smiled back. We went our separate ways. I had to call John.

"Hello," he answered his phone.

"Hey," this was already awkward.

"Glad you could call me back," he had an attitude.

"I was wondering if you wanted to come over and we can talk. Edward is leaving in about 30 minutes."

"That's fine."

"Ok well see you then, I guess," he hung up. This was not gonna go good.

Edward wished me luck 1 last time before he left. And about 5 minutes later John showed up. I let him in and we sat on the couch. Where to even start?

"I'm sorry," I broke the silence.

"Yeah," he said sarcastically.

"I am. I'm sorry I hurt you."

"And then you ignored me for a day."

"I needed to think," I defended myself.

"Think with Edward?"

"He helped me."

"Right."

"John," he was being ridiculous.

"I know there is something with you 2."

"If you'd stop acting like a child I'll explain."

"Go ahead," he waited for me.

"When I lived back in Forks me and him dated. We were together for 3 years. And then we both went to different colleges and he broke up with me. It was really hard on me. When my mom died I always felt like I lost apart of me but then I fell in love with Edward. And I felt whole again. He was my first everything. I didn't think I could get someone like him. We were together for so long, when he left me it was like I lost the other half of me. It was and still is hard to talk about it. I know I screwed up by not telling you but I honestly didn't think Alice would tell him to come here. This is the first time I've seen him since he left me and all different things have been going through my head. I did better than I thought I would. But the only reason I've kept it together is because of you. I need you."

He interrupted me. "So you need me but you can't say you love me?"

"Yes." That made me sound so horrible.

"So you're saying you need me to fully get over Edward, if that is even possible. You're using me in a way but you won't tell me you love me? You're going to let me fall for you even more while you try getting over that idiot who doesn't even deserve you. That seems fair," his words were so cold. I didn't know what to say.

"That sounds horrible."

"No. It's really awesome," he rolled his eyes.

"John just because I can't say those words doesn't mean I don't care about you."

He stood up. "Bella you don't care about me! I've fallen in love with you! And I can't just sit here falling for you even more while you are trying to get over him! I'd go through hell and back for you but not this time Bella. I'm done," he started walking to the door. I shot up and tried stopping him.

"Wait! Why can't we just try this John?" the tears started falling.

"That asshole is not going away Bella. And I'm not fight for you. You wouldn't fight for me."

"I am fighting for you!"

He opened the door. He turned towards me, our faces close. "No you are being a selfish bitch. You aren't fighting for me. You are fighting for yourself. You are fighting so you can get over Edward. Which is going to be impossible because you guys are in love. Anyone can fucking see it. So I'm done with this. Find another guy to use."

He walked to his car. I wanted to stop him but I was frozen. I couldn't move. I couldn't talk. Did that really just happen? The one guy that helped me get over Edward just left me. I went and sat on the couch. I didn't turn on the TV, I didn't put on a movie. I just sat there frozen.

I heard Edward pull in. I still didn't move. It was like I was paralyzed. I don't know how long I sat there. 5 minutes? Maybe an hour. He came into the house. I didn't turn to greet him.

"Hey Bella," he said in almost a whisper. I didn't want to be rude but I couldn't talk."

"Are you okay?" I knew he was worried but I couldn't answer. Because I wasn't okay.

"If you need me, I'm here," he put his hand on my shoulder. He stood there for a moment but then went into his room. When I heard his door shut the tears started falling. I couldn't make it to my room even if I tried. So I laid down and just cried. I know Edward wanted to come out but he respected me too much. I soon fell asleep.

When I woke up the sun was setting. I could here Edward in the kitchen. He was cooking and it smelt good. I got up to go to the kitchen. I felt the need to be with Edward.

"Hey," I said quietly.

He smiled lightly. "Hope you're hungry. I'm making you favorite." Which is spaghetti. I loved when he cooked for me.

"I think I can eat. Do you need any help?"

"Nope. It'll be done soon," I frowned, he smiled.

"Your phone was going off like crazy while you were sleeping."

I groaned, news travels fast. I went and got my phone. I had 5 missed calls and 6 text messages. 3 of the missed calls were from Christina. The others were from Charlie and Alice. I didn't feel like talking. The text messages were just from friends. Most of them saying they were there for me. I truly had great friends, even the ones I met through John.

Dinner was ready in no time. It was the best dinner I had in awhile. He was careful with what he said. This pain was different. He hurt me with his words but this was all my fault. So I guess the guilt was what was killing me. I just wanted to go sleep but I had to study for finals.

"So I'm going to go attempt to study for my final tomorrow but I don't know."

"Need any help?" how I wanted him to help me in so many ways

"No but thanks. I probably won't anyways."

"Just let me know, I'll be up." I smiled and nodded then went to my room to 'study'.

About an hour of 'studying' I closed all my books and just laid in my bed thinking. I fell asleep quickly. Instead of dreaming of John, I dreamt of Edward. He told me he loved me. The dream felt so real. I woke up and it was 1 in the morning. The dream felt good. Hearing him say those words made me smile, even if it was just my dream. I wanted to be with Edward. I wanted his touch, his kiss, and his love. John was right, there is something. And I wasn't going to be able to sleep till I knew how he felt.

I knocked on his door.

"Come in."

I opened the door and there he was laying on his bed, in his boxers. His perfect body just screaming my name. "Can we talk?"

"Of course," he said smoothly. I just wanted to kiss him. Not talk. But ehre goes nothing.

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