I'm Sorry

Yoko couldn't get to sleep that night. He sat up in his bed of furs and looked at the spot on the floor Nakada used to sleep on. He sighed and shook his head. No she killed the beggin! She killed the only person who actually could have loved me. He looked down and got up from bed and put on a shirt. I can't get to sleep now I have too much on my mind. Yoko wandered outside the camp a little while until he came across a place that looked familiar. Then he remembered that this was the place that the beggin and he had made love. He looked at the tree and saw that the body was still there, only instead of looking like Nakada, the beggin looked like her true self. She looked like a young green maiden with dark green waist length hair. He walked over to her and gathered her up onto his lap holding her head close to his shoulder looking to see if there were any wounds or signs of how she died.

When he found none, he looked at the beggin and stroked her face. You were the only one that had ever cared about me. He thought as he leaned his head side ways so his temple was on the beggin's forehead.

There was a small flash of light and Yoko saw the sprit of the beggin in front of him. He smiled but it disappeared when he saw her face. It looked like she was in pain and was really sad, "Why do you come back to my dead body?" she asked, "And why is it you hurt the girl that cares about you more then you know despite the slaps you get from her and also the beatings that she gets from you? She was telling you the truth about not being the reason why I died and because of that she was punished."

"Beggin," he began but she stopped him.

"Sara," she said.

He nodded, "Sara, Nakada doesn't care about me at all, when I kissed her…" he stopped talking as his eyes widened with realization. When he had kissed her, he felt her surprise and her tension, but she had relaxed after a short while.

"Exactly Yoko, she does love you, and she has loved you for some time but hasn't realized it yet. Yoko, she is your true love, but you have pushed her away and hurt her."

Yoko looked up at Sara and gently placed her body into the bed-like tree trunk. He looked at Sara, "Sara if she is my true love then she won't be pushed away that easily."

She nodded, "That might be true, but you have been hurting her for long time before this and you know it. Pray that it isn't to late," with that she disappeared leaving a smiling kitsune behind. He rushed back to the camp to find Nakada, but couldn't find her anywhere and he began to worry. He picked up on her scent and followed it.

With Nakada

Nakada had been walking for sometime until she came to pond and sat beside it, "Now a pretty girl like you shouldn't be walking around at this time of night." She looked behind her, surprised, and saw Falser looking at her. He smiled as he walked up to her and sat down beside her, looking around them, "This time, and this place actually," he looked at her and she smiled a little before she looked back into the pond. He sighed but then he saw her cheek and the claw marks on it.

With Yoko

At that moment Yoko came in but before they saw him he jumped into a tree, where they couldn't see him and listened. He watched as Falser reached out to Nakada's face and gently turned it so he could see it. Yoko suppressed a growl as he watched him touch her but he instantly stopped when he heard him speak, "He hurt you again didn't he?"

Yoko looked closely and saw that Nakada's left cheek had been clawed with his claw marks on it. He winced a little as he looked at his claws and saw that they still had some of her blood on them, "My tears have healing powers so it's nothing really," he heard her say and he looked up at her surprised.

"Nothing?" Falser almost yelled, "Nakada he clawed you again, and this isn't the first time he has hurt you. He has beaten you numerous times when…"

"When I disobeyed him," she interrupted him. They both looked at her as she shook her head from his grasp and looked at the pond, "I disobeyed him, slapped him and I had no right to do that. It also seems that since I'm living, that is also a problem for him," Yoko looked down trying to fight back the huge lump in his throat.

"You don't mean that Nakada," Falser said stroking her hair a little, "Yoko doesn't like anybody practically, and you can't blame him for that." He turned her face to him; "Actually you can but still…don't let that get in your way. Why do you care so much about what he thinks of you anyway?"

She looked down, "Promise not to tell anyone?" he nodded, "I-I-I fell in love with him," Yoko looked at her shocked but he smiled and Falser looked at her stunned.

"You feel in love with that monster?" he asked not believing it.

"Yoko isn't a monster!" she protested defending Yoko and he looked down not believing her, "He is a person that has no doubt had a hard life and a hentai at the same time. That doesn't exactly make a good combination for a girl. But Yoko is anything but a monster Falser, and I never want to hear you call him that again. There are times when he is so sweet and you know my sensitivity to his heart right?" he nodded and Yoko continued to listen with his head down. "Well his heart isn't always evil. Sometimes there are days when he only acts mean but his heart tells me that he isn't. You had better not tell anyone about that as well."

"But Nakada what he did to you…!"

"I will just have to find someway to…get my heart back," she said looking down and Yoko held on to the branches tightly when he heard her say that, trying to fight down tears.

"Well, I think I can help you out there," Yoko and Nakada both looked up at him. He hooked his index finger under her chin and brought his face close to hers. Yoko growled a little and Nakada seemed a little surprised as he got closer to her face. She looked at the ground tired and sighed, but before anything could be said or done Yoko turned into his spirit fox form and jumped from the tree.

He attacked the youkai brutally and Falser turned into his wolf form and attacked just as fierce, "What's the matter Yoko," Falser asked in Yoko's head, "Can't stand to see your little beating toy kissing another man?"

"SHUP UP FALSER! YOU WILL PAY FOR THIS! I LOVE HER AND I WILL NOT LET HER BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME!" Yoko got on top of Falser and dug his teeth into his neck making him yelp.

"You have a strange way of showing that you love her. Clawing her, beating her, making her feel like she isn't wanted by the person she loves." He pulled his back leg up and clawed Yoko.

"SHUT U…" Yoko was silenced when he felt a blast of energy hit him, sending him through two trees and straight into a boulder. He yelped the way a dog does when it is hurt and looked up to see Nakada sitting over Falser, tears streaming down her eyes and onto his neck, healing the fang marks he had made. Yoko stared at the way she held Falser close as the wolf changed into his demon form. His heart hurt so much when he knew she had attacked him and he saw her looking like that with Falser instead of him.

"Are you all right Falser?" she asked stroking his face sniffling a little.

He took hold of her hand, "Thanks to you Nakada," he looked around and saw Yoko looking straight at him and he was suddenly scared. What scared him was the look of pain in the kitsunes eyes, but it wasn't from his injuries. At first he thought it was but then he saw that the fox was looking at Nakada and the way he was watching Nakada care for the wolf demon. He took one more look and he turned away as Nakada looked up at the fox.

He took a few steps, limping a little, then he turned his head around to look at them before ran off. I was to late. He thought as he closed his eyes, running to the camp trying to prevent tears from falling. I pushed her away to many times and now I have lost her forever. He went into his tent and laid down on the furs, on his stomach as he turned back into his to legged form and remembered when she was first kind to him.

Flashback

Everyone was just to tired to do anything that night so when they had eaten and the team had agreed to not train tonight, since the place was obviously to dangerous, everyone went to sleep. Nakada and Jennah went into the tents with Yoko and Kuronue while the rest of the team was outside.

When she and Yoko were inside the tent, Yoko sat down on the bed of furs for a second wincing from the wounds DJ had made that morning. Nakada looked at him and sighed as she went over to him and began to unwrap his bandages. He looked at her and pulled away, "What do you think you are doing?" he asked looking at her with pure hatred. She pointed at the blood soaked bandages and he looked at them. He looked at her and growled, "They are fine. I have faced a lot more dangerous and painful things then this in my life." Nakada crossed her arms, leaned on one leg and looked at him hard. He looked right back knowing what she was thinking, "Why do you all of a sudden start caring about me?"

She looked at him but she didn't answer only shrugged and he just stared at her. He knew his wounds needed to be cleaned and re-bandaged, but he wasn't so sure about her letting her do it. He tried to see her eyes when he looked at the glasses, but couldn't. Then he sighed and looked down, "I just wanted you to answer a simple question that was it."

Nakada looked at him and went to his side looking at him to see if he would let her help him a little. He gave no indication she was there as she started to undo his bandages again. When they were off she saw the amount of damage that was done to him and she tried to hold in her surprise. She went out to get some water and when she returned she came back with the bandages cleaned and Yoko still hadn't moved. She also had a small basin of water and a cloth in it. She began to clean his wounds from the dried blood. When she was done she took the clean and surprisingly dry bandages and began to rewrap them around his wounds again.

End Flashback

Yoko pressed his head to the furs, his eyes tightly closed willing himself not to shed a tear but then he remembered when he had first clawed her.

Flashback

She sighed and turned to leave but he grabbed her arm and pulled her down so she was laying across his lap and he looked down at her in hatred, "Every since you and your team came here I have been humiliated and embarrassed in front of my crew. If this continues I'll lose their respect because of it," his grip on her arm tightened but she didn't wince, "I don't want this to happen again, understand?" she didn't say anything, "I SAID DO YOU UNDERSTAND?"

Nakada closed her eyes and winced, "How could I have prevented those things from happening? You challenged my brother, you ran away from the waterfall naked with out thinking of fighting back or at least getting a towel for yourself…" she stopped as Yoko hit her across the face and then when her back was turned he raised his claws and brought them down on her back.

End Flashback

He remembered all the things he had done to her never thinking about what he was doing or the fact that Nakada was in a way caring about him and then began to start to fade away.

Flashback

Yoko went up to her and held her wrist in an iron grip, "I'm not sure about the rest of the camp but I assure I didn't drink last night. I don't take drugs or alcohol for any sort of reason." She looked at him as if he was crazy, "What are you staring at this time?"

She shook her head and turned around tugging her hand free from his grasp, "Absolutely nothing," she said as she went up to a tree.

"WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?" he asked yelling at her, "HEY I DIDN'Y SAY YOU COULD LEAVE GET BACK HERE!" Yoko yelled pointing to the ground in front of him.

"And risk being hit again? I don't think so," she said as she reached up to a branch and pulled herself up and started to climb, "I'd like to go one day without another bruise to add to my collection thank you," and she climbed as fast as she could up the tree.

"I'LL GIVE YOU MANY MORE BRUISES AND MAYBE SOME CUTS TO ADD TO YOUR COLLECTION IF YOU DON'T GET DOWN HERE NOW!" Yoko yelled as he ran over to the tree, "I'M GIVING YOU TIll THE COUNT OF THREE FOR YOU TO COME DOWN HERE OR I'LL DRAG YOU DOWN MYSELF! ONE…TWO…TH…" before he could finish Nakada jumped form the tree and landed with all of her weight on his shoulders which made him hiss and kneel down.

She jumped off of his shoulders and turned around to look at him, "You told me to come down," she said as he got up, "You didn't say where," she turned around and went over to his tent with a content smile in her face as she began to put it down and pack it up.

End Flashback

He then winced when the pain in his stomach started up again. He sat up and took his shirt off and looked at the wound Falser had in flecked on him. There were four deep claw marks about three inches above his naval. He looked at them and saw the small amount of blood coming from it and he looked at the blood as if intrigued. He gently pressed his fingers to one of the claw marks and stared at the blood on his fingers. His eyes caught sight of his own claws and he stared at them as well. I don't want to hurt anymore. He thought in his mind as brought his clawed hand to the side of his waist where no one would see it and clawed himself. He looked down and saw the new wound and the blood coming down from it. He smiled a little. I don't want to be hurt anymore.