Chapter 13: Loves me…Loves me not…

A/N: Really really sorry guys! I started writing this chapter long back but did not get to finish. With the limited time that I had, and better response to the human fanfic that I am writing, this got pushed back! Hope you enjoy this chapter…

BPOV

Lunch with Edward was the best thing that ever happened to me. It felt good to know that he was putting an honest effort in getting to know me for who I was. I was sure that he was trying to flirt with me, from yesterday's late night phone call and during lunch today. His eyes never left my face, like we were the only two left on the face of Earth and he was trying to memorize every single word that came out of my mouth.

All through gym, I had not been able to concentrate, waiting eagerly for the class to end so that I can see him again. Math, was a torture as usual, but now it came with some consolation. Edward was with me. I was excited about spending time with him, but classroom was not the right place for it. I was wondering if he would ask me out on a date or to the upcoming school dance. The prospect of watching a movie, cuddling next to Edward, this Friday was all I could think of. He was flirting with me and all, but now and then I could just catch a hint of sorrow in his beautiful topaz eyes. I vowed to myself to find out about it and take away his misery. May be the weekend would have so much more to it that just a movie night and math tutoring. I could not help the smile that crept across my face at the thought of being alone with him. He gave me a strange look, like he knew exactly what was going on in my mind right at that moment.

We could not talk or pass notes during the class, but I knew that he could also feel the strange attraction, some sort of an omnipresent current that was connecting us. I was drawn out of my thoughts when the shrill sound of the bell indicated the end of another futile hour of class.

Edward looked at me, as I got up, with so much care and love(?), as he said "See you later, Bella. Be safe." The emotions in his eyes knocked the breath out of my lungs…No…it can not be what I think it is…or can it?

The rest of the day passed in thoughts about what I had seen in his eyes. I could not bring myself to accept that what I saw could be love, and could not trust the feelings that I myself felt for him…pain, that engulfed me when I was away from him; happiness, wholeness that came in his presence. He made me feel complete in ways that no one else had.

That night as I lay in my bed contemplating on my feelings, I broke down my own resistance and accepted the fact that I was slowly but irrevocably, falling in love with Edward Cullen. I could not wait for the sunrise, to announce the start of another day, which had once felt like a punishment. I would see him again in just a few hours!

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As I arrived in school, I looked around the parking lot and saw to my disappointment that his silver Volvo was no where to be seen. I felt my spirits sink. May be his car had some trouble and may be they had taken another car to school…I knew that they were from a well-to-do family.

Trying to hide my disappointment, I walked into my class room. The day turned out to be torturous and I realized that the Cullens were not in school when I noticed Alice missing in my English class. Their table was empty at lunch and I picked up a soda and went to sit in my car. I could not bare to not see him. Everything felt empty without him. I silent tear rolled down my cheek. I had been crying, even with out realizing that I was. I needed him to be with me. For once, I had thought that I had made true friends, and found true love.

Gathering every ounce of hope that was left in me, I dialed his cell number. It went to his voice mail box. There was not even a recorded message with his voice, his velvet voice. I tried Alice's number, only to meet with the same response.

I was supposed to go over to their place tomorrow and they had left with out a single message. May be I had been flattering myself, thinking he was interested in me. I might look good but I was still a door mat compared to him. My emotions were going out of control and I knew I had to get out of here. I knew my face looked pale enough to pass for some sickness. I made my way to the school office to get excused for the rest of the day.

I drove back home. Luckily, my mother was not home. I did not expect her to be either. I ran up to my room quickly and fell on to the bed, on my stomach, sobbing. At some point I got up and changed into my nightwear. I switched off my phone. Every second that it remained silent, was an indirect reminder of all the wonderful conversations I had had with him. I knew they would not call me…why should they… why would he? At some point sleep took over.

EPOV

I had considered telling Bella about not being in school tomorrow, but how could I explain the absence of all my siblings as well on the same day. I could not even say that we were going hiking, since we will be back in school on Friday. I decided that it would be best if I did not mention anything to her. I could wave it off as a family emergency if she asked me on Friday. If she did ask me…But would she?

We were leaving in a couple of hours on our 'family-trip'. Alice was all excited about it since we had never gone hunting together in nearly a century. From the time I had left Bella, I had refused to go hunting with any of them and someone always stayed back to keep me company, for the sake of Esme's sanity. She had never completely forgotten or forgiven the fact that I had shut them all out and run away form home, when I had left Bella. I had come back after a couple of years, when I could not bear to hurt Esme any longer. My pain was nothing compared to what I was inflicting on my family.

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I was the first one to finish feeding and return to the car. I had switched off my cell phone and every second that I was away from her, I had been thinking about her. Would she have missed me, the way I missed her? I felt like telling the world what she meant to me…how much I loved her. Emmett had been put-off with my hunting habits. "You are treating your prey lovingly…You make me sick Edward, because you are LOVE-SICK! Ha…Ha…" had been his precise thoughts. I knew that everyone in my family had noticed the change in my hunting. I could not wait to get back to her…to see her. But I knew I had to wait till school to see her.

I switched on my phone and noticed that I had one missed call, but the called had not left a voice mail. I knew that it had to be her. I could only think of one possibility…she missed me…just like I did… I looked at the clock on the dash board of the car and saw that it was nearly 11PM. But my fingers had punched in her number into the phone, my vampire speed helping, for once! My non-beating heart was aching to hear her voice, and the anticipation was nearly killing me…but none of that came even close to the pain that engulfed me when I reached her voice mail box. She had switched off her phone!

I need to find Alice…Pain ripped through my still heart at the thought of Bella shutting me out of her life…

A/N: I would love to continue this story but it depends on your response…I need to know what you guys think!