Now finally Part 2. Hope you enjoy. I'm looking foward to reading your reviews!

It's the Fear (How Could This Happen to Me Pt. 2)

It was out of question that Yuuki had not drunk enough blood. Two days later she had another episode. She suffered it alone in her room. Thank God Kaname wasn't there. He was once again at the headquarters. If he wasn't he would probably force her to drink his blood again. She didn't want that. She wanted to be able to live without it. The first episode was soon followed by another. She couldn't bear it any longer. She needed to see Zero. She didn't care that Kaname would probably punish her for being with him. She urgently needed help now. Help Kaname couldn't give her. Human help...

She stormed out of the room and down the stairs. Rima and Shiki were just coming out of the parlor.

"Yuuki-chan!"

"Don't worry!" Yuuki called over her shoulder and left the house.

"Her eyes..." Rima said worryingly. "Shouldn't someone go after her?"

"I don't think we have to worry," Ichijou, who had followed them out of the parlor, said and opened the door to watch Yuuki running past the human students heading for the Day Dorms. "You see, if she was in a bloodthirstiness she would pick the first human she came across. I think she's looking for Zero."

Only with a strong will Yuuki could force herself not to bite one of she students she ran past. She hurried to Zero's room. Her body was already trembling again. She had to make in time before... She finally reached his room and knocked at the door three times to show her call was urgent. Two seconds later Zero opened and his eyes widened when he saw what state Yuuki was in.

"Zero..."

Now left by all strength she collapsed again like days before. Zero felt his heartbeat stop.

"Yuuki!"

He managed to catch her before she hit the floor and picked her up bridal style. He carried her into the room and shut the door with a kick. He looked at the small pitiful figure in his arms and it hurt him. Yuuki didn't know how much longer she could stop herself from biting him. She was scared.

"Let go of me, Zero and back away. I don't know what'll happen if you don't," she pleaded.

Zero didn't care about the threat of getting bitten. He put Yuuki onto the bed and sat beside her. She grabbed his sleeve and pierced her nails into his arm.

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

"Try to regulate your breathing and close your eyes," he instructed her. She did so, not knowing what else she could do. She breathed in and out slowly and regularly and tried to relax. After a few minutes the episode was over. Cold sweat was on her forehead. She straightened up with Zero's help and looked guiltily at him

"Why didn't you back off? I could have bitten you," she demanded.

"But you wanted to see me, right? That's why you came here, isn't it?" he reminded her.

"I just wanted... I thought... maybe you could tell me how to live with it," she stammered.

"As I'm used to this already. I talked to Yori. She told me. Why are you resisting, Yuuki?"

"I don't want it. I don't wanna drink blood. It makes me sick."

"But you're a vampire now. You need it. Look, I can't stand to see you like this. I think it's time to return the favor you once did for me."

"No!" Yuuki refused. "I won't! Not your blood."

"I see."

Yuuki knew that he thought she would prefer Kaname's blood but that wasn't the reason.

"It's not what you think. I just can't do the same thing Hiou Shizuka did to you. I would be like her and I don't want that," she explained.

"Okay," Zero accepted. "What about the blood tablets then?"

"No. Didn't you listen? I don't wanna drink blood."

"You didn't listen. You're going to die, Yuuki, if you don't drink it. Or you're going to cause someone else's death in intoxication. If not for yourself then please do it for me," Zero said. Yuuki was silent. "I can make you drink it," he added menacingly.

"Kaname said that, too."

"Did he?"

"Yes, " Yuuki said. "But it has a bigger effect on me if you say it. Kaname forced me to drink his blood. He appealed to my instincts and I had no chance."

"So you're gonna take the tablets?"

"Yes. I guess I have to," Yuuki gave in.

I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I am losing the struggle within
I can no longer restrain it,
my strength, it is fading,

I have to give in.

Zero smiled. "Actually, I should still have some around here." He got up, opened a drawer, found a small box in there and put one of the tablets from inside onto his bedside table. Then he went over to the window and filled a glass with water. Yuuki watched him doing all this and returning by her side on the bed, holding out the tablet in the one hand and the glass of water in the other. Yuuki took both things and froze.

"What are you waiting for? Take it," Zero urged her.

"I can't believe I'm really doing this voluntarily."

"For me," was all Zero had to add to make her swallow the tablet with a lot of water. When she had emptied her glass he asked her. "Was it really that bad?"

"Yeah," Yuuki moaned. "It's disgusting."

Zero smiled and Yuuki joined in.

"I think it'll take some time. You can stay here so long."

"Thanks," Yuuki grinned.

Half an hour later it was time to assess the effectiveness of the fake blood.

"Are you feeling better now?" Zero asked.

"No," Yuuki answered. "I' feeling sick."

"What about the thirst?"

"It's gone," Yuuki admitted grudgingly.

"Ah." Zero was visibly relieved. "If you keep on taking them every day there's no fear for you of biting anyone."

"I guess so," Yuuki said. "What about you? Do you need blood?"

"Don't even start, Yuuki," warned Zero.

"But as a pure blood I can retard it at least. Let me help you, Zero, before you have to go through that fear," Yuuki begged.

"I can't."

"Yes, of course you can!"

"No!" Zero insisted. "I know it sounds stupid but I'm scared to death that I could do the same thing to you as to Ichiru."

It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
that one day will come to life
Have to save
To save my beloved,
there is no escape,
because my faith is horror and doom

"That won't happen if you keep on drinking my blood from time to time."

"Why do you still help me, Yuuki?"

"Because I don't wanna lose you, Zero," she told him straight to the face, then took off her jacket and unbuttoned the first button of her blouse. "Do it," she said. "Or I'll make you do it."

Unwillingly Zero had to smile. The instant he came close to Yuuki's neck the vampire inside him awoke and appreciated it. He licked the spot he had chosen to puncture and then sank his fangs into her skin. Yuuki hissed quietly and relaxed again when he began to drink her blood. After a minute or so he drew back and wiped the blood off his mouth.

"I'm getting better. No spill," he joked and they burst out into laughter.

Yuuki buttoned up her blouse again and put her jacket back on. They shared a sad gaze.

"I gotta go."

"I wish you could stay."

"So do I."

For a moment Yuuki hesitated then she gave Zero a quick hug, jumped to her feet and headed to the door.

"Don't forget your promise," Zero told her. "You're taking them regularly from now on. I'll be watching you."

"Maybe I should skip that again thus I had a reason to see you more often," she teased him.

"Don't you dare."

They gave each other a wide smile and then Yuuki left the room.

She headed to class. The teacher of course disapproved her lateness. Classes had started half an hour ago. She apologized for the delay and sat down next to Ichijou who observed closely.

"What?" she asked.

"You look better," he noted.

"That's an understatement!" Aidou whispered from one row above them. "You look pretty good, Yuuki-chan."

"Thanks, Aidou-senpai!"

"Did you overcome yourself?"

"Someone helped me," Yuuki admitted and smiled sheepishly.

"I knew it!" Ichijou smiled and Aidou hissed "Good girl! We're proud of you!" so the teacher wouldn't hear him.

Despite her well-being Yuuki couldn't focus on education. She felt strange. She knew she had done something she would normally not forgive herself. But this time it felt right and she remembered the chairman's words. "He'll convince you to do the right thing." They're right, Yuuki thought. It's the right thing to do.