Thanks for all the reviews! I honestly thought this was going to bomb, but, I guess people enjoy reading the slash fics of Transformers. XD Anyways, here is the third installment…and like I mentioned earlier…things happen fast…oh well, enjoy!
Chapter 3 Memories and Sparks
Starscream sighed slightly as he turned away from Megatron after he entered the Decepticon leader's room. "Megatron," he stated as he opened his cockpit, "I realize that if this is going to work, I need to be truthful." The Seeker removed the Allspark shard from his chest and turned back to the larger mech after he made sure his cockpit was closed. That would have been very embarrassing if he saw his spark. "I believe that this is yours by rights." He added as he held the shard out.
Megatron smiled as he took the shard and twirled it in between his fingers. "Well, this is a step in the right direction." He replied with a soft flash of his optics.
Starscream looked away thoughtfully before returning to look at Megatron. "So, I did well then?" He asked.
Megatron nodded. "Of course Starscream. You did very well. You found a fragment of the Allspark when you were in an incredibly weakened state." He replied with a soft smile.
Starscream winced at the thought of giving away such a powerful source of energy. "Thank you, Sire."
Megatron smiled again, his optics casting a casual glance over Starscream's wings. "Come here Starscream." He whispered softly.
Starscream did as he was told, faltering of course, but still walked up to his leader. Megatron wrapped his arms around Starscream's shoulders, pulling him in close to him. He smiled softly down at the red Seeker before he leant his head against his. The Seeker's intakes in turn increased rapidly; he wasn't sure how to react. This, after all, was Megatron; a former gladiator in the Pit Fights and the undefeated Legend.
Megatron rubbed his head against Starscream's, smiling softly as he locked optics with his smaller Second in Command. "Starscream." He murmured softly as his spark whirled happily behind his armor.
"Megatron…." The Seeker breathed as his circuits began to heat up. 'Heh, not going to kill me after all. At least, I hope he isn't.' He thought.
Megatron lowered his head slightly so he was more optic level with Starscream. He twitched slightly as he moved his mouth closer to the Seekers. Did he really want to do this? Starscream closed his optics. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea; what if something went wrong? Megatron sighed softly. He wanted this, but then again, was it such a good idea to get that close to Starscream? What if he turned around and stabbed him in the back…again. It would hurt twice as much as the last time.
"What's wrong?" Starscream asked as he stroked Megatron's helm. 'Geez, don't kill me for that.'
Megatron looked down into Starscream's optics and made his decision in that instant. He pressed his lips against the smaller Seeker's and waited for a reaction. Starscream smiled mentally as he returned the kiss and wrapped his arms around Megatron's neck, careful not to make it look like he was getting possessive; past experience had taught him that no one likes thinking that the other is not willing to let them leave or be with others.
'Wasn't expecting that.' Megatron thought as he rubbed Starscream's back. 'But, I'm certainly not complaining.'
Starscream put a hand on Megatron's shoulder and smiled into the kiss. Megatron pulled back from the kiss and smiled down at the smaller mech. "Enjoying yourself?" He asked with a soft purr.
Starscream rubbed his head against the Decepticon Commander's chest. "Yes."
Megatron smiled as he placed his hand on Starscream's helm, noting that the whole side fit nicely into his hand. "Good." He purred as he kissed the black helm. Starscream in turn, wrapped his arms around Megatron's chest.
Megatron's spark whirled with excitement behind his chest armor, almost begging Starscream's spark to answer its desire to bond. Starscream could hear Megatron's spark increase in whirs. His own had been spinning unbelievably fast since the incident in the alleyway. Megatron inhaled deeply; he had to increase his air intakes just to keep his head clear from the increased speed of his spark. He personally hoped it would slow down soon; otherwise he would end up collapsing on top of Starscream and accidentally crush him.
"Well Megatron, what are you waiting for?" Starscream asked as he clawed at Megatron's chest.
Megatron's spark clenched fearfully before he frowned. "What makes you think I want to be bonded to you?" He asked honestly; he didn't remember giving off any sign that he wanted to be bonded at the moment.
This was apparently the wrong thing to say. The Seeker stared up at Megatron, his face displaying a mixture of shock and sorrow. He wrenched himself away from the silver mech and made a run for the door, tears streaming down his face. Megatron blinked in confusion and shock. He snapped himself out of his daze and bolted after the Seeker. He grabbed Starscream around the waist and slammed him, rather gently of course, into the wall, just to make sure he wouldn't move again.
"Starscream, what?" He asked in confusion. He kissed Starscream again, hoping for the answer to come out and slap him in the face, although, not literally.
The Seeker growled and tried desperately to get away from the larger Decepticon. Megatron pulled back from the kiss with a slightly fearful look on his face. He nudged Starscream's head gently with his own, wondering what he had done wrong. He never said he didn't like the Seeker, just that he didn't want to be bonded. Was there something wrong with wanting to keep a few barriers up between them?
Starscream sighed and let his head rest against Megatron's. "Sorry."
Megatron rubbed his head against Starscream's. "What did I do?" He asked softly. "What did I do that made you want to flee?"
"It's what I did." The Seeker breathed. "Not you."
Megatron stroked Starscream's head affectionately. "Then what did you do…my little Star?" He asked softly.
"I went too far, did I not?" The Seeker choked out.
Megatron frowned. "Perhaps." He replied softly. "Perhaps not." He nudged Starscream's head with his own. "Why would you want to bond your spark to mine? We would be eternally bonded and unable to hide anything from each other. Are you sure you would want that?" He asked.
"I'm not sure anymore." Starscream replied.
"See?" Megatron chuckled. "If we had just bonded, you wouldn't have had any chance for second thoughts; it would have been too late." He purred as he nudged Starscream's head with his own again.
The Seeker cursed himself and the situation. Megatron, on the other hand, found himself rubbing his head against Starscream's and purring. He didn't know why exactly, but just being near the Seeker was making him unusually happy.
'Idiot! How could you ever believe that he, let alone anybody, would want you?!' The Seeker shrieked in his mind.
Megatron felt his spark calling out to Starscream's again but with much more intensity and sighed softly. "Starscream…how badly do you want to spark bond?" He asked softly as he rubbed his head against the smaller Seeker.
"Why would I want to bond with you?" The Seeker hissed, mimicking the very words that Megatron had used.
Megatron winced. "Ouch. Did I really sound like that?" He asked sadly. "That wasn't how it was supposed to sound. I just…wasn't sure if I wanted to go that far that fast." He added, a little embarrassed about his insecurity.
"Yes, you did." Starscream spat, still hurt from the incident.
Megatron murmured softly as he ran his hand along Starscream's face. "I'm sorry. I truly am. I didn't mean to hurt you." He whispered.
"Thank you." Starscream smiled as he wrapped his arms around Megatron.
Megatron smiled as he pulled Starscream's body closer to him and nuzzled his face into the Seeker's shoulder. He sighed softly. "I'm glad that you're feeling better." He murmured. "I wouldn't want you to feel stressed or hurt in any way. That's…that's the last thing I want."
Starscream nuzzled his face into Megatron's chest. "That's great to know."
Megatron smiled as he stroked Starscream's helm. His spark was whirling happily behind his armor from Starscream's actions and he hoped that Starscream did a little bit more. He leant his head against the Seeker and sighed happily. He glanced at Starscream and gave an innocent grin before he captured Starscream's lips with his own. The Seeker smiled into the kiss before he returned it. Megatron pulled Starscream, if possible, even closer to him as he deepened the kiss. His spark started to whirl out of control and it started screaming for Starscream's. Starscream pulled away and stared up at Megatron with a pleading look in his optics.
Megatron bit his lip nervously. Did he want this bad enough that he was willing to step out of his comfort zone? The last time that he had tried to bond with someone…well…it hadn't gone over very well, and that's saying something. Did he want to chance it again?
"I don't mean to push you. You don't have to." Starscream stated reassuringly.
Megatron bit his lip a little harder before he opened his chest plate. "I want you to be happy." He replied a little shakily. "I can deal with my idiotic fear later."
"No Megatron. That is one of the worst things you could do. One should only bond when both are ready." Starscream scolded.
Megatron frowned. "I AM ready. It's just that…the last time…they…tried to kill me." He admitted in embarrassment.
Starscream's optics widened in shock. "Why?"
Megatron shook his head. "I don't know." He whispered as he looked at his feet. "I don't know." He looked up at Starscream. "Could we just get this over with? Before I lose my nerve?"
Starscream snorted. "Not with that attitude I'm not." He replied.
Megatron looked at Starscream desperately. "How am I supposed to move past this idiotic fear if I don't confront it head on?" He asked. "Starscream, please." He asked as he placed his hand on the Seeker's cheek.
"That's better." Starscream replied. "Go ahead."
Megatron smiled as he stepped closer to Starscream and crouched slightly so that his spark was level with Starscream's. "You have to open up." He replied softly as he tapped Starscream's chest plate. Starscream slid his cockpit to the side, exposing his spark. "Thank you." He whispered as he pulled Starscream's body close to his and connected their sparks. The whole room exploded in blue light.
"Beware Megatron, for the images that you see may not be quite as "nice" as you imagine." The Seeker implied over the bond.
"Visions?" Megatron asked in return. "What do you mean?" Something inside the usually cold tyrant had opened up, revealing a more innocent and shy side of him while his usual persona was tucked away.
"You will see things that happened to me in my life. My memories." He replied.
Megatron nodded his head in understanding. "And you will see mine." He replied softly. "Starscream…I…I'm not…I wasn't always as powerful as I am now. I used to…well…I almost died several times when I was a sparkling…from several reasons…several…different reasons." He admitted sadly.
"I too have suffered in my years." Starscream replied.
Megatron sent an apologetic wave through their bond. "I'm sorry I caused most of it." He stated sadly. "I…I…I'm just an idiot." He stated as he felt tears burn his optics.
"I'm sure you had your reasons."
Megatron shook his head angrily. "It doesn't matter." He stated. "I still should never have done it." He pulled Starscream deeper into his embrace.
"M-Megatron, it's okay. I'm okay."
Megatron rubbed his head against Starscream's as he shook it. He dug into his memory files and found the one that he was looking for. He opened the channel for Starscream and showed it to him.
Begin Flashback
Megatron cowered under the enormous form of his father. The giant Seeker's glowing red optics burned into him, his lips pulled back into a sneer, and his fists clenched as he bore down on him.
"You useless excuse for a sparkling!" The giant of a mech snarled. "What a waste of perfectly good metal. I absolutely regret assisting in sparking you!"
"Daddy." Megatron whimpered desperately. "Please, please don't!" He begged as he tried to drag his already damaged leg closer to him.
The older mech laughed cruelly, the noise scrapping against his audio receptors and reminding him how utterly helpless he was. "Shut up, you pathetic sparkling!" He snarled before he started punching and tearing into Megatron. "You are far more stupid than I thought if you thought I'd let you get away from you begging."
Megatron screamed as his body exploded with pain. It laced around his body as his father's hands tore through his thin sparkling armor and ripped the wires out of their place. Tears were running uncontrollably down his face. He wished someone would come, but he knew no one would ever save him from the monster of his father.
End Flashback
Starscream screeched as he felt the pain that Megatron had gone through that day. He looked up at Megatron as the memory faded away and shook his head. He reached up and stroked Megatron's helm reassuringly, smiling as he watched Megatron lean into his hand. He pulled up a vision of his first bonded mate from Cybertron. A femme with blood-red armor with black and silver trim. She had blades coming out of her shoulders, helm, knees, elbows, and back. Extremely beautiful, but looks can be very deceiving.
Flashback
The femme stood in front of him with her arms crossed in front of her chassis, and a smug grin on her face. "Wow, you're a real idiot if you thought I was serious when I said I loved you." She laughed.
"You…you mean…you don't love me?" Starscream whimpered.
"Who could?!" She cackled. "Who could ever love you? You're pathetic!"
End Flashback
Megatron growled. "You're not pathetic." He stated angrily. "That stupid glitch!" He dug into his memories again, this time looking for the last moment with his almost bonded. A small femme with dark red optics, blue armor with a pink trim, and a normally cute face.
Flashback
"You're an idiot!" She snarled as she lunged at him and attempted to rip his now exposed spark out. "You thought I actually wanted you? Who could EVER want you? You're so ugly and pathetic, it's absolutely nauseating."
Megatron stumbled back in shock before he slammed his chest plate shut. He turned his fusion cannon on the femme and didn't think twice about killing the femme. He watched her dead body fall to the ground and snorted as he walked over and crushed her head beneath his foot.
"I will never love another Transformer." He snarled as he twisted his heel. "Never."
End Flashback
"Why did she say that?" Starscream asked as he shook his head. He felt no pity for the femme; she deserved what she got for saying those things.
Megatron shook his head. "I don't have a clue. I honestly thought we had something going. But, I guess she only wanted to be my mate for the power that went along with it." He sighed. "When I asked her to finalize everything…she went and did that."
"What changed your mind…about me I mean?" Starscream asked.
Megatron frowned. "I…I really don't know." He replied. "Something inside of me told me to spare you. That you were special to me somehow." He smiled as he nuzzled his face into Starscream's neck. "I'm really glad I did. I love you Starscream." He murmured as he licked his mate's exposed neck.
"And I you." Starscream replied as he closed his optics and sighed happily.
Megatron smiled as he pulled away from Starscream and lifted the Seeker's head up towards him and kissed him. "That's something that I thought I'd never hear again." He whispered.
"Same here. I thought you hated me." Starscream replied as he returned the kiss.
Megatron frowned. "I don't think I ever really did." He replied. "I think I just didn't know that the feeling that bubbled up within me every time I looked at you was love. It has been eons since I last felt this towards anyone."
"I've always had a fondness for you." Starscream replied smugly.
Megatron felt his face plate redden slightly. "Really?" He asked. "You've always liked me? I thought you hated me, that's why you kept trying to over throw me."
"You kept blaming me for things I never did. I wanted the power that you had." Starscream replied as he played with one of the bolts on Megatron's helm.
Megatron frowned. "Trust me Starscream, you don't want this power. Everyone is out to kill me or replace me." He stroked Starscream's helm affectionately. "I…I don't want to lose you…not ever again."
"Only the Autobots and I were out to kill or replace you." Starscream replied. "Now it's only the Autobots out to kill you."
Megatron smiled before he pulled away from Starscream. He closed his chest plate and stumbled slightly. "Forgive me, but I am in desperate need of a recharge." He slurred.
"Me too." Starscream replied as he stretched.
Megatron grinned as he nodded to his recharge bed. "Are you going to go to your room or stay here with me?" He asked.
"I think I'll stay here for the night. If that isn't too much trouble." Starscream replied.
Megatron smiled as he reached out over their newly establish bond and sent a happy wave to the Seeker. "Not at all!" He stated happily. "Go ahead." He stated as he nodded to his bed.
"I don't think I'll fit, you're rather…big." He stared at the recharge bed.
Megatron chuckled. "Trust me; it's bigger than you think." He stated. "I can fit two of me on it."
"Okay then." Starscream beamed.
Megatron chuckled as he lay down on his bed and patted the space beside him. He smiled at the Seeker as he sent him an inviting wave. Starscream didn't waste a second in jumping onto the bed and snuggling against Megatron.
Megatron chuckled as he pulled Starscream close to him. "Wow, since when have you been this affectionate?" He asked.
"Maybe if you hadn't been so mean, you would have seen this side of me more often." Starscream retorted.
Megatron winced. "Ouch. Since when have you been so good with the comebacks?" He asked as he rubbed his hand against Starscream's back.
"Always!" Starscream laughed as he rubbed his head against Megatron's chest.
Megatron laughed as he nuzzled his head into Starscream's neck and nibbled gently on the hydraulic line. "You are quite the character…my little Star." He whispered.
"Yes I am." Starscream boasted as he shivered from Megatron's actions.
Megatron smiled as he kissed Starscream's neck. "Starscream," he purred, "you are my little character." He stated possessively as he pulled Starscream's body closer to him. Starscream smiled and nestled in even closer, trying to make them as close as possible without biding their sparks together. Megatron smiled before he made himself comfortable before allowing himself to drift into recharge. "Good night." He murmured to the tiny Seeker in his arms.
"Goodnight." He replied. He looked up at Megatron one last time before he himself drifted into recharge.
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Lugnut grumbled to himself. "What is Lord Megatron doing with that traitor?" He demanded. "Why has he let him return?" He had seen the blinding blue light underneath Megatron's door, but he didn't dare disturb his leader. Blitzwing shrugged and walked away. Lugnut followed the split-personality mech. "But why would our all-powerful leader allow a traitor back into our ranks?!" He demanded.
Blitzwing shrugged again.
Lugnut frowned to the best of his abilities. "You don't care, do you?" He asked in annoyance.
"No, not really." Blitzwing replied as he turned to face his comrade.
Lugnut groaned. "Great! I'm the only loyal Decepticon left!" He growled. "I'm going to make sure that our glorious leader is still online." He added as he headed towards his leader's quarters.
"I wouldn't do that, he'll be mad." Blitzwing chirped.
Lugnut snorted. "If he is being attacked, he will reward me for my loyalties." He replied coldly.
"And if he's not?" The triple-changer asked calmly.
Lugnut shrugged. "Then I will ask for forgiveness." He replied as he knocked on Megatron's door.
Author's note: And that's all you get! Long spark bonding session! Yah…Megatron and Starscream have gone through their deal of hardships and now they have found each other. Ah, se l'amour! Anyways, leave me a review please and thank you!