Sorry about the wait…
Oh, and I don't own harry potter, or Christmas cards… besides the ones I will be getting in the mail
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Having your mail dropped on your breakfast is not the best way to start your day, especially not when you spill pumpkin juice all over yourself. After wiping juice off his face, he notices something floating through the air, grabbing it he sees a crayon drawing of a snowman family. The odd thing about this family is that it consists of two 'dad' snowmen, and one little snowgirl.
Thinking that the card must be for someone else, the dark haired man prepares to just crumble it up and throw it away, but slightly curious he decides to open it, and see who such a curious drawing was actually for.
Daddy i hope this card gets to you
Father says you dont know about me and i dont know your name but i have seen a picture
I do not know much about you but i wish i did
I know i am smart and father says i get that from you
Father says he can not right you or the bad men will come and find us
He also said that Christmas cards were to tell people that you lov them and wish they were here
That is what i wish for with all my hart
I hope the bad men dont find us but i wish you wood
I don't have much time but i lov you
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Olivia
Severus stares at the card reading the message over and over, until suddenly the name Olivia registers in his head. If I ever have a little girl I think I'll name her Olivia. "Potter what have you done?" The dark haired man says as time seems to stop and he flashes back to the last time he saw Harry Potter.
FLASHBACK FLASHBACK FLASHBACK
Severus is sitting in a wingback chair in his den when he hears a knock to the door. He puts down his glass of scotch as he rises. To his surprise, and other emotions he is not quite ready to disclose, it the one and only Harry Potter. "Potter to what do I owe the pleasure?" Severus then steps back and vaguely gestures for Potter to enter.
"Severus for the last year we have become comrades, and dare say it friends, you allow me to call you by your first name, may you please do me the honor of doing the same?" Harry asks pleadingly as he steps in and quickly chooses a seat on the couch.
"If you insist I will call you Harry." Severus says as though swallowing a bitter pill. He then moves to sit back in his chair when Harry gestures for him to sit on the couch with him. Wondering what this late night call is about Severus complies, but quickly reaches for more scotch to refill his glass.
"Before I begin, would you mind if I have something to drink as well?" Harry asks quickly. Seeing that this night is going to last a while replies, "Why not, you don't seem to want to leave anytime soon, at least we should both be comfortable." Severus rises and walks towards the mantle to get another glass for Harry.
After taking a long drink of scotch Harry says, "I want to ask you something, I know about your… um relationship status… and." "I'm Gay Potter, you know it and I know it, in fact I believe it to be something you are quite familiar with, so if we could get on with it?" Severus says with a sigh, then he proceeds to take another drink of his scotch, all the while thinking, this is going to be a long night.
Harry says slightly stammering, not able to look Severus in the eyes, "I was uh… wondering, before all of this, did you ever want to have children?"
"What kind of a question is that Po… Harry? And frankly I don't see how it is any of your concern." Severus finishes speaking and gives Harry one of his trademark glares hoping to drop the subject, but knowing that it doesn't have quite the force it used to.
Harry swallows at the sight of the glare, but continues anyway, "Please I need someone to talk to?"
Letting the glare slide from his face, Severus sighs, "Alright… Harry I suppose I will let you ask me some questions before you go off and do something incredibly stupid like you normally do. And in answer to your question, yes, I did want children, and a family, but most of all children. Before Voldemort I wanted to prove that not all Snape men were horrible fathers, and I wanted someone to pass my knowledge onto."
Taking a drink of his scotch, Harry replies, "That is what I've always wanted to have someone to love, and care for, teach things too, and in general be a family. And while gay couples are accepted, gay families are not, I'm not even allowed to adopt. Is that why you became a teacher?"
Sighing, something which he seemed to be doing a lot of tonight, replied, "No teaching was something that was forced on me, while I wanted to pass knowledge onto a child, teaching these dunderheads was not what I had in mind. I wanted to teach someone who could love the subject as I do, not try to learn just for the sake of learning. Most of these children don't want to be in my class just as much as I don't want them there."
"I always wanted a little girl. If I ever have a little girl I think I'll name her Olivia." Harry says rather wishfully.
Sniffing, "That is very unlikely Potter unless you decide to become straight again, which
I doubt." Severus replies then falls quiet seeing the look on Harry's face.
Harry stared into Severus's eyes, wishing he could decipher the thoughts that Severus was surely thinking behind those deep eyes. Severus's eyes, in turn, were moving steadily over Harry's face, trying to decide…decide what?
Suddenly their faces were mere inches apart just gazing at each other, neither knowing who moved just that they wanted to be closer still. Then they were kissing with their lips pressed together, this was not a gentle kiss but fierce and possessive.
FLASHBACKOVER
Severus suddenly snaps out of his thoughts and back into real life standing up to begin pacing, the pain of that memory too strong. But knowing that he was never the same after that one night. All he received was a note, saying 'Thank you and i'm sorry I had to leave, but don't worry about me.'
Thank you, he said as if I had done him some sort of a favor instead of let him in to my heart and my bed… well apparently I did do him a favor, fathered his child…but how did he do it?... Abruptly Severus stops pacing and says out loud "Miss Grainger I should have known, Potter never could have done something so stupid or reckless without you."
AN: Sorry this took so long but who knew real life could be such a hassle. I have a full time job that requires me to go on sudden trips, and what with the holidays, and Christmas shopping, and writing this really stupid report I just haven't found the time. Although truthfully I've had most of this written for about a week now, it just took a while to find the free time to post.
Oh… and sorry about the cliffy with the sex scene but I never was very good at them… if somebody wants to write one… I could add it to the story but don't expect to get one from me… lol