Woooo! Im back, dance show is cancelled so I have lots and lots of free time to write now! XD

I was gonna do a chapter about Bella's first feeding, but I started writing it and it just didn't feel right. I might add it on later, but for now we'll skip that bit…sorry if people wanted that!

This chapter is a bit…strange…I think so anyway. I might change it, not sure yet. Ill see what you think! XD

I don't own any of it, all credit goes to creative genius Stephanie Meyer!

Enjoy! XD

NickyTwilight!

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--PREVIOUSLY!!--

There was nowhere in the world I would rather have been. As we sat there in silence, a thought ran through my head.

Feels like home.

I heard him chuckle slightly above me, before wrapping his arms around me tighter. "It is home."

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"Isabella Marie Swan, there is no way I am letting you do this!" Does he always have to argue with me while Im getting dressed?! "Yes I do!"

"Will you just relax. I know what Im doing, and I can take care of myself so no your not coming." He was always worrying about stupid little things, but maybe now he had a right to be worrying. I had no idea what I was doing, and I didn't know if I could take care of myself. But he is never going to know this of course, it'd just make him worry more.

"Your actually being serious? After everything that's happened your still doing this?" I looked up and saw the look on his face, but I couldn't make it out. Was he angry? Or scared? Or sad? Or maybe all three?

I knew I had to do it, and I knew he wouldn't understand. "Yes, I am. It has to be done if I want to move on." I finished getting dressed and turned to see Edward standing in the doorway. "You really think you can stop me that easily? I can just jump out of the window."

"Good point." I smiled a triumphant smile as he stepped away from the door. "So asking you to stay wont work. I could make you."

"You don't scare me." A small giggle escaped my lips as I stood on my tiptoes to press a gentle kiss to his lips. "I wont be long." Before he could argue with me again I shot out of the room and down the stairs. Alice was waiting for me reluctantly at the door. Like Edward, she thought I was being stupid, but she also saw the logic behind my madness. I had to get some things sorted and this was the only way.

"I wont come in, but I am waiting there for you. If anything goes wrong Im getting Edward." She said quickly as I rushed out of the door to the car. I slipped into the passenger seat and waited for her to catch up with me.

"We could walk, it'll probably be quicker." I really need to stop being so sarcastic!

"Not a chance! I need some way of getting you back safe, Edward will kill me if anything happens to you. So be careful!"

"I will." Try. I will try. It wasn't really a promise I could make, I had no idea what was going to happen!

Why isn't the car starting? I looked over at Alice and saw her looking straight back at me. "If you wanna change your mind, now is your chance." She smiled at me, silently begging me to change my mind, but still I sat there. Her smile fell and she started the car, turning away from me and looking ahead.

Her silence was scaring me. I was so used to her being the bubbly member of the family, being with her when she was quiet was very rare. "Alice, I know you don't wanna do this but it'll give me some peace of mind. I need to know what Ive been doing with my life for the past 5 years, and this is the only way." Silent. "Ill be back to the normal me after this." Still silent. "Alice please, this isn't exactly easy for me either, I don't want to do it but its not like I have any other choice."

"You do have a choice thought Bella! That's what I don't understand. If your don't want to do it then don't do it!"

"No, now you don't understand. I don't want to, but I have to if I want to move on, to live like me not a demented Barbie doll!"

"Ok." What?! She's actually agreeing with me?! "I see your point, but what if something happens and you cant deal with it on your own, then what?"

To be honest, I had no idea. My plan was that I didn't have a plan, they always went wrong anyway! But she had a good point. I might be feeling like I can handle anything, and I might have a few things organised if things do go wrong. But what if my backup ideas don't have any effect? Then I'd really be stuck. Then I thought of something else! "Have you seen anything going wrong?" She must have seen something about this, she knew my idea before I told her, and started arguing with me about it straight away.

"No, but that doesn't mean it wont. My visions change!"

"Well this one wont be changing."

"Are you sure?" She stopped the car and looked out of the front window and then at me. Lights were flashing all around the car and her eyes looked like they were on fire.

No. "Positive!" I smiled in what I hoped was I positive way before making a swift exit from the car. If I had stayed any longer, she would have driven me home!

"Im staying right her!" She shouted, poking her head out of the window and looking more like a pixie than ever.

"Ok, I wont be long."

As I made my way around the crowd of people, I could feel my hands starting to shake already. This had to work, it just had to. I didn't know what I was gonna go if it didn't, or what would happen to me if it all went wrong.

I didn't know what Asher was capable of.

I approached the doors and put on my usual bright smile, trying hard to hide my shaking hands and hoping I wasn't too obvious. Carl looked up as I reached the front of the cue and his eyes grew wide. "Jesus Issy! Where the hell have you been? We've missed you!"

I had no idea what Asher had told them, if anything so I tried to make something up. "I…I was away…I went to see my Mom." Thankfully they believed me and I was able to pass through the doors as usual without any fuss.

This was going to be easier than I thought. The first part anyway! Finding him would be easy, he was always in the same place. The hard part was going to be talking to him.

People came up to me, asking me where Id been and trying to get me to dance with them, but I decided that it was better to do what I had come to do and get it out of the way.

I pushed my way across the dance floor and up the many stairs to the VIP area. There seemed to be so many steps. Had there always been this many? Maybe I just never thought about it before now.

The velvet rope was lifted for me without an argument and I passed through into the very small crowd of people. I looked over to where I knew he would be and saw him looking straight at me, his eyes almost as wide as his mouth.

This was going to be fun!

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Hopefully this is good enough for you all! Next chapter will be more explaination for those still confused XD Dont worry, I was still confused up till now, and Im the bloody author! XD