Chapter 12

Meredith's friends watched in amazement as she moved around the kitchen singing along to a song on the radio.

"What?" she asked as she sat down beside Derek

"You're singing" Cristina said incredously

"Yeah… What's wrong with that?"

"It's weird you're all …"

"bright and shiny" Izzie filled in

"You're right I am bright and shiny and I'm gonna stay bright and shiny for a long time so you better get used to it."

"Now would you not so bright and shiny people like a ride to work?" she smirked

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A couple of hours later Derek met up with her at the nurse's station as she was filling in charts

"So this bright and shiny thing" he said kissing her neck " Does it include sex?" he asked mouthing the last word.

Meredith snorted as she turned into his embrace "Seriously? Do you ever think about anything else?"

"Rarely" he replied not missing a beat "It's not my fault your so irresistible"

"Yeah well you just have ……." She trailed of staring at the patient being brought off the elevator who was shouting aggressively. It didn't take Meredith long to recognise her mother

"What the hell are you doing here I told you not to bother me while I am at work!" she yelled before turning back to the people surrounding her.

Pulling herself from Derek's grasp and ran down the hallway and into an exam room where she slid down the door onto the floor silent tears falling down her cheeks.

It wasn't long afterwards that she heard her friend's voices coming through the doorway pleading for her too come out. But she ignored them burying her head in her hands.

"Mer" Derek said softly knocking on the door "Can you let me in" he breathed as sigh of relief when the door clicked open and he was able to slide in.

His heart broke when he saw her sitting on the floor legs hugged tight to her chest; her eyes that had sparkled were dull and lifeless.

"Oh Mer" he said softly holding out his hand and pulling her too her feet

"That was so not how I wanted everybody to find out" she sad her voice muffled by his shoulder

"I know I'm sorry" he said running his fingers through her hair. They stayed like that for a few moments comfortable in each others embrace. The silence was soon interrupted by Bailey coming into the room.

"Do you need the day off, I would understand if you wanted to be with…."

"No" Meredith cut her of "My mother and I don't have the best… It's just better if I'm working" she finished

"Okay you're on scut"

"Fine" Meredith said nodding her head leaving both Bailey and Derek surprised

That she hadn't argued.

"Who did you give her too?" Meredith asked breaking the uncomfortable silence

"O'Malley"

"Okay that's good I'm just gonna go find uh charts and labs" she said heading for the door

"Meredith" Derek called before she left

"Yeah?"

"I love you"

" I love you too" she whispered before leaving the room.

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Hours later she found herself sitting in a dark supply closet praying that nobody would come in. She couldn't make sense of it. Her mother was calling George Thatcher. She hadn't heard her talk about him since he left.

"Meredith" a soft voice came from the doorway she looked up and blinked her eyes adjusting to the bright light, she gasped when she realised it was Addison.

The door shut and she sat down beside her.

"Are you okay? I heard about your mom"

Meredith sighed "Yeah I just needed to get away from the stares and the pity" she said softly

They sat in silence for a few minutes neither one sue what to say

"Richard offered me job" Addison blurted out "Oh god I'm sorry I don't know where that came from" she said embarrassed

"It's okay" Meredith smiled glad for the distraction "So are you going to take it?"

"I don't know. It's an amazing opportunity but I'd have to move here give up my practice my home and I hate the rain"

Meredith smirked "yeah the rain does kinda sucks." "Addison" she said more seriously "Do you want to take the job"

"I don't know" she sighed

"Yes you do. Deep down you do know what you want you just have to take a step back and figure out what it is and if what you want is Seattle then you move to Seattle"

Addison regarded her for a few moments "You just want me here fore your case don't you" she asked raising her eyebrow

Meredith laughed "Damn you caught me out"

"Seriously though if you want the job then take it"

"You know two weeks ago that I would be having this conversation with my boyfriend's ex- wife I wouldn't have believed it in a million years"

Addison smiled "Tell me about it" she said dryly

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"Hey Joe" Meredith said collapsing on to a bar stool

"Hey Mer. haven't seen you in awhile. Usual?"

"Um no thanks can I just have a water?"

"You drink water?!" Joe asked surprised

"Ha-ha very funny" she said sarcastically "I'm pregnant"

"Wow didn't see that coming? Shepherd's?"

"Yep and you wanna know what else?"

"There's more?"

"I'm having five"

"You really don't do anything lightly do you?"

"No I don't" she sighed resting her head on her arms.

It wasn't long before she felt Derek's familiar hand come to rest on the small of her back

"Hi" she said softly as he placed a kiss on her head

"Hey how is you mom?" he asked sitting on the stool next to her and running his hand along her thigh

"They think she has cancer" she said trying to blink back the tears that were stinging her eyes

"Oh, Mer. I'm so sorry" he said sadly

"Yeah me too, they'll get the results back in a couple of days so I'll find out then, how's you patient?" she asked desperate to change the subject

"She made it through the surgery so we'll just have to wait and see what happens"

"Good, that's good" she said softly and he nodded his agreement

"So I uh had an interesting conversation with Addison this morning"

"Really? I hadn't realised you two were talking"

"We weren't really she found me in a closet…." She trailed off suddenly realising what he meant "Is that okay?"

"Of course it's okay you can talk to whoever you want I just thought it might be little awkward for you that's all"

"Oh okay anyway Richard offered her a job"

"Oh is she taking it?"

Meredith shrugged "I don't know I told her she should but I don't know what she'll do" she said softly a small smile playing on her lips when she heard the song playing over the sound system

"What?" Derek asked noticing her smiling

"Nothing I just love this song"

"Oh wanna dance?" he asked grabbing her hand

"But you don't dance?" she stated

"I can make exceptions" he said raising his eyebrows seductively

Meredith rolled her eyes but stepped into his opened into his warn embrace

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And Im waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

They swayed gently to the music oblivious to the everyone in the bar who were now watching them intently.

"Der?" Meredith asked her voice muffled by his chest

"Hmm"

"I was wondering if maybe we could go to New York this weekend?" she asked sucking in her breath as she waited for his reply

He pulled back from her enough so that he could meet her gaze "You….. you want to got to New York?" he asked unable to hide his surprise and excitement

Meredith shrugged "I've been thinking about it and I figured the longer I put it off the harder it'll be plus with mom and everything"

"Okay" he smiled tucking a stray hair behind her ear lovingly "I'll call mom"

Meredith sighed happily and rested her head on his chest " I love you"

"I love you too" he smiled "more than you'll ever know"

Sorry it took so long to update a lot happened in this chapter and took me a while to get it right. Please review I'd especially like to know how you feel about Addison

P.S anyone guess the song? :D