"You are so beautiful, Raven." He mused to himself as he sat at his desk grading papers by the candle light. Severus had been keeping an eye on her for three weeks now, since that morning she woke him up. She had told him everything of what she was, what was happening, and her age now….which she is twenty years old as of now. "She is still a student, whether she looks of one or not. I can't have her." He sighed then put down his quill and was off to bed.

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"It's snowing!" Ginny, cried happily staring out the window at the white puffs falling from the sky. Everyone quickly threw on warm clothes and headed out side. While Diego, kind of lingered until most were gone and headed for the Dungeons.

"Go away Dorko! I'm not going to the Yule Ball with you!" Raven turned up her nose and walked past the blonde ferret like boy.

"I'm the best in our house, who else would you rather be seen with at the Ball?" he quickly caught up with the 20 yr old student, "There's no one else our age who's better than me!" he then grabbed her arm tugging it slightly. "Get off of me, you Rat. I'm not going with you or any other student, I have my own plans!"

"How dare you call me a Rat, You M-," "Miss Michelle is there a problem here?" Severus appeared in the door way to his chambers.

Raven smiled gratefully, "I'm not sure Professor, I was just telling Draco for the fifth time, that I have other plans rather than go to the Yule Ball with him, but he doesn't seem to understand."

"Mr. Malfoy I hope that you do not ask to accompany her anymore, or you shall have to deal with me, understood."

He nodded and walked off away from the Valkyrie and the Professor. Raven smiled up at him, her eyes seemed to sparkle with some emotion that he just couldn't figure out.

"Thank you Severus, but I still don't think he is going to stop…he thinks I'm supposed to be with him or something." She furrowed her eyebrows at the last part, looking disturbed at what she had said. The left corner of his mouth twitched, it was a sign of a smile forming though he wouldn't let it happen completely.

"What are you plans for the Ball … Freyja?" she shivered the way his voice sounded when he said her true name, it made her knees weak.

"I haven't any plans, due to I'm not going to the Ball. I have better things to do than get all dolled up and wear frilly dresses, and dance with Ferrets." She grimaced, "Besides, whom would I dance with? There isn't a boy out there whom I would like to dance with."

"Really now, you are sure? It would be a crime to miss such a breath taking sight when you walk down the Grand Staircase." He said taking her hand and twirling her in a circle elegantly. Her hair flowed lightly around her face when she stopped, "Now Severus," she had crimson spots upon her cheeks, "you shouldn't mock me; you know I am not a "breath taking sight" she shot him a look.

"By all means did I say it was you who I was talking a bout, Raven?" he said teasingly looking into her eyes. She wasn't very short anymore, but he still had a bunch of inches on her, his hand gently stroked her cheek and went under her chin to lift her head a bit. Her eyes were filled with curiosity while he was doing this. He chuckled and lovingly tapped the end of her nose with his finger tip.

Diego watched curiously as Professor Snape was being all "lovey-dovey" to Raven and how she didn't seem to mind it much. He wasn't sure if he should make his presence known or not, but it seems as the Professor had decided that for him…

"Mr. Owens, you may step forward now, I was just telling Miss Michelle good bye." Snape didn't seem to angry about Diego being there, but still he hoped there would be no points taken away as he walked over to the two.

"Hey, Diego, Well I'll see you in class Professor." She waved to him dragging Diego away to her chambers.

He eyed her questionably when they sat down in her room. She conjured up some green tea, and offered him a cup, "I know you are dying to ask so many questions, so just go ahead and ask." She sighed with a smile on her face.

"Are you and Snape together?! Why is he being nice? Do you like him? Does he like you? Do you want to go to the ball with me?" He blurted out all at once; not even taking a breath till the last question was out.

"No, because he is really nice, I'm not sure, still un sure on that, and silly Diego I am not going to the Yule Ball with anyone, due to I'm not going at all." At least she took breaths in between her answers. She looked at his face which was a bit sad, due to the fact that she wasn't going to the Ball.

"Oh alright then, but you should come to the Ball they are loads of fun!" his face was excited again, "Well I best go back to my dorm to turn in for the night." They hugged and he left to his dorm and Raven fell asleep in her chair thinking about if she should or shouldn't go to the Yule Ball.

McGonagall had dismissed class and everyone was leaving. She walked over to where Diego was packing up his books, "Mr. Owens, I'm curious about Miss Michelle, No one has seen her today. Is she okay?"

Diego looked up at her, putting on a smile, "Yes she is just feeling a bit tired today, she says she be up and about soon though."

Minerva sighed waving him free and watched as he hurried out of the room. "That girl I swear, I wish I knew what to do." She said helplessly sitting behind her desk waiting for the next class to come.

It had been hours since raven had crawled her way into the freezing cold shower. She knew she had to go to him, he knew how to help her, only he did…not that she minded going to him, she quite enjoyed it. By now she had been Freyja for a while as she let the water fall onto her wings and armor soaking every bit of her. That was it she knew she had to go now, or else she would be in grave danger. Pulling herself up and out of the shower she stumbled to the exit and pushed it open.

She got around the corner and fell to the ground, "Expecto Patronum!" she whispered and a silver snow leopard appeared standing in front of her. "Tsubasa, go get Severus, please" the snow leopard bowed it head and ran off to find him.

Severus was sitting at his study furrowing his brows at the potions notes in front of him, when he caught a glimpse of silver walk about his bed chamber in the other room. Getting up he noticed that the silver was a cat of some sort. The cat seemed to have seen him and leaped in front of his feet. Tsubasa swatted at his feet, howled and took off out the exit portrait. Curiosities egged at him as he followed the cat down the hall and to the barely breathing, soak n wet Freyja.

"Good girl...Tsubasa." Freyja coughed trying to breathe her chest felt so heavy and she was so cold. Severus gently picked up Freyja, "Shush don't try to speak, it only hurts more, just keep trying to breath slowly and easily." He whispered he got to his portrait and looked behind him, he swore that the cat had followed them and he was right, it did. They entered his room and he laid her on the bed allowing the cat to jump up there with her. The cat curled up behind her head and allowed her use it as a pillow. Severus could see clearly that the cat was a snow leopard, it fit Raven perfectly too. Freyja weakly tugged at Severus's sleeve wanting him to lay down with her. He smiled and happily snuggled up beside her.

Severus woke up with his face snuggled up into Raven's hair. Muttering something he slowly sat up careful not to wake her. It didn't take very long before he realized that Raven wasn't wearing any clothes. She was laying on her back one arm above her head and the other resting on her tummy. He could see that her body had matured lightly in it's female features; Her breast seemed to be more rounder and fuller, while her hour glass figure was of perfection.

She whimpered, stirring a bit not much of a second later her eyes fluttered open and stared up into his. She seemed confused at what was happening, when he muttered, "So beautiful." Letting his lips capture hers in a hot, fiery kiss. She moaned as his hand cupped her breast, playing with her harden nipple. His mouth traveled down her neck then locking onto her left nipple. She could barely breathe as his tongue swirled around it. The pleasure was too overwhelming.

"Oh Severus!" she cried out as an extreme wave of pleasure swept down her body, making her wet between her thighs.

He then realized what he was doing and pulled away fast. He turned away sitting on the opposite side of the bed. He didn't even look at her when he cursed himself then told her to get dressed, in a rather low mean growl.

She felt so broken, so ashamed that she didn't even care that her clothes were still on when she let herself fall into the shower. She hurt so much, and she couldn't understand way or what was causing the pain. She just wanted it to stop. She was gone as she picked up the razor slide it across her wrist. She felt empty as she watched her blood flow down herself and into the drain. She didn't care anymore as she made a few more slices and was soon out from blood loss.

Word had spread about Diego finding a blood soaked Raven in her bathroom. She was now in the Hospital wing recovering from the loss of blood. She wouldn't talk to anyone that came to visit her, nor would she look at them. She just sat in the bed staring at her hands, with tears rolling down her face.

It seemed Raven wasn't the only one who changed after they found her, Severus had been more withdraw lately, also more bastard like too. But in all reality he was just feeling acutely depressed. He knew it was him who hurt her, who caused her to do what she did. He couldn't show his face to her again, in fear of her reaction.