LAST TIME
Tears fell from my eyes and I finally let myself cry
After we left the studio I went back to my apartment, took off my clothes, wrapped my tail around my body, lade down in my bed, and looked at the ceiling 'I hate him….I used to be so strong now I'm depressed and depressing….'
RING RING RING
I sighed as I un wrapped my tail and used it to pick up the phone
"What?"
"I always told you not to answer the phone like that"
I growled…it was him
"called to gloat I see, you're a bastard Inuyasha, and I hate you"
"Kagome…I told you I wanted to be friends, I, I miss you" 'he sounds so sad..'
"I don't want to be your friend, and I don't give a rats ass if you miss me or not"
He sighed "Kagome did u get my letter"
I rolled my eyes
"yes"
"did you read it"
"no, I already heard what you had to say, trader"
"please don't hate me" 'I could never hate you'
"too late"
"you should have read my letter Kagome…it explained everything" I laughed
"what do you have conditions for our break up"
"no, I guess I'll have to tell you"
"yea I guess so" I was beyond pissed 'the audacity'
"in the letter it explained every thing, I'm being blacked mailed Kagome"
"Liar"
"I'm serious, Kikyou has photos of my father, and his mistress in very…compromising positions"
I looked out the window sadly at the setting sun
"you've turned into such a liar Inuyasha"
"I'm not lying Kagome…she threatened to go to the press, and if she did that then my father would be fired as CEO of 'it sounds, believable…'
"What does that have to do with us"
"she wants in on my share of the inheritance…since Shessomaur is married to Kagura I'm the only choice she had, don't you understand Kagome"
I sighed as my vision got blurry and pain filled me to the core
"Stop hurting me Inuyasha, I know that your trying to make me feel better about the situation but…your lies are making it worst"
"Kagome….its not like that"
"Whatever Inuyasha…I gotta go"
"ok…Kagome, your still my love"
"No I'm not"
I then hung up the phone, I looked around my room, put on some sweats and kicked the TV, smashing the screen into pieces, I picked up the lamp on the dresser and threw it on the floor, I picked up the entire bed over my head and hurled it as hard as I could without breaking the floor. I was filled with pain, I was filled with, rage, I was filled with resentment.
I then trashed the rest of the apartment. 'I HATE HIM…I HAVE TO'
NEXT DAY
I woke up…looked at my ceiling…and wished myself dead…but I kept breathing…I hate breathing, it simply delays death 'wow that was morbid'
I was never so depressed, not even when after my father died, not even when I killed my mother and brother, I was just upset and angry I wasn't strong enough to control my power and couldn't prevent my father from killing himself by showing him more love….being depressed is tiring, and boring, and just over all shitty. My hair was no longer glossy or wavy like it used to be, it was dull, my eyes were dull as well not even sadness showed through.
RING RING RING
RING RING RING
'
I moved from the mirror and searched under the debris for the phone
'Finally!'
"Speak"
"its Miroku, how are you this fine day" 'how is it he can be so happy'
"depressed"
"That's great! Anyway, I'm just calling to tell you that a friend of mine is getting married and it seems that his wedding band has reigned on their deal and I swooped in like the super agent I am and got the gig!"
I rolled my eyes 'what a weirdo"
"find….What song do you want us to sing"
"What ever you want as long as its not about someone dieing or suicide or a woman scorned by a man then its all good from there" 'then…we have no songs'
"ok…when is the wedding"
"This Saturday"
"alright, I promise to have something lovey dovey by then"
"OK CHAO!!" I looked at the phone weirdly
"yyyea, chao?" he laughed at my aquardness and hung up
THURSDAY
"OK were gonna do Promise, At your best, and Love, I guess from there we'll improvise ok"
Everyone nodded but Rin looked confused
"What's wrong Rin"
"Why can't we do never again or lemon"
We all had to stifle our laughter
"cause it's a wedding"
"so"
"so that means no depression"
"but….what if the bride is ugly, I bet the groom would be depressed then"
We all had to laugh at that one
"Back to business, I was thinking that we do a song I just composed….its slow its about love its good enough"
I handed out sheet music and everyone headed over to their instruments
"lets just practice with out the vocals"
ONE HOUR LATER
"Kagome, I think we can add the vocals now" Ayame said, she was tired, and so was the rest of us
"ok, from the top"
From hundreds of miles you cry like a baby
You plead with me, shout, scream, tell me I'm staying
I know I know I know, I'm still your love
Back from the last place that I wanted to fake you
Laugh with me, shout, scream now tell me you're staying
I know I know I know, you're still my love
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you
Box after box and you're still by my side
The weather is changing and breaking my stride
I know I know I know, it's just this day
House after house, just like car after car
You see club after club and it all seems so far
I know I know I know what else are we here for
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you
Sticking your hands inside of my pockets
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all
Last night I was writing about you
I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you
I know I know I know, you're still my love
I wake up to the sound of you working
You're one room right over, stressing and loving me
I know I know I know, be still my love
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you
Stick your hands inside of my pockets
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all
Stick your heart inside of my chest
Keep it warm here while we rest
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you
Sango then spoke "We're great"