Jory's favorite movie in this chapter (Lost Boys) is only because I was watching the 2nd one when i was writing this. The one that just came out with Autumn Reeser in it. Hmmm. Going to update all of my other fics since i can't sleep.

Chapter 3

It was all my fault that all of this has happened. I've spent the past ten years putting everything I had into my girls and my job. But my girls have always come first. Always. It was hard to adjust to single life the first few years after Millie was born. But we ended up working just fine on our own. Not a day went by that I hadn't missed how Ryan and I were the first 5 years of our marriage. I had always wondered how Ryan felt about the divorce. Summer had told me that he was beyond depressed at first but he eventually got used to it.

The bad thing about it all was I wanted him to chase after me, to beg me to try again but he hadn't. He signed the divorce papers with ease. It had broken my heart all over again to have it all finalized.

"You okay mom?" Kelsey looked over at me as the four of us picked at our dinner. Ryan had dropped the girls off without coming in just like he had every other weekend.

"Don't worry about me. I'm strong after all I've been without him for ten years plus it's not like he'd still have feelings for me after everything I've done to our family. Then there's the dark haired Barbie he'd marrying. When is that exactly?" I ramble. The girls are used to it by now.

Jory looks like she wants to say something but she's holding her tongue. I wish she would just say it already.

"A month." Kelsey mumbles.

"A month!?" I yell out.

"Yeah, daddy wants to get married before the summer so they can go on a honeymoon before we spend the summer with them." Kelsey explained to e. Wow, Ryan sure wasn't wasting in time marrying this..this whore!

"You really want to spend all summer with them? You know you don't have to If you don't want.." They'd spend every two weeks with Ryan during their summer breaks. I always missed them every week they were gone from me.

"It'd be something different. I mean mom, maybe us being gone will give you time. You know to move on from daddy. He's happy with Rebecca and as much as Kelsey and I hate her we have to support him in this." Jory had finally spoken up. I was a little surprised but Jory idolized her father, she always had.

"She's right, mama." Millie said next. For once Millie and Jory had agreed on something but it was far from what I wanted to hear. They were right though. Ryan wanted this so I had to be okay with it. I didn't know just seeing him the day before would bring so many things back to me but it had and I missed it more than ever.

Kelsey had a totally different expression on her face. I knew she'd do anything to make Ryan happy but I wasn't sure she was willing to do this.

"It's not supposed to be like this," Kelsey cried out "We're supposed to be a family. All 5 of us."

"Blame mom for that one." Jory spoke up. She was right though.

"It's not like daddy was innocent in all of this either. If he had just done what he promised mom then we'd still be a whole family." Kelsey got up from the table slamming her chair against it startling her sisters and I. This conversation had struck a nerve in my daughter.

"I'm sorry." Jory looked away from me and back down at her plate.

"Don't be sorry, Jor. If that's what you really think then stick by it don't feel bad if someone doesn't agree." I tell her. Millie got up quietly taking her plate over to the sink.

"It's Kelsey's night to do dishes, I did them for her twice already, Mama." Millie turned towards me.

"Okay, baby. You don't have to do them. Kelsey will." I smiled standing up and following Millie's lead. I walked over to her and pulled her into my arms. "I love you, Mills." I kissed the top of her head not letting her go just yet. I looked over at my middle daughter as she cleared the table. "I think tonight is a perfect movie night." I let go of Millie.

"Sounds go to me but I pick the movie." Jory's face lit up. I was almost afraid to see what she was going to pick. My daughter was a tad bit dark when it came to things she liked or wore for that matter.

"Not Lost Boys again!" Millie whined when Jory appeared in front of us with her favorite movie. I knew she'd pick that one. "I pick next movie night movie." Millie declared.

"Alright get comfortable. I'm going to talk to Kelsey real quick." I say turning towards the stairs.

Kelsey was sitting up in her bed with her legs propped up to her chest and her phone to her ear. She was talking to Ryan. I could tell because the look on her face was both happy and sad. She wanted this family. My daughter needed a full family and I've ripped that away from her. Instead she gets every other weekend with her father.

"I'm sorry I just think I want to stay here this summer?…It's not about her, daddy!" Me. He thought it was me that didn't want her going. Oh, how I hated hearing one sided phone conversations. "I'm going. I love you. Bye."

"Hey, baby." I walk over and sit on the edge of her bed. She gives me a slight smile but says nothing. "He's just angry with me for what I said." I try. She just shakes her head and rests her chin on her knee. "Look it's a month and a half away so you might just change your mind by then so just tell him that."

"He wants me to intern at his company." She whispers. I thought she'd be ecstatic about something like that. Being an architect like Ryan had been her dream since she was a young girl walking through the buildings that Ryan had designed. At one point I had been very intrigued with these buildings as well.

"And? I thought you'd love to do that." I shifted a little on the bed to look at her better. "Kelsey if this is really about me then I need you to go anyways. Don't worry about me being here alone. I'll be just fine. So I think you should take that internship."

"It's not that…it's just I…there's this guy." Of course, isn't here always a guy? I smile at her wanting her to go on but knowing Kelsey she'll stop right there. "He sort of asked me on a date and if things work out between us I don't want to leave for an entire summer." I was more than surprised for her to go on. Kelsey kept a lot of things like relationships to herself.

"Kelsey, don't stop your life for some guy." I say.

"Yeah, well we'll see how things go." She shrugs and then the openness my daughter had just expressed had gone away. I sighed and stood up from the bed.

"Jory, Millie and I are going to watch Lost Boys if you want to join." I said from her door.

"No, I've seen that movie enough to recite everything each character says." She smiled a bit.

"Alright but it's your turn to do dishes so do clean the up, please. I'm going to see if Millie has lasted through the first 5 minutes." I smile leaving her room.

"She's out?" I laughed approaching the couch where my two younger daughters were. Millie was curled up into a ball fast asleep. Jory was so into the movie that she hadn't even heard me say anything. I sat down in between the two of them pulling Jory close to me.

"Stop." She whined trying to get away from me. I miss the days when she would just let me hold her close, now she had this tough exterior type thing that showing any affection towards me was a huge no-no. "Wait, can I dye my hair black?" She liked to slip that question in at the most random times.

"Yeah, while we're at it maybe let you grow some fangs. I think they'd look just nice on you." I rolled my eyes at her. I'm still unsure how I managed to have such a dark child.

"Whatever, mom." She rolled her eyes right back at me trying to hide back the smile that was creeping up on her lips.

"Is Rebecca nice to your and your sisters?" I asked Jory.

"For the most part. She hates our visits though, she says they take her time away from daddy. I'm not even sure how daddy was able to get her to agree on a whole 3 months of us living with them." She doesn't take her eyes off of the TV screen for a second, it's almost like she's never seen this movie.