Taylor's POV. Hmmm, I can smell drama coming in the near future.

Chapter 8

I'm really not sure how I'm supposed to handle the fact that my ex-husband is sitting on my couch at 2 in the morning. This is not how I pictured my night going. Kelsey and I were going to just sit around and be lazy after her date. We were in the middle of watching one of her favorite movies when the doorbell rang.

"Ryan what are you doing here exactly?" I folded my arms across my chest standing in front of him.

"I left her…" He said looking down at his hands. My heart sunk hearing his words.

I'm really not sure how it happened but the next thing I knew my ex-husband and I were making out on my couch like a couple of teenagers. God, it felt so good to kiss him again.

I had missed his touch the past ten years. I missed everything about him. This was familiar and it was amazing. I didn't really realize what we were doing until my shirt was off and his pants were slowly being unbuttoned. I don't think I would have stopped if it weren't for the 'Oh my God' behind us. The both of us froze mid kiss. Ryan quickly handed me my shirt. I slipped it on and adjusted myself before finally going to get off of his lap. Instead he grabbed my hips and held me there. I gave him a strange look and looked down. "Oh…" I whispered.

"Mom…Daddy…" I turned my head slightly to see Kelsey with her arms folded against her chest and her eyes wide. "Oh my God, I have to go tell Jory!" She squealed running out of the room to her sister's room.

"What just happened?" I laughed turning back towards him and laying my head on his chest.

"What I've been dreaming of since you left…" He whispered. God, this was insane. I wanted to kiss him again but I felt like I didn't have the right to, not after what I had done to him, to our family. "I'm sorry." I think he saw the change on my face when I lifted my head up to look at him.

"I need you." I whispered. I don't know why I was doing this. I just knew that if he was here then I didn't want to let him go ever again. Even though we had so much to get through before we should even think about sleeping together but right now I didn't care. I didn't even care that the girls were in the house, which should probably have been my first concern but it wasn't. "I know we have so much to talk about Ryan, but right now all I need is you…"

"Let's go to your room." His eyes darkened as I stood up and grabbed his hand to help him up. "God, I've missed you." He pulled me into him before leaving the living room. Once in the hall we were met by our middle child.

"So, what's going on with the two of you?" She quirked an eyebrow.

"Nothing." I smile.

"You are a terrible liar, mom. But I'm a bit confused. Earlier I find a pregnancy test in your bathroom, daddy and then you woke us up to leave Rebecca. And now you're kissing my mother." Wait, pregnancy test?

"It wasn't my kid." He tells her simply. Now I know we made a great decision in him getting that vasectomy. "She cheated on me…"

"Wow. Totally saw that one coming!" She laughed.

"Get to bed, Jordyn." I raise my eyebrow at her.

"Fine, I see when I'm not wanted." She turns around and heads towards her room. I smile back at Ryan before grabbing his hand again and pulling him towards my bedroom. I smile at him as I shut my door behind us. For some reason I'm nervous. I feel like a teenager about to have sex for the first time.

"Ryan…okay this is going to sound completely insane but…" I start messing with my hands as I bite the inside of my bottom lip nervously. "I haven't had sex since I left you."

"Didn't expect that one." He tells me giving me a slight smile. "But, it makes this so much better." He pulls me away from the door and more into the room.

I know in the morning I'm going to wonder why we did this but right now I don't want any second thoughts about it.

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This is weird but it feels right. I haven't felt like this since leaving Ryan ten years ago. God, it felt good to be in his arms again feeling protected. I looked down at our intertwined bodies and wonder if anything would come of this. I don't know how Ryan sees this. If he just wants last night to be it or if he wants to be with me again.

I'm scared. I'm scared that something's going to happen and this isn't going to work. I'm scared I'll say the wrong thing and he'll leave. I don't want him to leave and I don't want to leave him, not again.

He stir's next to me startling me from my thoughts. I grin when I see that he's staring at me with a smile on his face. "Good Morning." He whispers putting his hand on the back of my head and running his hand through my hair. "I forgot how amazing it was to wake up to you in the morning." He said honestly. I know what he means.

"What are we doing? Isn't this…isn't this too fast or do you just want last night to remain last night and never happen again? Because Ryan I want to be with you but I can completely understand if you don't want to be with me, too. I left you…I broke up our family."

"I stayed up two hours after you fell asleep last night thinking about everything and honestly, Taylor, I need to be with this family again. I want us again. I want my daughters to see me everyday and I want to wake up to you every morning just like this. But there's so many things we need to talk about and get through before that can happen." He was right. We needed to put everything out there and figure it out before we did anything more.

"Did you love her?" I wasn't sure why I asked. I just had to.

"No, I didn't." He kissed my forehead. That was the answer I wanted to hear. I smiled at him.

"Why did you stay with her then?" I asked. He didn't seem bothered by my questions.

"I was lonely." He says simply.

"I never want you to feel lonely again." I whisper burying my head into his chest. He smells exactly the same as he had ten years ago.

We were pulled away from our conversation by a knock on the door. I realized that we hadn't locked the door. I looked up at Ryan and he started laughing. "Come in!" I yelled making sure the both of us were covered up. I made Ryan put on a shirt before one of our daughters bounded into our room.

"Didn't see this one coming. You two ruined my operation!" Kelsey stood in my bedroom doorway with her hands on her thin waist.

"Operation?" I asked confused.

"Operation ruin Daddy's wedding and make him realize he's in love with you." She said matter-of-factly like I was supposed to know what she was talking about. Ryan just started laughing at her. She gave him a slight glare that reminded me of him.

"I don't think you needed an operation for that one." He told her. I smiled. God, I never want to feel him not next to me ever again. "I've always known I loved your mother and as for the wedding…that was a mistake."

"I agree with you on that one, Daddy. Okay, now what is with Jory calling me yesterday and telling me Rebecca was pregnant?" Kelsey asked curiously.

"How exactly did she know about that?" He questioned her. I had wanted to ask her that the night before.

"She found the pregnancy test in your bathroom and it was positive."

"Well, she is pregnant and it's not mine. There is no possible way it could be mine." He tells me.

"I don't want to know." She rolled her eyes and crossed her arms over her chest.

"Kelsey, did he call?" I had just remembered about her date the night before. It was cute watching my little girl have her first date! I had been wishing Ryan was there to share this experience but on second thought I wasn't sure if he would have even let her go on a date.

"Yes, he did." She smiled.

"Did who call?" Ryan sat up looking between both Kelsey and I.

"Jason…" She said biting her lip and looking at the ground.

"Who's Jason?" He questioned.

"Just a friend." She lied. No, Jason was definitely not just a friend.

I must admit that I searched the boys name on the internet and followed him around town a few times to make sure he was good enough for my baby. I hadn't found anything interesting out about him so I decided to just say yes to her dating him anyway.

"No boy is just a friend." Ryan's voice got deeper. Aw, this was cute. He was being protective.

"I am totally not doing this right now." She rolled her eyes and exited the room.

"Who's Jason?" He turned to me. I gave him a smile and patted his chest.

"Her boyfriend. Now don't get all macho Daddy on me…he's a good kid."

"And how would you know that?" He asked sharply.

"I checked him out, Ryan. Honestly you don't think I'd let my daughter go out with a freak." I rolled my eyes at him.

"Of course not…it's just…isn't she too young to date?" He asked. I laughed. Too young?

"Coming from the guy who basically lost his virginity at 13?" I raised an eyebrow at him.

"Don't say that, Taylor. You know Kelsey is different."

This was weird. How we were having such a comfortable conversation when we had barely spoken to each other in ten years. It was so weird that I liked it but it was also scary.

"She's not having sex, Ryan. I talked to her about it last night." I assured him.

"Oh God, please don't bring up Kelsey and sex." He groaned laying back on the pillow behind him.

"She's growing up, Ryan. She's going to do things and experiment and fall in love. We have to support her and trust that she'll make the right choices."

"Fine but I don't like this whole Kelsey dating thing. Let's make a deal that Millie will never date, we should lock her in her room until she's thirty."

"What about Jory?" I laugh.

"That's inevitable." He chuckled.

"I missed you." I leaned over and kissed him on the lips. He returned my kiss. We were almost to that point where clothes were about to be shed again when Jory entered the room.

"You should really close this door or better yet lock it." She rolled her eyes at us.

"Good Morning, Jory." Ryan grins as I pull away from him. We watched as Millie came in behind her sister.

"What are you doing here, still?" Millie asked with wide eyes. I laughed at how confused my little girl was.

"I stayed?" He scratched the top of his head.

"So, are you staying forever or are you leaving to go back to Rebecca?" She questioned. I loved my girls to death, especially their questions.

"It's too early to talk about forever but I'm never going back to Rebecca." He tells her.

"Good because honestly, Daddy she was all wrong for you. She smelled…and not in a good way." Millie scrunched up her nose as I laughed.