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Ch 3
"What are you doing here" I state opening the door to see a semi drunk Tristan standing there.
"It's Huntzberger isn't it" he states coming in uninvited.
"What about Logan" I question him shutting the door. What the hell is he doing here and how did he find me is what I'm thinking.
"It all makes sense now, the ring box you dropped; the whole I hate your guts bit; the whole I repulse you" he says looking through the empty cabinets slamming them after.
"The ring yes, but the rest is all you Dugray" I smirk handing him a glass knowing that is what he was looking for. He pours some wine that was sitting on the counter into it before slamming it back and refilling it before continuing this rant of his.
"Do you love him" he questions looking at me.
"Yeah I do" I say turning away and grabbing my glass from the box. I'm going to need more if he's staying. Why is it whenever i think about him or are around him i need to drink?
"That doesn't sound too convincing to me Mare" he states walking to the window looking out, before turn and sitting on the floor to face me. I look at him and realize that Paris was right. Society blonde boys do like nicknaming me don't they? brushing that thought off, i continue packing.
"What happened to you" he says a while after the silcence was too much.
"People change" I state not looking up from the box.
"You looked like you were playing dress up in Emily's closet and lost Mare, where is the sexy girl from Chilton that wore those sexy outfits that I couldn't take my eyes off? The one that made me hard just looking at her; the temptress that made all the guys want her. The sexy street driver in those tight leather pants?" he says and I look up.
"I'm not the same person anymore" I state standing up. I left girl in the past when I lost everything.
"That LDB tattoo on your lower back says otherwise Mare, you still have that live on the edge street racing blood running through you. It doesn't go away. It just seems like you're hiding it, but why?" he laughs.
"That doesn't mean I haven't changed" I restate to him. So what if I have a tattoo that Logan made me get as part of the jump. Sure, after jumping off teh scaffolding I felt that sheer rush like I used to. "That's not me anymore" I add walking to the counter.
"Do you love him" he questions again coming to stand behind me at the counter where I was refilling my glass.
"I already said I did" I state not moving. I can feel his breathe on my neck and its sending chills down my spine. Why does he have this effect on me after all this time? No, I need to stop thinking like that. I love Logan. Tristan is just drunk.
"More than me" he says softly into my ear as he rubs my arms. His hands feel so familiar, so safe. He begins kissing under my ear light and it feel so go. No, I can't think like that.
"You're drunk" I say moving out of the way and walking away. I love Logan. I know I do. Why did he have to come back and ruin everything?
"Mare" he says grabbing my arm and turning me to face him. I ended up crashing right into his chest.
"Tell me. Tell me that he loves you like I did. Tell me that you love him more" he says cupping my face and I just stand there. Were his eyes always this blue? He kisses me lightly and I close my eye anticipating more but he backs up. I look up at him almost hurt.
"If you can tell me that Mare, I'll leave" he says stepping closer and I step back silent. Why can't I answer him? What is he doing to me?
"Is that the future you picture for yourself with Huntzberger? You know that you'll never be able to succeed like you want as his wife. You're become just like them all, society wives that husbands cheat on them. That everyone else in the room is sleeping with your husband but you. Wearing clothes more suited for Emily and Francine that you. You're gorgeous and you hide it. Why?" he says still coming closer and I feel myself hitting my back wall between the bedrooms.
"That's not fair" I say weakly. I don't want to be like them, but I can't be like my old self.
"What's not fair is you choosing all that over the real future you want. The future you're meant to have. I can give you all that. I was ready to give you that 4 years ago. You just have to let me show you" he says caressing my cheek.
"I love Logan, Tristan. It took us too long to get here. I don't want to lose him" I say trying to push him away, but he holds his spot.
"Are you willing to sacrifice everything you have when you don't know yourself if he can be loyal?" he says removing the ponytail from my hair and letting it flow wildly. He always loved like that. Free and untamed.
" Like you can be. You couldn't even wait to find Summer after proposing to me. How can I trust you? But it's not like I have a chose. If we don't get married everyone loses. I can't do that. Once again I have to sacrifice my happiness for other. I'm tired of doing it" I state looking up at him. He's so close, closer than he has ever been in 4 years.
"I can make you happy. I can make you feel that love you desire every day" he says playing with the ends of my hair. Logan used to do that at the beginning of our relationship, but not now.
"Can you even stand here and tell him that you won't cheat on me again?" I state angry and pushing him away.
"I made a mistake. People do that. We were young Rory. I was scared but because of that mistake I lost the two things in the world that meant the most to me" he states and I can see that it still haunts him.
"So how can I trust you? Tell me how can I'm supposed to look at you and not see that pain again? All I see looking at you is that horrible day and the weeks that followed. I refused to let that bother me for the last four years. I buried it deep inside me" I cry at him he steps closer to me and pins me against the wall again.
"I lost everything that day and knew it, but I also promised myself that if I ever had the chance to be with you again, I would make you the happiest person in the world. Give you everything you were wanted or desired. You just have to want it. Let me show you that I changed and that you're still the woman I want forever" he says stepping even closer.
"You always made me happy" I say touching his chest lightly. I can feel the muscles on the tips of my fingers and have the urge to run them down his chest again. How can I still be so attracted to this man?
"Let me remind you what it feels like to be with a man that worships you" he states before kissing me passionately and everything else fades away. He lifts me up and automatically I wrap my legs around his waist and allow him to carry me to my bed. Having him kissing me again and touching me is awakening something inside me that I never felt with Logan.
"I missed you Mare" he whispers hoarsely before kissing down my neck. He already removed my shirt and his as well. It was then when he was reaching for my bra that I felt the guilt. This feels wrong. I don't love Tristan. I'm with Logan.
"Stop" I say as he attempts to unclasp my bra.
"What…no" he say kissing me harder and I push him off me. I get off the bed and grab my shirt.
"Get out" I state and he stares at me.
"Mare, come on you don't mean that. We belong together" he says standing up.
"I want you out of here and now" I state leaving my room.
"But, I thought we were…" he starts.
"No, we're nothing. I lost it for a minute there with you saying everything I wanted to hear for a long time but that is the old Rory. It was impulse to kiss you back and wanting to feel you again. But this is not happening anytime soon. I love Logan not you so get out" I sneer holding the door open for him. All I want to do is cry.
"This isn't over Rory, you will be mine whether you like it or not. I refuse to lose you to Huntzberger of all people. Oh and here" he says pulling a ring box out of his pocket and throwing it across the room.
"Dad demands that on your finger Sunday morning at bunch, my lovely fiancé so don't forget it" he states leaving. I slam the door and scream. I hate him.
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