Thank you so much guys, for understanding and not getting hugely upset with me for slightly abandoning this story.

Well I tried SO mighty hard for you guys, and i was able to complete Chapter 6 today! I hope to be more frequent with my chapters but for now,

Here you go!

xo. Max

Chapter 6: Spun

Edward POV

Maybe if I close my eyes, I could get to sleep. Maybe if I hold my breath, I'll jump into unconsciousness and perhaps die? Maybe… That's all the world comes to, chance. Life is complicating. I can never understand girls, no matter how hard I try they are so mystic, and here I lay on my bed watching the ceiling fan spin, what a perfect weekend.

Do you ever wonder if god is testing you? I feel it constantly, like a rush of a knife going through your heart. A daily reaction will cause for me to explode sometimes. If you're lucky, you may be the one I confide in. Otherwise, you can see it in my eyes.

I was born with this curse as I call it. My true and saddest of moments can be seen through my eyes. Even upon the funniest of moments, my eyes are dry with sadness. It was a gift as my family calls it; I call it the evil bearer of my pain. Most people say that your pain can be shown through your actions or even thoughts? Me; I got my eyes, one which betrays my body constantly. Showing everyone to see my true emotions at times when it wish to hide it and lock it away forever. I'm very lucky huh?

I'm slowly breaking down. It's been… what? 2 weeks since the talent show, and my irrevocable love for Bella, yet I haven't heard a word from her. I only see her in class, staring off into space or ignoring me. Last I recalled she didn't want me to control her.

I guess this is what it feels like to be rejected.

Haunting isn't it? To feel the shallow response of your deepest desires crushed. To feel the sad displeasing moment of time waiting to collide upon your death. Oh how I fancy the dead. How I wish my life can stop any waking minute to shatter apart my soul. I wonder about the afterlife? I'd rather much be having misery under someone's control then having misery under the name of God. He hath pondered my thoughts into the state of dust crashing down onto the ground.

How do I know if I'm in love? How can I be sure? Did I just make a stupid mistake to assume love, when I or no one I've met besides my parents has felt it?

There it is, the recognition in my mind. Disappointment which just appeared in my heart. I have to forget about her. I can't chase what's not willing to be chased, can I?

I've finally realized to move on, feels good at some odd point. I no longer feel the deprivation of having no one. Loneliness has far from entered my soul; I wish to keep it that way.

I rolled over. There staring intently at me was Emmett.

"Jeez man how did you even get in here without me noticing! What are you, some kind of ninja?" I grumbled and turned over.

"Sorry I was just wondering why you've been so moody these days, you're like totally blowing my mellow here man!" He ranted. Just when he was about to say something, his phone rang,

"Hi babe, what's craka lakin'" nodding to himself, "Alright ill call you back when

I'm done"

I immediately shut him off, and went back to my eternal sleeping.

"Edward my man!"

I got woken up to Emmett thrashing me about.

"What?" I opened one eye.

"Do you wanna join us to the beach! The sun, water, and hot babes everywhere, you know its gonna be awesome! So do you wanna come?"

"No thanks" I closed my eyes peacefully, hoping for Emmett to get the hint and leave.

"Aw come on man… I know for certain Bella's coming!" From the sound of his voice, he's probably grinning right now.

"No."

"But—"

"No."

"You—"

"No."

"Geez man, you're like my grandpa. Come on Prude"

"No."

"How can I make you come with us?"

"Nothing" I felt so tired of these one word answers.

"Fine, you won't do anything, you're like my grandpa… damn, even my grandpa would know to come to the beach to check out babes" and with that, he left.

Finally peace and quiet.

Until Emmett barged in, not two minutes later.

"Listen man, you gotta come with us, even up the guys and girls. Please!" He was begging now.

"What part of 'No' do you not comprehend?" seriously getting aggravated from his constant whining, god he's like a chick.

Emmett stalked off, grumbling something about 'not getting some tonight' and everybody hating him.

I slept for about 20 minutes until I was finally woken up by a sudden urge to pee.

While walking to the bathroom and doing my duty, I Sighed leaning on the bed, "Maybe I should go for a jog."

While picking myself up from the irreversible, I continued to dress and walked out of my room, looking for my Ipod. I spotted it, on the couch. That wasn't where I left it last, that's odd. I check to see what song it was on, Raise It Up by August Rush was playing. I don't recall listening to this recently. Oh well.

After slowly debating on who would've listened to m Ipod, I gave up and left the dorm. A fresh crisp jog will help boggle my mind to shut up for a while.

I was running aimlessly, until I realized where I had run to. The beach, god even my legs are betraying me now. Until I just noticed, the beach is only just south of the campus all along. I scanned the beach, hoping to get a glimpse of Bella before she notices me, and there staring at me, sitting down in all her glory was the most gorgeous girl, no woman, I have ever seen in my life.

Bella.

BPOV

I love you…

I can't seem to get it out of my head. I thought I made it clear, I still wanted to be friends, yet I sourly pushed him away. I shut him out like I'd usually do. What is wrong with me?

"Hey Bella want to come to the beach with us?" Alice popped in from the door.

"Sure, I need to get my mind of things" I got up to find that Alice already took out my bikini and clothes to wear.

"So... What's been on your mind?" Rosalie popped in from the door.

"Nothing" I stared at the wall, hiding myself.

"Come on Bellla, we both know how badly you suck at lying. Its about Edward isn't it? Did you ask him out, and he said no?" she questioned?

"No!" I screamed, aggravated at their accusation.

"Bella whats wrong?" Alice looked clearly upset that I was upset.

"Its nothing alright, I'm just stupid" I said, looking down.

"Tell us Bella." Alice prompted.

Then there my story started, with the beginning of the infirmary incident, and those three words that I had to rudely reject in my mind. The stupid way my mind worked, asking to be friends, and then going back on my own word. How he probably hates me and I was ranting and crying to my best friends. I realized that now, I have to do something to save our friendship, and keep the insanity I have from slowly slipping away.

"I have to fix this." I blurted.

Alice started, "Alright well, don't just storm into his room, lets think this calmly and cool—"Rosalie interrupted her.

"Let's invite him to the beach!" She grinned.

"YES! And then you can talk to him there. Alright Rose, you call Emmett and tell him to convince Edward to join us. And while were waiting, we'll make you look fabulous for Edward!" She started for her make-up bag, hair dryer, and more things which I'll surely regret afterwards.

After much prepping and primping, in the eyes of Alice, I was ready. As Rosalie stormed in the room, with her phone in her ear, looking aggravated.

"No Emmett keep trying, he has to say yes! I don't care how you do it, just try!" She slammed the phone.

"Any problems with Emmett, Rose?" Alice asked.

"No, Edward's just being a little stubborn, is all" she sighed.

I hope he comes, I really need to talk to him and straighten things out, we do have to be on speaking terms for our English project and its nearly due date.

I was taken out of my trance with Emmett storming in, "ALRIGHT LETS GET THIS PARTY STARTED!"

"Emmett, where's Edward?" Alice asked.

"He's not coming, Dude's got issues, but who cares, you ladies have the Em to keep you company" He grinned and winked.

"You idiot! We give you one job! ONE! And you can't even do that now can you? Edward was supposed to come! And you… you... UGH!" Rosalie slammed the door on his face.

They both looked at me empathetically. I was about to cry. I lost it. A great friendship with Edward and I had to ruin it.

"I'm such an idiot!" crying my eyes out.

"Shh.. Sweeties you don't, I promise you, he will realize what a jerk he's being and come to his senses, calm down…" they both hugged me.

After about a minute of fixing myself to look decent, we were off to the beach. For a day of forgetting about my problems and focusing on having fun. If I could get part the image of Edward every 5 seconds from popping up.

When we finally reached the beach, we grabbed a towel from our bags and umbrella, setting down in the shade. I lotion-ed and ate, taking a book from my bag, I sat down and disappeared from the real world, into my story.

"Bella come play with us!" Alice jumped, from the beach courts.

"No thanks, it'll be uneven then" I faked a smile, realizing that I've always been the 5th wheel without a date or anybody. It hasn't bothered me before, but I feel like a part of me is missing.

I tensed, I had the feeling I was being watched, I carefully scanned the beach, not finding anyone in particular, but him. And he was staring right at me.

Edward.