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Hi. Hopefuly this chapter will make up for the previous small ones. Hope you like it. And a massive thank you to all my reviewers and readers.
Emma felt her breath stop and her chest tighten before it relaxed. She breathed out the breath she had been holding in and closed her eyes tightly. She began to laugh quietly confusing Allan. 'Just like you ain't it Allan. Always doing the right thing too late.' She smiled through the tears.
'Emma please.' Allan sobbed as he marched over to her bed and climbed upon it. He knelt on the covers each leg either side of Emma using his arms to support his weight making sure not to put any on her.
'Allan no.' Emma said sternly as she tried to push him away without sucsess.
'Please Emma i'll do anything.' Allan begged as he watched the woman he love vry because of him.
'No. You've already done to much.' Emma whispered as her heart shattered into a thousand pieces.
'Emma please I can't live without you.'
'You managed fine before you met me.' Emma stated somewhat harshly.
'But I had never lived with an angel before then.' Allan whispered.
'Yeah. Welll angels always leave.' Emma rolled her eyes becoming annoyed with his whimpering.
Allan's tears fell from his cheeks onto the material of the bed. He kneeled up straight on the bed and placed a hand to Emma's cheek. It barely grazed her soft delicate skin before she smacked it away. His gaze fell from her face to her belly. There had been life in there. A life that he and Emma had created. And he had destroyed it. He wanted to place his hand upon her abdomen but knew that he would not be allowed to. She didn't want him touching her and he didn't blame her. He didn't deserve herm she deserved someone better, who was able to give her everything she had wanted which included a family. He sighed sadly giving up and climing from the bed slowly. He walked to the door, his feet barely being able to carry his guilt struck body. He stopped at the door looking back to Emma as his face lay under many tears.
'Who would have thought that this fool could have fallen in love.' He whispered before disappearing.
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Marian returned from the hospital and walked slowly into the living room. She could not image what she would have done if she had miscarried. She had left Emma sobbing as she had been asked to do so. Emma wished to speak to Allan on her own and Marian would not trade places with him for anything. Emma was her friend but she would never wish to be on her bad side.
'Robin Wood and Little John walking through the forest.'
She heard her son sing from the living room. She smiled and walked in to see Aiden sitting on the floor in front of the Tv watching Robin Hood and Robin sitting on the couch watching him with an amused smirk upon his face. She remembered that smirk. He would often use it upon her knowing that she could not resist it...but that was a long time ago.
'Marian.' Robin said as he saw her standing in the door way. He stood and faced her. 'Hows Emma?' He asked quietly.
'I think the question should be hows Allan cause he ain't going to be much when Emma gets through with him.' Marian stated.
'He's upset to you know. He did after all lose his baby.' Robin stated folding his arms.
'Yes, he was losing his baby while he was performing an act that could cause another one.' Marian bit as she put her jacket down over the back of the chair.
'That doesn't mean he isn't sorry for whats he's done.' Robin argued back.
'Robin. Allan is my friend to, but you don't realise what this has done to Emma.' Marian sighed calming her temper. It was not his fault so she should not be yelling at him.
'Yes, but Allan has been talking to the lads about it and he is just as upset.' Robin stated itrritated..
'Your still angry at me aren't you?' Marian asked in a harsher tone than she had intended.
'What?' Robin frowned.
'This is why your are causing this argument because you are still angry at me.' Marian insisted.
'No I am defending Allan, who is my friend. My disagreement has nothing to do with your lies.' Robin snapped.
'Lies.' Marian exclaimed. 'I wasn't lying I was telling you because I thought that you had a right to know. I had your best interests at heart.' Marian shouted.
Robin looked to his son who was still watching the DVD, he sighed and turned back to Marian. He nodded his head for her to follow him and moved into the hall way and closed the door so Aiden would not witness their bickering. It was not fair to have him witness their dispute.
'You had your chance Marian.' Robin whispered annoyed. 'I stood their heart in the open for you to take and you walked away. You told me no.'
'I know that.' Marian snapped.
'So whats changed?'
'I have.' Marian whispered. 'I miss you Robin. Your not here like you used to be.'
'I told you that I loved you Marian. And I told you that it is hard for me to be around you.' Robin groaned. 'This is the way it had to be. You chose this.'
'I chose wrong.' Marian pleaded. 'I can't stop thinking about you.'
'Its to late now.' Robin stated. 'So from now on when you think of me. Just remember that I could have been the best thing that you had.' Robin bit before turning and walking out of the house.
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Marian had put Aiden to bed after some worrying questions about why Robin had suddenly left. She sat on the couch with a glass of red wine as she watched Only fools and horses. Things had become so complicated lately. Robin and hers once solid friendship was now nothing but shattered remains. The only reason he probably still spoke to her was for Aiden. She hated the way she had made him feel and how she had created such a dense atmosphere for her son to be in with his parents. There was a knock at the door as she unwillingly lifted her body from the soft comfortable couch and made her way to the door.
'Marian.' The dark man smiled as she opened it.
'Guy. What are you doing here?' Marian asked as she wrapped her arms around her uncomfortably. She had not expected him of all people to be at her door at half ten at night.
She hated what she had done with this man. She had slept with him and ever since then he had not stoppped hounding her with phone calls and texts. In a strange way she felt as though she was being unfaithful to Robin, as though she were not allowed to enter into another relationship, which was a ridiculous speculation.
'I was worried. You had not returned any of my calls.' Guy said as he walked into the house.
'No I have been busy.' Marian spoke as she closed the door and followed her unwelcome guest into the living room.
'I thought perhaps something had happened to Aiden.' Guy stated as he turned to face her.
'No no he is fine.' Marian smiled as she turned the TV down.
'Is he in bed?' Guy smiled as he clapped his hands together.
'Yes.' Marian answered.
'Then perhaps we can have a night in together. Watch a movie' He suggested.
'Guy I would rather not. I am tired and I am not in the best of moods.' Marian rejected him nicely.
'Then perhaps we can skip the movie and go straight to bed.' He smirked.
'Guy it is to soon.' Marian sighed.
Guy groaned and looked down on her with leering eyes. 'Its because of him isn't it?'
'Who?' Marian asked confused.
'Robin. You still love him even after everything he has said and done.' Guy grumbled darkly.
'No. It is too soon to bring another man into Aiden's life.' Marian stated surely.
'Do not toy with me Marian. You used to me to get to him. You love him, but what you have to face is that he does not love you anymore Marian.' Guy sneered as he moved closer to her.
Marian shuddered under his gaze and stance. He made her skin crawl, and even though she would never show it to him, he frightened her at this moment. He towered over her like a black cloud waiting to unleash its anger upon her.
'Mummy.' Marian turned to see Aiden standing at the door rubbing his tired eyes.
'Go back to bed brat.' Guy spat.
'Don't you ever speak to my son like that.' Marian shouted.
'He's vermin.' Guy shouted at Marian.
'Don't shout at me mummy.' Aiden frowned as he walked over to Guy and hit him repeatedly on the leg.
'Get off me.' Guy shouted pushing Aiden away, cauing him to fall backwards on his bottom.
Marian was at Aiden's side in an instant kneeling next to him she craddled him in his arms.
'Guy leave my house.' She ordered with a stern voice even though her body was crumbling on the inside.
'You will regret this decision Marian.' Guy threatened before he stormed out of the house.
'Shh baby its OK.' Marian whispered to Aiden as he sobbed into her chest as she held him tightly.
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Robin had taken Aiden to school as usual. Marian had decided not to tell him about Guy. He would probably brand her an unsuitable mother and try to take Aiden from her. But Guy's threat still echoed in her head. It made her body shake with fear at the thought of anything happening to Aiden. He was her world and all she had left of Robin. She pushed those thoughts from her mind as she approached Emma's room in the hospital.
'Hey.' Marian smiled as she saw Emma sitting up in the bed. 'How are you feeling?'
'Considering the situation... not bad.' Emma replied with a small smile.
'The doctor said you can leave today.' Marian added as she sat on the hard horribly coloured hospital seats.
'Yeah I know hes just getting the paper work now.' Emma stated as she looked into the open air.
'How did things go with Allan.' Marian asked cautiously. She did not know if this was a subject that was safe to discuss at the moment in time, but given that there were no sharp items and the fact that she was in a hospital it would be the best and safest time to ask it.
'We talked.' Emma said casually.
Marian waited for the rest, but after a lengthly pause she did not know if there was anymore to come. 'You killed him didn't you.' She joked.
'No.' Emma sighed laughing lightly. 'He said he was sorry for everything that he had done... But its to soon. I don't know if I can ever forgive him.' Emma finished.
'You know forgiving someone helps you love them more.' Marian smiled.
'I can't Marian...not yet.' Emma whispered. 'Can you do something for me Marian?'
'Of course.'
'I don't want to face him. Can you go to our...his apartment and get some of my clothes?' Emma asked.
'Sure. I'll go now.' Marian said as she stood.
'He asked me to marry him Marian.' Emma said as Marian began to walk to the door. 'But I said no.' She finished whispering.
Marian turned back and looked at Emma, smiling sadly before walking out of the room.
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Marian knocked twice on Allan's door and when there was no answer she opened the door herself. She gasped at the sight before her. The open kitchen was barely recognisable as it was buried beneath the many pizza bowes and other take out food packets. The living room was diseased in old dirty clothes and things that Marian could no longer distinguish. Beer cans covered the tops of anything that was flat and wide enough to hold them. Marian walked more into the trash bin and winced when she felt something squish underneath her shoe, she dared not looked down to see what probable insect she had just killed. She took one deep breath before once more fighting through the smell of week old food and god only knows what else. She squinted her eyes as she saw what she believed to be Allan sitting like a maniquin on the couch amoungst clothes and yet more pizza boxes and cans.
'Allan.' Marian said into the stiffling air.
He did not move. She moved closer to the couch climbing over objects in her way until she stood before him. He then moved his gaze to her eyes.
'How is she?' He mumbled through his three day old stubble.
'She is fine, she's getting out of hospital today and asked me to come and get her some clothes.' Marian answered lifting her hand which had an empty gym bag in it.
Allan nodded his head to a door behind Marian which she knew to be their bedroom. She smiled slightly at him before turning and heading to the door. She opened it and walked in where she froze. She had expected some clothed layered disaster. But the room was unblemished. The bed was made and did not even appear to have been slept in in days. If it was possible there would have been a glint from the edge of the photo frame it was that clean. It was almost as if he had allowed everything apart from Emma's domain to have turned into complete chaos. Marian sighed and walked over to the wardrobe and opened its mirrored doors to reveal Emma's clothes. She began lifting them from their hangers and folding them neatly in the bag as well as some shoes, she knew Emma would surely send her into a hospital bed if she did not bring her shoes. She lifted the now heavy bag and set the strap across her shoulder and vacated the room. She looked to Allan who was starring absent mindedly into the beer can in his hand. She walked towards the door.
'I asked her to marry me Marian...but she said no.' Allan spoke into the silent room.
'I know.' Marian whispered back with one final glance and left the apartment.
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Robin got Aiden from school seeing as Marian was running errands for Emma. He waited for him as usual at the gate. But when the many children had exited the school and cleared the play ground with no Aiden, he went to search the school for him wondering where he had gotten to.
'Ah Mr. Locksley.'
Robin turned to find Aiden's teached smiling at him from the classroom door.
'Hi Miss. Dickson. I was looking for Aiden.' Robin smiled as he walked over to the door.
'Yes he is here. I wished to speak to you about something.' Miss. Dickson stated.
Robin frowned as he folled the teacher into the classroom where Aiden was sitting at one of the many tables. Robin winked to him while he wondered what the problem was. Aiden had never gotten into trouble at school before, unlike Robin who had always gotten into trouble at school.
'They had a topic to do today, which was to draw a picture.' Miss. Dickson explained as she walked over with pieces of paper in her hand. 'Aiden's one brought some concern to me.' She turned the pieces of paper to face Robin who took them from her.
He sighed as he studied his sons art work. One of the pictures was of a woman with brown hair who he knew to be Marian. But she had an upside down smile on her face and tears coming from her eyes. The other picture was one of all three of them. With smiley faces and their were all holding hands. Beneath it Aiden had written in messy blue crayoned writing "how I wish my famlee was.'
'Thank you Miss. Dickson. I will sort this.' Robin stated as he smiled to the teacher. 'Right little man lets go, we can go to the park first if you want.' Robin said turning to Aiden smiling. Aiden copied his fathers smile and rushed out the door with Robin following.
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Marian walked into Emma's hospital room to find her dressed in clothes that she had come in with which the nurses had washed.
'Here are your things.' Marian smiled as she walked in and placed the bag on the newly made bed.
'Thanks.' Emma turned and smiled at her, but Marian could see the destruction behind her eyes.
'You can stay at mine as long as you like.' Marian added softly.
'There is no need.' Emma sighed.
'You are going to forgive Allan?' Marian asked happily.
'No. I am not ready to do that.' Emma answered. 'I am going to go and visit my parents in Scotland.' She explained.
'What?' Marian asked shocked.
'I have already called the airport and reserved a seat.' Emma continued ignoring Marian's interuption.
'When is your flight?' Marian asked still trying to take the new information in.
'In two hours.' Emma sighed.
'So soon?' Marian gasped.
'The sooner the better. I have to get out of here.'
'When are you coming back?'
'When I feel like I can.'
'I am always here if you need me.' Marian smiled as she placed a hand on Emma's arm.
'Thank you.' Emma smiled as she gathered Marian in a tight hug. 'You can drive me to the airport.' Emma added laughing as she hugged her.
'Of course.' Marian smiled as she took the bag and they left the room.
Marian watched the hospital doors as she sat in the car waiting for Emma to come back from the toilet. She may have beytrayed her by doing what she had done, but she thought that she had to. She had called Allan and told him that Emma was leaving and he was now on the way to the airport. She did not know what was going to happen when they got there, but she hoped that something could would come from her meddling.
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Stephanie hated this place. It reminded her of her mother who was now just a ghost in her head. She looked to the old man who sat before her, she could tell her was unhappy with her. He had wanted her to have done worse by this but she had not been able to. It wasn't her fault she did not have a black heart to match his own.
'Is there a reason why you are failing me so much.' He asked without looking to her.
'I am pregnant with Carters child and you wish me to pass it off as Robin's.' Stephanie whispered in fear of the man. 'I cannot do this to Carter.'
'But you can do it to your father!' The man shouted standing and banging his hand on the table causing Stephanie to jump.
'I will try.' She whispered bowing her head in defeat.
'Good. At least your brother is doing is job good enough for the both of you.' He barked.
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Marian stood at the busy airport and said her final farewells to Emma. She looked around nervously for Allan who should defiantly be here by now seeing as he left before them due to Emma going to the toilet.
'Are you Ok?' Emma asked sensing Marian's unease.
'Yea yeah i'm fine.' Marian smiled trying to hide it.
'Emma.'
Marian and Emma both turned to see Allan walking up to them.
'Allan not now. I am going and nothing you can say can change my mind.' Emma moaned.
'I know there is nothing else I can say to make you say or take me back. But please listen to this one last thing.' Allan asked breathless from running.
'Fine.' Emma sighed rolling her eyes.
'I found you and everything made sense. But then like the big baboon that I am I mucked it up.' Allan started as he looked pleadingly into Emma's eyes. 'And I don't know if you can ever forgive me and I wouldn't blame you if you didn't. But know this... your the one for me. The only one. And whether it takes three days, three months, three years or even three life times. I will be here, waiting for you.' Allan spoke with so much love and passion. 'Only you.' He whispered.
'Allan a part of me wants to stay but a bigger part of me needs to leave. I have to get away for a while. I need time to think.' Emma said as tears gathered in her eyes.
'I know.' Allan smiled tears forming in his own. 'And i'll wait for you.'
Emma smiled and took his hand squeezing it gently as her flight was called through the tanoy.
'See ya soon babe.' Allan winked.
Emma smiled to him and then Marian before walking through the departure gate.
'You know something Allan.' Marian sighed as Emma disappeared from sight. 'One day your going to look back and think, "that girl really did love me".' Marian said as she shook her head sadly and left the aiport.
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Marian walked into her house and put the keys down on the table. What a day it had been.
Emma had gone. She would miss her. Marian often sought comfort in her when trouble arose with Robin and lately trouble had not left with him.
'Marian.'
She looked up to find the said man leaning on the door frame of her kitchen door with a gentle stare looking at her.
'What?' She asked as she yawned.
'Why were you crying?' Robin asked softly with a dreamy look in his eye.
'What?' Marian asked confused. 'Where's Aiden?'
'He's upstairs playing in his room. Don't change the subject. Why were you crying?' Robin asked again as he pushed himself from the door and walked slowly towards her.
'What makes you think I was crying?' Marian asked folding her arms.
'I was called into the school. Aiden drew this picture and it worried the teacher.' Robin stated as he brought the pictures from his pocket and handed them to Marian who studied them.
'Am I not allowed to cry. Does that make me a bad mother?' Marian asked not wishing to talk about the topic at hand.
'No it does not make you a bad mother Marian. You could never be that.' Robin whispered gently. 'Why were you upset?'
'Because things are so hard now.' Marian moaned.
'What things?' Robin asked.
'You. Me. Us.' Marian said agitated. 'We used to be so close. And I never thought that I wanted a relationship from you. But the you asked and I was so shocked that I said no and now I regret it every day.'
'Marian it is too late now I am engaged to Stephanie.' Robin sighed.
'I know... Which makes it so much harder.' Marian whispered.
'We cannot talk about this any more. This is the way things are now. No more arguing either. Agreed.' Robin stated.
Marian nodded sadly. 'Agreed.' She smiled. At least now they would not be arguing.
'Good... Well goodnight.' Robin smiled. He kissed her on the head and then walked out the front door.
Marian watched the front door for a few moments before sighing and heading to bed.
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Robin kicked a can that was laying abandoned on the street. He could not stop thinking about what Marian has said to him in the corridor. He had left her house almost two hours ago yet he had not gone home. Instead he had found himself walking the empty streets of Nottingham. She had said that she missed him and thought of him often, she had also told him that she regretted saying no. But in his usual stubborn anger he had told her to forget about it. He thought he could do the same, but it was obvious now that he could not. He should have known it would not be easy to forget Marian. After all how can you forget someone you love so much. His thoughts were interuptted by the loud sirens of a fire engine heading towards the park. He shook his head, teenagers were always there lighting up fags and setting the tree branches on fire for a joke. He looked to the bench that sat on the grassy bank. He and Marian had often sat there when she was pregnant. They had watched the water, Marian saying that is calmed her. He had to go back, and tell her how he felt. He smiled his mind finally made up and turned to walk to Marian's house. He thought of the many ways he could tell her. Now any normal person would knock the door and kiss her passionatly when she opened it. But Robin who always had to be that bit smarter and cockier had decided that he was going to climb the tree outside her bedroom window and delicately wake her from her sleep with many small tender kisses. He could not remove the smirk from his face as he walked into her street. He looked up to her house and gasped as he saw three fire trucks outside with their lights screaming into the dark night. Villagers were on the street as they all looked up the burning house which Marian and his son slept in.
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