A/N: Hola! Okay so this chapter should be interesting. I'm not sure which way it will lead me. And as for EowyensPen and others who are wondering about Jakotsu and Kagome: At first Jakotsu will absolutely hate Kagome and he is going to be mean to her, but he comes to his senses later, I promise, and they do become great friends. I really shouldn't have told you all that, it's kindove a spoiler, but I'm really bad at keeping secrets. This is a special chapter, so to get the best out of it, listen to the songs 'Just a Dream' by Carrie Underwood and 'Hurt' by Christina Aguilera while your reading it. That's all I think, so thanks and happy reading!
Summary- Kagome is kidnapped by the band of seven because of her power to sense the jewel shards. With Koga and Inuyasha searching for her, can she really fall in love?
Warnings- Mild Language; Possible OOC; ANGST
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Kagome stayed up for the next hour, just pondering the one question that had popped into her head.
Did she really want to leave Bankotsu?
If she did and didn't make it, she honestly did think he would kill her. And if she did and did make it, well it would only be a matter of time until they found her, Inuyasha and the others.
But in any case, why would she even consider staying with him other than for fear of losing her life?
She had to think about that one because it was true. She didn't want to answer that though. She wasn't ready. She couldn't really understand what her feelings were for him at the moment. She knew how that kiss made her feel, that was one thing she was sure of.
When she had kissed him, she felt perfect. No, a lot more than that. She felt perfect, loved, strong, safe, happy, and in all things wonderful. Even thinking about it made her feel so… right. Like she belonged with him. But she didn't honestly want to accept that. Little did she know that Bankotsu felt the exact same way.
She had finally decided. There was no way she could have felt for him, she convinced herself. There was no way she could have actually… loved him. She pushed this on herself even though it was no where close to the truth.
She slowly crept down the hall. It was very quiet… she was very quiet. A sad smile crept onto her small face when she went by his room. 'Goodbye Bankotsu… for now… or forever' She said to herself.
It was only a matter of time until she was out. She sniffed the night air. It smelled wonderful.
She looked back one more time, then took off running. Inuyasha and the others couldn't be too far. She would see them soon.
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Bankotsu awoke in the middle of the night. He had a bad feeling, but brushed it off.
He sat up and looked over to Banryu. Fine. He looked around the large room and out the window. Fine, everything was fine… or seemed fine. Sighing, he got up to get a midnight snack. He did woke up a lot in the middle of the night. He just couldn't help it. Sometimes he would just wake up hungry or thirsty, or having to go pee really bad. Too bad Kagome didn't know this.
He walked down the hallway quietly. He was used to being silent from all the times he got up. He knew how much he hated being woken up, and didn't want to wake up any of his brothers.
He breezed by the hall, not noticing much.
But he did stop when he saw something. It seemed Kagome's door was open. He hadn't left it open when he walked her there, in fact he remembered her closing it in his face.
He felt a bit of panic find its way into his system. He walked into the room. She wasn't in the bed.
'Calm down. It's okay. She probably just went out to the bathroom, or maybe to get something to eat, right?' He said, trying to calm himself.
He knew how much she hated being disturbed when she was naked, but that was just too bad. He wasn't going to just let her scare him like this.
He walked outside. Silent. Nothing.
He worked his way to the castle's hot springs. Nothing there either. He traced the whole premises in less than 5 minutes, thoroughly checking everywhere. "Damn it." He cursed under his breath.
Anger, rejection, and panic pulsed through him vigorously, anger being the most dominant of the three. He immediately took off. He would be able to find her, he was sure of that. He knew he was much faster than she was.
She kept running. She couldn't stop, no, it was too much of a risk. Her calves and sides burned for a break though.
He ran through the forest as quick as always, if not quicker. His muscles needed a break too, but he didn't notice. The adrenaline was fueling his rash actions.
He wondered what the fuck she was thinking doing this. Doing this to him. Did she honestly hate being with him and the others that much? He couldn't really blame her though, with the way he had built up her confidence in him, and then crushed it again. But he was just in to much of his angry mode to even consider her being innocent.
An evil smile crept onto his face as he saw his target.
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Kagome was just about to take a break when something big and rough tackled her to the ground. At first she thought it was a demon, and unfortunately for her, she didn't have any bow and arrows.
Then she saw it. She saw the beautiful blue sparkle in his eyes from the light of the full moon. But it wasn't the cute, playful, Bankotsu kind of look. In his eyes she saw the anger. This scared her even more.
He sat on top of her, pinning her arms over her head with one of his. She squirmed underneath him, already out of breath from the strenuous running she had done earlier that night.
He pushed himself down against her and painfully increased his grip on her wrists, obviously signaling to stop. He put his other hand around her tiny neck and watched her eyes go from surprised to terrified.
She whimpered involuntarily. He was hurting her, and barely noticing it. That was until he saw her eyes close tightly in the pain he was giving her.
He could barely feel the guilt of what he was doing to her in the back of his head. He was already stuck in one of his angry rage-filled moods. He tried his best to push it away.
"It hurts, doesn't it?" He asked evilly. She let out another whimper, signaling her yes.
He tightened his hand around her neck, while still allowing her to breath.
"What were you thinking!? Don't you remember what I told you? Don't you know that your life is in critical danger right now?!" He yelled angrily, his grip growing tighter.
"Please" She begged, trying to breathe again. He loosened it up again, waiting angrily for her excuse.
"I'm sorry." She said, her eyes still closed tightly.
"You're sorry! You're sorry for what, for leaving me, for rejecting me, for endangering your life?! What the fuck is your problem girl?! Don't you get it? Don't you understand how much you have just pissed me off?!" His voice was now at screaming level.
Kagome didn't understand what he meant about rejecting him; she didn't know what exactly she could be rejecting him for. But she was now in so much fear of him she couldn't comprehend too much at once.
"Bankotsu, please… don't…. hurt me." She pleaded, her eyes filling with tears.
His expression changed immediately. He was shocked at her words.
Bankotsu blinked in utter shock at her begging. Her begging for him to no longer inflict pain on her. What was he doing? He could so easily see the terror in her voice, in her face, and he was causing it.
It all happened so suddenly that Kagome was having trouble telling what exactly was going on.
All of a sudden, his grips loosened on her hands, and he removed his hand from her soon-to-be bruised neck.
He went down fiercely on her, and pried her lips open with his tongue.
At first she resisted, but as soon as she felt his warm mouth with hers, in hers, she kissed back just as passionately.
He was surprised, but didn't show it. No, he was too caught up in the second best moment of his life.
He ruled her mouth dominantly like last time. She embraced it as well, allowing him to do what he wanted with her mouth, no objection in her mind.
He pulled up after a good 2 minutes. Kagome had thought she was going to pass out from lack of air, but she ended up being okay, as always.
Bankotsu's expression had changed. It was now the beautiful, surprised, passionate, adorable one she loved.
He stared at her for such a long time before she got tired of it. She lifted her mouth as far as it would go, and pressed it up against his. He pushed her head back down greedily and embraced this wonderful thing he now knew was love.
After their dance of passion, he pulled away again, laying his head on her chest. He heard her heartbeat quicken at the physical contact. He didn't mean it in a sexual way though. He just wanted to hear her heart. To hear it beating.
She saw the sad look in his eyes before his faced disappeared from sight. All she saw was the top of his beautiful silky strands.
"I'm sorry." He said, closing his eyes and taking in her submission. His voice was husky and regretful. He had hurt her, and that was wrong. How could he do that to someone he loved?
But before she could respond, he lifted his head to face her again. "But you're not going anywhere. Do you know how stupid that was of you? I could very well have killed you. You should know how testy my temper is by now." He said, a tint of anger straining his perfect voice.
She sighed. "I know." She paused. "But, you don't understand… I can't just leave my friends. I can't just give up on them. I love them." She explained.
She turned away when she saw his face. Anger was evident in his flawless features.
That really pissed him off, he hated that she would say she loved someone other than him. He didn't love anyone else.
He took a deep, undeniably tensed breath, and calmed himself down. She said she loved her friends. Not Inuyasha and not that wolf. Her friends, which included a woman, and he was pretty sure Kagome wasn't a lesbian. Maybe she meant it in a brother/sister kind of way. And he was lying to himself. He did love someone else. He loved every single one of his brothers. Well, he did have his doubts about Renkotsu at times, but he still cared deeply for the traitor.
The anger passed. He decided to trust her this time. It was hard for him though, hard for him to put his trust in anyone other than his brothers. But he did it. He did it just like he put his love in her.
He looked away. "I know. I can't blame you for that, I guess. I can understand your feeling a little… out of place." He paused for a second, pondering something. She hesitantly nodded, it was a little embarrassing.
He couldn't let her go back. He loved her so much. He knew it would never recede, or guessed. He had to do something.
"Kagome…" He sighed, sitting up in a less intimate position.
After a bit of silence, she tried to sit up. It was just getting awkward. He pushed her back down by her shoulders gently, signaling that he was obviously not done with whatever it was he had to say.
"You're not going back to your friends. You're staying here, with my brothers and I, and you are going to help us find the jewel shards." His voice wasn't angry, just strained, as if it was something painful for him to say.
She looked up to him sadly. "Why?" She asked, her voice numb.
"Because that's why we took you in the first place. That's why you're with us." He wasn't even looking at her now.
"No, why… why do you do it? Why do you torture me like this?" She asked sadly.
He looked surprised and turned down to her with his brows together. "How do I torture you?" His voice asked, worried but angry.
"Why do you… why do you treat me like this!? I'm not just a toy you know! I hate it! I hate it! Why do you just kiss me, then you act like I'm some kind of horrible disgusting person that makes you angry to even talk to! I don't get it!" She was crying now, banging her fists against his hard chest, inflicting no pain.
A great sadness formed in him at that time. She was right, she wasn't a toy. But he couldn't tell her. He couldn't tell her he loved her. He couldn't tell anybody. Maybe someday, but right now was not a good time.
He grabbed her raging wrists with his hands, easily stopping her. He bent down and whispered in her ear.
"I'm sorry." He said. That was all he could say.
There had never been so much sadness piled into someone's voice before. Yet, he was no where near crying. He was too tough for that.
Kagome continued sobbing.
He kissed both of her cheeks, removing some of the tears with his soft lips. He hated it so much, hated seeing her sob like this. And nonetheless, over him.
He gently moved her into his lap and held her close, allowing her to wail into him. He wrapped her up in his arms, which covered nearly her entire body.
He ran his hands across her hair and back, rubbing them soothingly, mostly trying to calm her. He kissed her forehead. He shh'd her occasionally.
He loved her.
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After what seemed like so many hours to her, she managed to cry herself to sleep in his arms.
It had actually only been about 2 hours, but Bankotsu had loved and hated every minute, if that was possible.
He hated that she was crying. Crying over him, crying over what seemed to her like rejection, but to him was protection. Crying over what she thought could never be.
He loved that she loved him. He knew it. He knew it from her sadness, from the comfort she took in him. And he loved comforting her more than anything. He also loved seeing her smile; something she was far from doing at the time.
He carried her back in his arms, careful not to wake her, and set her down on his bed.
Locking the door, he went in beside her.
Bankotsu didn't dare wake her. Mostly because he didn't want to see her tears anymore. He hated them with all his being.
He wrapped her up in the fine furs and covers, making sure she was warm.
He wanted to watch over her all night. He wanted to be there so she could look into his comforting eyes when she awoke. He wanted to console all her troubles away. But there were just some he couldn't console at the time, and that hurt the most.
But he couldn't stay up by her. It would take its toll on him tomorrow, and he had to get some sleep.
Instead he got under the covers with her, and wrapped her back up into his arms.
He fell right asleep as soon as she sleepily turned to him and buried her head into his chest. He squeezed her body tighter to his, covering even more of her with himself.
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That morning he woke up before everyone as always. He was happy to find an unmoved Kagome deep in his grasp, protected.
She slept silently, her chest heaving up and down with each quiet little breath. He kissed her forehead. Sweaty.
His face turned worried and he pushed her bangs back, putting a hand to her forehead. A fever, he was sure. Though he knew little about healing, he did know what a fever was.
He sighed deeply, worried and confused. He had really hurt her. He loathed it so much that anyone who would have made her like this he would have tortured and killed mercilessly, then bring them back to life 100 times and do it over again. But it was him; it was him that made her like this.
The great feeling of guilt and sadness burdened his shoulders again. He wasn't very fond of this feeling either.
He hesitantly got up and went to the hot spring in his bathroom, if that's what you'd call it, and got soaked up some water from his hot spring into a small piece of cloth. He pushed as much of her hair back as possible and put it on her forehead.
He picked her up slowly but effortlessly, and took her to her room. Fortunately for him, nobody was up.
He set her on her bed without covering her this time. Then he got up and proceeded to get up the others and make breakfast.
It was just his luck that this would happen. Bad things seemed to happen to him quite frequently, and all he needed was the one woman he would ever love to have a terminal illness and die without knowing he actually loved her back.
'Oh God, calm down. It's just a little fever. I'm sure she'll be better in no time. It'll be just fine.' He assured himself.
With that, he went to wake up the rest of his brothers and make breakfast.
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A/N: Okay I just have to say that this was my most favorite chapter I have ever written. I love it love it love it so much! It was really emotional to write. I don't know how you felt when you read it, but when I wrote it, it really made me feel sad. I can't tell you guys anything important because I refuse to spoil it for y'all. But I will tell y'all that I Bankotsu and Kagome take a good turn in the future. That might have spoiled it, I'm not sure, and if it did I'm sorry. I know this was an extra-long chapter, but I just got so carried away when I was writing it that I just couldn't stop. It was meant to have more in it, but once I got this far I decided to wait until the next chapter to put anything else. This story is definitely going to be a lot longer than I thought. But I love writing it so much that I don't care. I am constantly thinking of new ideas. Also, I know this is random, but if you want a really good, suspenseful movie to see, go see 'Eagle Eye' with Shia LeBuff. I don't know how to spell his last name. But VERY suspenseful, not scary.
P.S. LOVE you guys so Much! Hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I did writing it!