Authors note: So glad that so far people like this, the reviews make me so happy lol. Anyway, I have the day off today and since this story has been in my head for so long I kinda have an idea of where I'm going, although any suggestions are welcome. The 5th chapter should be up later today, after that I not too sure, I have exams and am currently pulling 12 hour shifts, but this will def be done for Christmas. Please keep reading and reviewing:)

Jethro couldn't believe it, for years he had prayed that he could have one last chance, to say goodbye and to express his regrets, and now she was standing before him and he couldn't get any words out.

'Wow, you're actually speechless, that is something new' she laughed at him and sat down on the bed next to him.

Gibbs eventually managed to regain some control over his tongue and spluttered out 'Shannon? Why are you here?

She reached out for his hand, she couldn't actually touch him but he could feel the comforting presence of her. He turned to look at her properly, her hair was like a sheet of red silk, warm brown eyes met his blue and for that second he felt peaceful for the first time in years.

'You know why I'm here, Kate told you'

'I really wasn't dreaming was I'

'No, Kate was the ghost of love that has past, and I represent the present'

'If you represent the present then how can Jen be my soul mate?'

She looked at him and sighed. When Kate died you loved her, it wasn't a life altering love and you moved on, you found closure over her death. You can't move on from my death, it constantly holds you back, it is still part of your life, your letting it consume you'

'I moved on, I got remarried'

Shannon let out a snort of derision, 'Yeah to women who didn't matter to you, who you knew you didn't love, and you did it because you just can't move on. Think back Jethro you and Jenny were together for 3 years and not once did you tell her you loved her'

Now that's not true'

'During sex doesn't count, she thought she would just end up another ex wife so she picked her career over you' Shannon glanced away, considering her next words, 'Jenny realised her mistake pretty quickly, came back a month later to find you were engaged. I thought the kidnapping would spur you on, you came pretty close, but then there was the coma and it just reopened old wounds that having Jenny back in your life had started to heal, so I arranged for you to get the extra 3 months' Shannon let out a deep sigh, 'But no you shut her out'

Gibbs rubbed a hand through his hair, he was bewildered now, 'Why do you care so much? Most women don't want their husbands to start a relationship with someone new'

'I want to see you happy, it was my time to go and it was Kelly's time, I know it sounds unfair but it was. We are happy, we have moved on, and we want you to as well. If you lose Jenny it'll hurt so much more than losing me did, you won't even be able to function'

'I coped with losing Kelly'

'It's a different type of pain, it's not that constant niggle in the back of your mind you can bury away somewhere, this will consume you'

'You have no idea how much I miss you guys'

'Yes I do, but admit it when you were with Jenny the pain stops, because you are meant to be together'

Gibbs stayed silent, he knew she was right, just being in the same room as Jen, hell just knowing he was going to see her everyday made everything seem better. It was like the room lit up when she entered, she made him laugh, he could tell almost everything about her just by looking into her eyes, she was gorgeous, stubborn, clever, had that great fiery temper………

His mind trailed off, he felt guilty, here he was sitting next to the woman he had placed on a pedestal and mourned for years and now he was fantasising about another woman. Shannon just smiled at him, 'See what I mean? Please don't let her go'

'I can't just tell her Shan, I can't just let go of you and Kelly', Shannon shook her head sadly, 'Then you'll lose everything'

'No I can stop it, that second dream I had it took place before my time ran out, why?'

'We can't tell you how or when it'll happen, you're right it won't happen before 4, but she might fall down the stairs, she might crash or it might be something different'

'I can stop it though, she'll be ok, I'll make sure of it'

'No you can't, there is only one way to save her'

'I'm sorry, but I'll find another way, I'm not telling her'

Shannon got off the bed and looked at Jethro, regret and pain shining in her eyes, she spoke softly, 'Then you don't deserve her, you have so many regrets about what happened with us, but none of that was your fault, this will be'. She looked at the alarm, 'Go to sleep now', Gibbs looked confused for a moment, then yawned and lay back on his pillow and drifted off, back to sleep.