Alex turned around and got dressed, feeling suddenly heartbroken.
She didn't care if she only had on a negligee covering her up to her mid thigh. The peach dress was lying on the floor, forgotten. She wanted to leave immediately. The sooner she gets out of there, the sooner she will have to realize that they were only using each other and what they had for the past few weeks meant nothing else but a failed attempt to make themselves believe that they were happy and moving forward with their lives.
He watched her get her things on the bedside in a hurry, not bothering to fix her appearance or comb her now disheveled hair. It was only then when he finally made a move to stop her. Grabbing her cold and rigid arms, he pleaded, "Alex, would you please stop and listen to what I have to say?"
She dropped her Fendi sparkly silver clutch bag, a small round mirror with a gold frame broke into pieces along with her make up and other things that were scattered on the floor.
It made him froze in that instant. He rummaged his mind for the right words to say yet he found nothing. He only stood there, blinking his eyes and listening to the nerve-wracking tic-tac sound emitted by the big round clock hanging on the wall.
She bent down to pick up her things hastily and in a cold voice, she said, "There is nothing left for us to talk about. I'm leaving."
"What you heard me say… It wasn't what you think it means." His mouth felt heavy right after willing himself to say those words.
"I just want you to know that I will always feel the same way about you. No matter what," he hung up after having said that and saw Alex standing by the door, a stunned expression on her face, the grey blanket covering her naked body. He will always feel the same way about her and even if she tried, she knew that she'd never be able to take her place in his heart.
She stood up with her right hand clasped tightly around the clutch bag. She was Looking at him in the eye as she laid out for him the cold truth, "You still love her… You still fancy the idea of you and her being together… It doesn't matter if I'm here for you right now or how many girls you come across with in your life… Neither I nor any other girl can ever take her place in your heart!"
When he did not say anything to negate or deny what she has just bluntly revealed, she took another step so that she was now standing only three steps away from him, which was a very bold move for her. "How could I have been so naïve and stupid enough to believe that what we've had meant something?" She shrieked, waving her right hand in the air (the one holding her clutch bag) with her other hand on her waist. Still looking right into his eyes, she poked his chest and bitterly remarked, "How could you be so selfish and heartless enough to fool me into believing that I was special to you all this time when clearly, you have her on your mind…" She pointed at his head and back to his chest, pushing him slightly. "And on your heart all along?"
He remained still and speechless with his face looking bewildered as he lets her go on and on.
"You have been unfair to me, making me feel wanted while carrying all that emotional baggage on your shoulders!"
He has had enough of her musings so when he finally spoke, he pointed his index finger at her accusingly and used a sarcastic tone adding a sardonic smirk on his face. "I am not the only one bearing a huge and heavy baggage, here."
If his intention was to hurt her a little, he had succeeded to a great extent for her eyes were tearing up quickly at the insensitivity of his comment. She had her left hand hit him across his face, creating a loud whack sound that echoed in the four corners of the room. His initial reaction was to rub his face with his hand while she gasped and quickly covered her mouth at the impulsiveness of her action.
She didn't have it in her to apologize at that moment so she turned around and left, running away from his suite as fast as she could towards the elevator.
He knew he very much deserved the slap he got from her. Swallowing his pride, he walked to the door and ran after her. Once he saw her standing there, waiting in front of the elevator, he apologized, catching his breath and trying to sound sincere, "I'm sorry Alex… But uhm, I really am trying my best here. I thought you perfectly understood how much, how badly I wanna move on…"
The blank expression on her face was all he could see but he could tell that the anger was still there.
"You calling her in the middle of the night, professing your undying love for her while I was just in the other room sleeping, supposedly unaware? You call that moving on?" Her heart was pounding fast in a mixture of anger, hurt and despair. "This thing between us… it's over. I don't ever want to see you again!"
They heard a ding sound and the elevator doors opened. She got in and said one more thing for the last time. "Good bye, Chuck. It was nice knowing you."
There was mockery in her words and it played over and over again in his head, haunting him and driving into madness as he stood there, motionless and only breathing.
He had just completely screwed up the next best thing that could have ever happened in his life.
It was four in the morning and as it appears, it has just rained seeing that the roads were slippery and wet. There were no people or cars in the streets at that time, it was too early. She was freezing and rubbing her palms together in order to produce heat but to no avail.
He contemplated over running after her again but decided against it since there was probably nothing he could say or do to change her mind at the heat of the moment. He went back to his suite, going straight to his bedroom. The peach chiffon dress lying on the floor had looked lifeless to him and the broken mirror made him feel miserable. A sense of worry and regret suddenly filled him. He walked into the balcony and looked down to see if she was already downstairs, waiting for a cab that's never going to pass by at the time.
She felt cold, with only her light pink negligee covering her body. She wished she had at least worn the dress before storming out of his suite but even if she did, she knew she'd still feel cold. Tears were about to stream down on her face but she would not let them. She would not cry for someone she has never had the chance to love.
Upon seeing her below, he walked back into his room and grabbed the robe hanging by the door. He rushed to the elevator and hoped that nothing bad happens to her while he was on his way. It was the longest elevator ride he has taken in his entire life.
Fear of the unknown came over her and then suddenly a parked BMW SUV drove by and stopped in front of her.
"Get in, Senorita Alexis!" The driver opened the windows and yelled at her. It was Marcus, one of his brother's bodyguards.
She got in and thanked him for saving her from the coldness of the night. She said in a request, "I know my brother has sent you to look out after me but don't tell him about this, okay?" and whispered, "He'll really make me go back this time if he knew."
Chuck arrived at the ground floor two minutes later, don in his robe, running towards the exit. Once he was outside, he saw a car idly drove away and Alex was nowhere to be found. He stood there, bent down with both his hands on his knees and muttered a curse, looking up at the sky as if demanding an explanation for his misfortunes.
AN: I have work tonight (internship actually) and for the whole Summer. I'm currently taking Nursing and I'd be in my fourth year when school starts in June. I'll be taking the graveyard shift starting tonight until Monday morning. That's why I won't be able to update soon (as much as I'd like to, I still need rest to keep up with hospital duty.)
I just couldn't stop thinking about Chuck and Alex and the whole situation and since I still have little time, I had to write it all out. It's kind of heartbreaking, actually and I was listening to Incubus' album called Morning View, and the songs, 11 am, Nice to know you, Circles and a bunch of other depressing love songs while writing this chapter. I hope you like this one so please don't forget to READ & REVIEW.
As promised, as soon as I'm done with my weekend duties, I'm going to write about (1) Dan and Serena's romantic date for all those D/S fans out there and (2) reveal who among the characters is going to be the one starting an affair.
Again, feedbacks are very much welcomed and appreciated so feel free to voice out your opinion regarding the characters and storyline.
Wrapping this up, in the words of Gossip Girl,
You know you love me,
xoxo
-Pzyche08