-1A/N--So…I did the little scene where Jasper and Alice are reunited in New Moon…how about we backtrack a bit, to the phone call she makes to him on the plane? Good…I knew ya'll would like it.
PS Can you tell I'm from the south? Texas born and bred! Me and Jasper were truly meant to be. Hehehe.
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Losing You
I tried to tune out what Alice as murmuring to Jasper; I didn't want to hear the words again, but some slipped through.
"I can't be sure, I keep seeing him do different things, he keeps changing his mind….A killing spree through the city, attacking the guard, lifting a car over his head in the main square…mostly things that would expose them-he knows that's the fastest way to force a reaction…
"No, you can't." Alice's voice dropped till it was nearly inaudible, though I was sitting inches from her. Contrarily, I listened harder. "Tell Emmett no….Well, go after Emmett and Rosalie and bring them back….Think about it, Jasper. If he sees any of us, what do you think he will do?"
She nodded. "Exactly. I think Bella is the only chance-if there is a chance….I'll do everything that can be done, but prepare Carlisle; the odds aren't good."
She laughed then, and there was a catch in her voice. "I've thought of that….Yes, IU promise." Her voice became pleading. "Don't follow me. I promise, Jasper. One way or another, I'll get out….And I love you."
~New Moon pg 425
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JPOV
I clenched the phone in my hands so hard I was afraid it would break. She had called me, from the plane. My mind was racing with possibilities. As calmly as I could, I asked my wife what she saw.
Of course, Edward hadn't made up his mind yet. A killing spree, attacking the guard, lifting a car, all things my wife had told me.
My voice trembled. "Let me come with you, me and Emmett." Of course, she had shot me down. Telling me to go get Emmett and Rosalie, and stop them from flying to Italy. She made sense, but I didn't have to like it.
I wanted to rationalize with her. She was so small…I was supposed to be protecting her! Not the other way around. Making up my mind, I had told her I was following her. That I would meet her there. Her voice had become desperate, pleading with me to stay. She promised to get out before they killed her too. And then…her cryptic words. "I'll get out…And I love you." She hung up before I could say any more.
I stood there, in our home, staring at the blank screen on my phone. I could hear Carlisle move ever so slightly, trying to comfort me. Esme was sobbing tearlessly, knowing her son had gone off to die, possible bringing her daughter with him. I clenched the phone, it's cracking giving me some pleasure.
Raking a hand through my hair I flung the phone as hard as I could into the wall. It broke through more the thin wall, leaving a hole the size of my fist. Carlisle put a strong hand on my shoulder. "Son…"
I shook him off and leapt out the window, running. I ran to clear my head, to ease my fears. Emmett and Rosalie's scent crossed me, and I chased after them. Making them turn around on behalf of Alice. They obliged, Emmett put a hand on my arm, silently communicating to me.
Alice…my beautiful wife. My only light left in the darkness that had, at one time, consumed me. I damned Edward for bringing her into this. I cursed myself for not having the strength to follow her. But more importantly, I planned how I would die if Alice was killed.
There was more that she was not telling me. More that she was hiding from me to ease MY fears. I should be easing hers. And poor Bella…all because of Edward. My jaw clenched and unclenched as I thought of my brother. I wouldn't hate him forever, but I didn't know if I could forgive him right away. Even if he lived through this.
So now, I had to wait. I had to assume the worst, and prepare myself for eternity without my Alice. Without my little pixie by my side. I would never again feel her feathery touch, inhale her cinnamon-like scent, kiss her velvet lips.
Shaking my head, I walked back to the house, ignoring the rain that had begun to fall. The weather was as somber as my mood. But I couldn't let this get to me. I had to hope for the best, even if I was preparing for the worst. I had to be strong. For Esme and Carlisle. I had to hope that Alice would be in my arms again.
I missed her. I wanted her, needed her. But more importantly, right now…I loved her more than anything else in this world.
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APOV
I leaned back in my chair on the plane, closing my eyes in exhaustion. I had just explained to Bella why I had lied to Jasper, and for the first time…I felt drained.
I had just said goodbye to my husband, not even sure if I would come back alive. If I would be able to see him again. Imagining his pain only made it worse for me. He didn't deserve this. Didn't deserve to be kept waiting, but I had to know that he was safe. That he had the opportunity for life.
Taking a deep breath, I combed my hair with my fingers. IF I lived through this, and got home, I promised myself to never leave Jasper again…EVER. If I had to leave, he would come with me. And I knew he would.
Jasper was loyal to an astonishing degree. I knew he would follow me to the ends of the earth if I so asked it of him. He'd stay by my side even if I decided to leave the Cullens. But it wasn't fair. I didn't deserve him. I didn't deserve his devotion
I felt a tear trickled down from my eye. In astonishment, I put a hand to my eye, no tear. I looked at my fingers…swearing I had felt a tear. A small smile escaped my lips. Well…we could blame everything on my crying…here I was imagining I was crying.
I closed my eyes again and thought of Jasper. He was probably so mad. But I was sure he'd appreciate the new phone I was going to buy him the minute I got a chance. Throwing his through the wall had to damage it. I tried to picture where he was right now. But couldn't see. I knew he was at home, but so far…because of Edward's indecisiveness, I didn't know if I was going to be reunited.
Jasper had once told me…a long time ago, that he would rather die than be without my life. I hated myself for leaving him with that fate dangling in the air. If I died, then so would he. If I lived, and he forgave, then we would continue in our bliss.
I almost had to laugh, we never fought, but I knew we aggravated each other sometimes. Twirling the silver ring on my finger I smiled again. That's what married couples do. They aggravate, then forgive and forget.
Would Jasper be able to forgive and forget? Would he be able to see why I had him stay. If Edward were to die, and Emmett and Jasper be present, they would have fought the Volturi. They would have gotten themselves killed. Was I strong enough to end my life if Jasper's was cut short. I answered myself with a clear yes. Just as Edward was so willing to end his without Bella.
I tried to get comfortable, and concentrated on my visions. I wanted Jasper already. I missed him. I wanted him, and I needed him. But most importantly…I loved him more than anything else in this world.
A/N- So I knew I couldn't "continue" the first chapter. So this is the best I could do for my loyal fans. I want to thank everyone for the reviews. This story will become a series of Jalice scenarios. Thanks again!