Nagato Yuki no Yuuutsu Chapter 12, a haruhi suzumiya series fanfic

Usual Disclaimers: Only Nagaru Tanigawa and Kyon own Haruhi.

Chapter 12

Not once in my brief lifespan have I ever felt as helpless as I do right now. While these twenty interfaces pin me down, I feel as helpless as ever. I could not muster enough physical strength to throw them off. Ryouko Asakura has also successfully blocked all my attempts to force a program into this space. It was expected, since the espers under our command had no data manipulation abilities whatsoever. No doubt Ryouko Asakura had pooled all the powers of her underlings in preventing my intrusion into this dataspace by successfully trapping this space in her data jurisdiction.

I could only watch Ryouko Asakura drive that steel dagger into Kyon's body. No! Not Kyon!

""KYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!!!!! NOOOOOOO!!" I screamed.

I have lost all measure of control. Kyon is being deleted in front of me, and I could not do anything to prevent Ryouko Asakura from doing such. I saw Kyon cough up profuse amounts of human blood, and faintly speak.

"N-Nagato… I l-l-love y-you," he feebly muttered. "Run away from here. Leave me and save Asahina-san and yourself."

Even in death, he was so selfless and valiant. That made this loss all the more painful for me.

"NO! KYON!" I shouted once again, as though to save him from his imminent demise.

However, that is the one thing my data manipulation abilities cannot do: bring back the dead. The best I could do for Kyon would be to avenge his death and…

Apologize.

"I love you Kyon. I'm so sorry."

I saw him smile at me, for what was probably the last time, with blood streaming down his lips and neck. Ryouko Asakura was standing beside Kyon's body, smiling smugly.

"Finally, I have avenged my defeat to you, Nagato-san. Now, it's time for you to be deleted," said Ryouko Asakura. "But, I want everyone to be witness to the fact that I alone will defeat and delete you. These interfaces —" she gestured to them, "—will be frozen in time while we have our final duel, Nagato-san."

She smiled.

"I think I'm going to make the last moments of your brief life very, very painful for you."

I could only grit my teeth while the interfaces released me from their vicelike grips. All that mattered was Ryouko Asakura's deletion. Even if the remaining interfaces delete me, as long as I delete Ryouko Asakura first, that was all that really mattered. Kyon is dead, and my life has been reduced to have only one purpose: to avenge the death of Kyon.

I will just transmit a message to the Integrated Data Thought Entity to send a new interface to observe Haruhi Suzumiya. By then, if all goes well, the rogue faction affiliated with the Integrated Data Thought Entity will have been deleted, as all of them came to this battle.

Suddenly, I remembered that Haruhi Suzumiya had also chosen Kyon. The moment she finds out that he is dead, no doubt a data explosion of colossal proportions would occur, and reality would be rewritten to fit her desires. I vaguely thought about the Integrated Data Thought Entity reacting to this, and realized that I did not care, since the last thing I had to do before I was deleted was to avenge the death of Kyon by deleting Ryouko Asakura.

I was still recovering from the recent blow that Ryouko Asakura had dealt to me when she suddenly flew towards me, right hand extended, wielding the dagger that pierced Kyon's body. I was too slow to react, and the dagger found its mark in my chest. The sheer alacrity of Ryouko Asakura's attack caused me to fly towards the warehouse wall, leaving a large dent in it. Without missing a beat, she suddenly began to manipulate data in this space. The crates that I had crashed into earlier transformed into a multitude of daggers that suddenly flew towards me. Still numbed from the death of Kyon, my reaction was once again far too slow, and I was unable to shield myself from the incoming torrent of flying daggers.

The daggers struck me everywhere: my face, chest, arms, and legs. The pain was of no consequence, compared to the burning feeling inside me that any data manipulation could not dispel.

"Kyon," I moaned.

Ryouko Asakura heard me and said,

"Too bad Nagato-san. That is my revenge. Taking away whom you hold dearest. I also did some investigation on these so-called 'emotions,' and I discovered how powerful the effect of losing a loved one was on anybody, even someone as powerful as you, Nagato-san. But now, I am more powerful than you. You can't break through the program that I acquired."

While I was impaled to the wall, I looked over at my fallen friends. Kyon's corpse was bleeding profusely, and I felt a faint pang of pain upon looking at his broken body, that I had sworn to protect from harm. Itsuki Koizumi was unconscious under a pile of deleted interfaces. Mikuru Asahina was slumped on the floor, having passed out due to blood loss and experiencing the death of Kyon. Emiri Kimidori was shut down by Ryouko Asakura's program, and was lying limply on the floor.

I knew that Ryouko Asakura wanted to torture me some more by not shutting me down with the same program that affected Emiri Kimidori. I now knew that my efforts to delete Ryouko Asakura were all in vain. Her programming was immune to any attempts at intrusion that I could muster. She had indeed become more powerful than the last time we had encountered each other.

I thought about the portion of Haruhi Suzumiya's power that I had stolen to keep me and Kyon safe. Its power was already spent, having given the espers the ability to utilize their powers outside of closed space, and having bestowed onto Mikuru Asahina the Mikuru Beam, as well as improving her latent combat skills.

"You lose, Nagato-san. Now, you die," said Ryouko Asakura. "Commencing nullification of data link."

I tried to fight her with programs of my own. However, she had grown more powerful than the last time, so I could only delay her program's execution, not halt it.

I was about to be deleted. I have failed my last mission, my mission to avenge Kyon's death. Kyon… I loved him, but I could not protect him this time. Loving him was all that I could do.

Then, I remembered it.

My conversation with Itsuki Koizumi last night.

"Nagato-san, are you absolutely sure that Suzumiya-san will not react negatively to you and Kyon?" he asked.

"Affirmative," I replied.

"I am under the impression that you reprogrammed Suzumiya-san's perception of your relationship with Kyon. Is that correct?"

"Yes."

"And how exactly did you do that, Nagato-san?" asked Itsuki Koizumi.

"I was able to acquire a portion of Haruhi Suzumiya's power, similar to that other time when I lost control of these—" I gestured to myself, "— emotions."

Itsuki Koizumi tried to interrupt me, but I surprised him by cutting him off.

"Do not worry, I gave Kyon my word that I would not reconstruct the world."

"And how exactly does that convince me that you won't repeat what you did?" asked Itsuki Koizumi with a skeptical look on his face.

I said simply,

"Because I would hurt Kyon if I did that. Since I love him, I cannot hurt him."

"Well, that's settled," he said cheerfully. "However, I want you to remember something that could possibly help you when peril comes. Do you remember the night when both Suzumiya-san and Kyon disappeared?"

"Yes. They disappeared for two-and-a-half hours," I replied.

"Do you know exactly why that happened?"

"It was because Haruhi Suzumiya orchestrated another data explosion," I replied.

"You're only partly right, Nagato-san. But, do you know why she caused that data explosion?"

"No."

"It is because Suzumiya-san became jealous of Mikuru Asahina-san, whom she caught wrestling with Kyon for control of the computer's mouse. Suzumiya-san still holds feelings for Kyon-kun, but due to your reprogramming, she simply does not view you as a threat. Emotions can amplify her abilities to create closed space, or, as you call it, Nagato-san, cause data explosions."

"Is that so?" I asked.

"Yes, Nagato-san."

"Understood then, Itsuki Koizumi. Thank you for the information. It should assist me in my data gathering," I replied.

"You're welcome, Nagato-san. It seems that it is in the best interest of our superiors to cooperate with each other, at least for the time being. But my loyalty ultimately lies with the SOS Brigade," said Itsuki Koizumi.

"As does mine," I replied. "Especially with Kyon."

Itsuki Koizumi just smiled.

Now, I knew exactly what I had to do. I had to unleash the pent up emotions inside of me, in the hopes that it would awaken the empty shell that remained of Haruhi Suzumiya's power inside of me.

I could feel Asakura's program deleting my body, bit by bit. I had to act quickly, or all would be lost.

"KYON! I LOVE YOU!"I shouted as loud as I could, putting all the emotion I ever felt for him into that one statement.

"Nagato-san, Kyon-kun is dead, and you know that no data manipulation that we can both do could possibly change that," said Ryouko Asakura.

I felt something inside of me bloom, like cherry blossoms in springtime. At that moment, I knew that I had succeeded. I embraced Haruhi Suzumiya's power inside of me, and broke through Ryouko Asakura's program like Teflon coated bullets going through a Kevlar jacket. I could feel the rest of my body reverting back to its normal state.

"What the—?" exclaimed Ryouko Asakura. "This is not possible! How could you have possibly broken through the program!?"

"You did not know that I wielded a portion of Haruhi Suzumiya's power. A power that you cannot possibly obtain because I have already guarded it against your intrusion."

I pulled the daggers out of my body and threw them at Ryouko Asakura. She was still too surprised at what just happened, so she just floated in midair, frozen in shock.

The daggers struck her body where they had struck my body. She gritted her teeth in pain and said,

"You'll have to do better than that Nagato-san. Mere daggers cannot hurt me."

She waved her hand and the daggers suddenly vanished.

"That was Haruhi Suzumiya's power? How weak! I think the Integrated Data Thought Entity put too much faith in her. If that's all that her powers can do, then they're not even worth the effort."

I just gave her a faint smile and said,

"You are too arrogant, Ryouko Asakura. Those daggers that I threw back at you, I laced with multiple copies of the program that executes data link nullification."

"You lose, Ryouko Asakura," I said. "Completing data link nullification."

She just floated in the air, paralyzed by shock. Suddenly, her shoulders sagged. She knew that she was defeated.

"What power.. Suzumiya-san.."

Those were her last words as she disintegrated in front of my eyes.

Ryouko Asakura has been deleted, Kyon's death avenged. A few sudden motions from the side caught my attention, and I saw the twenty interfaces flying straight at me, intending to delete me.

With Ryouko Asakura's demise, her data jurisdiction inside this warehouse also disappeared. I immediately claimed the space for my own, and forced a program into the space beside me to generate a force field laced with data link nullification programs.

All twenty interfaces collided with the force field, disintegrating into nothingness as they did so.

I then set myself upon the ground, looking for my fallen friends. Since Kyon was already dead, I could not do anything about that..

While I approached Mikuru Asahina and healed her wounds, I suddenly felt some moisture trickling down my face. Startled, I put a hand to my face to wipe away the substance that was streaming down my face from my eyes.

Tears.

I went over to Itsuki Koizumi and deleted all of the interfaces that lay on top of him. I healed him as well, then went over to Emiri Kimidori to complete the deactivation of Ryouko Asakura's system termination program.

After a short while, everyone was back on their feet, with extremely minor injuries.

All except one, that is.

"N-Nagato-san, is Kyon-kun… Really.. Gone?" asked Mikuru Asahina with tears streaming down her face, just like me.

I just nodded, and more tears hit the floor where I stood. Itsuki Koizumi stood beside me, his normally cheerful face gone. Emiri Kimidori also showed equal sadness.

"It was a shame that Kyon had to die," said Itsuki Koizumi. "We will sorely miss him."

"There remains the problem of Haruhi Suzumiya," I said. "When she finds out about this, there will be a 98 percent chance that she will rewrite reality."

"Nagato-san, can't you resurrect Kyon-kun?" asked Mikuru Asahina.

"That is the one thing we interfaces cannot to," answered Emiri Kimidori. "We cannot give life, even to someone who has recently lost it."

I could not take it anymore. Ignoring everything around me, I just said over and over,

"Kyon, I love you, I'm so sorry."

Then I remembered a song that I had composed during the time that Haruhi Suzumiya tasked us to come up with short stories for the Literature Club's magazine. The song complimented the short story I had given to her, a story that no one but I could have possibly understood.

I began to sing this song in the hopes of easing my melancholy:

Oto mo nai sekai ni
Maiorita I was snow

Nanika ga kowarete nanika ga umareru
Kurikaeshi muda na koto sae
Yamenai hito-tachi fushigi na hito-tachi
Nagameru watashi mo fukumareta

Hodokenai mondai nado ari wa shinai to
Shittete mo fukuzatsu na dankai ga monogatari tsukutte iku

Watashi ni mo tada hitotsu no ganbou ga moteru nara
Kioku no naka saisho kara o hon ni shite madobe de yomu
Peeji ni wa akai shirushi arawarete odoridasu
Tsuraresou da to omou nante douka shiteru keredo
Kinjirareta waado o tsubuyakeba saigo…

Dokoka e nigeru no doko ni mo nigenai
Sore dake de kachi aru ishiki
Megenai hito-tachi yasashii hito-tachi
Ugokasareta watashi no mirai

Nagaredasu tsuyoi chikara shiawase yobu to
Ki ga tsuita sono mama de hitsuyou na monogatari shirusaretara

Sonzai ga kawaru hodo no yume o motte mitaku naru
Kanjou e to kyoukan e to tsunagareba madobe ni tachi
Shizukesa ni dakarenagara mata kyou mo matte iru
Yuruyaka ni furu mizu ja nakute motto sabishii tsubu

Iro ga nai sekai de
Mitsuketa no You are star

Oto mo nai sekai ni
Maiorita I was snow

(In English)

I, who landed
In a soundless world, was snow

Something will break, something will be born
Those repeat, even for futile things
The unstopping people, the strange people
Included me who gaze at them

Unsolvable problems and such, even if I knew
That they didn't exist, complicated stages would still create stories

If I possess just one wish, too
Then I'll turn things from the start in my memories into a book and read it by the windowsill
Red marks appear on the pages and begin to dance
I think it's odd that I may be attracted
But if I whisper the forbidden word, then it's the finale…

I'll escape to somewhere, I can't escape to anywhere
Just with that, it's a consciousness with value
The undiscouraged people, the kind people
My future was moved

I've noticed that the powerful strength that flows out shouts for happiness
If the required story is noted down as it is

I become wanting to try having a dream that makes my existence change
If it's connected to my feelings, to my sympathies, then I'll stand by the windowsill
While embraced by tranquility, I'm waiting again today
Slowly falling- not water, but a lonelier grain

In a colorless world
You, who I found, are star

I, who landed
In a soundless world, was snow

Mikuru Asahina and I were both shedding tears at an alarming rate. Itsuki Koizumi and Emiri Kimidori both had their heads bowed. I'm so sorry Kyon. I could not save you, even though I loved you.

And there was still the matter of Haruhi Suzumiya to deal with. For once, I did not know what to do.

Suddenly, my sight blacked out. Then, I heard it.

"Hello Nagato."

"Is that you, master?"

"Yes, it is me. I must offer my sincere congratulations to you for eradicating the rogue faction within our ranks. Thanks to you, Ryouko Asakura has finally been deleted."

"Master. What shall we do? There is a 98% chance that Haruhi Suzumiya will rewrite everything!"

"I know of one thing that I myself could do. It would make everybody happy."

"What would that be, master?"

"Lend me the final remnants of Haruhi Suzumiya's power."

I obliged, and I felt the power recede from my very being.

"Alright Nagato, I'll take it from here."

"What exactly do you intend to do, master?"

"I will resurrect this human that Haruhi Suzumiya has chosen. Apparently, you have also chosen him. I will give my consent to that Nagato, as a reward on a job well done."

I felt tears stream down my face again, but instead, these were tears of joy.

"Thank you master. I owe you many, many thanks."

"No problem Nagato. It's your just reward. Oh, did I mention that you've been promoted to second-in-command?"

I just nodded and said,

"Thank you very much.. Master."

"I'm not the Integrated Data Thought Entity for nothing, Nagato."

I could suddenly see again. I immediately turned to where Kyon's body lay, and I saw him unsteadily getting to his feet.

"Ow," said Kyon. "My stomach.. Ach! Mikuru-chan, please don't rub it there! Yare yare.."

I could only vaguely comprehend Itsuki Koizumi and Emiri Kimidori's applause. Kyon turned towards me, and our eyes met.

"Hey Nagato. I wonder how I got out of that one? Did you have anything to do with it?"asked Kyon.

"Perhaps," I replied.

"Really? Well, in that case—"

Before Kyon could say anything else, I teleported beside him and gave him a warm hug. He hugged me back, and in that motion, I tried to convey everything I felt about Kyon.

"Kyon."

"Yeah?"

"I love you."

"I know Nagato. I love you too," he replied.

I lightly pulled his sleeve, and waited for his reaction. He looked at me and leaned closer to me. I tiptoed, and let our lips meet.

I could hear the other three applaud in the background, while I reveled in Kyon's resurrection.

We stood there for what seemed, even to me, like hours.

Finally, we broke apart. Then, Kyon said,

"Well Nagato, I guess we do get a happy ending, right?"

"Affirmative."

Then I tiptoed and kissed him again.

A/N: There's still an epilogue coming everyone! :P