A/N: Sorry it's taken me sooo long. I hope I haven't lost you guys.

Chapter 21 - Filling the Past Few Months

"We were…" Jeff was cut off by his phone. "Hello… okay… I'll meet you there." He snapped his phone shut and left John alone on the bench outside the hospital.

Rylee's POV

That was three months ago. When we arrived home that night at Stephanie's she went into labour. Strangely enough it was Laura that held her hand and kept her breathing steady throughout the whole procedure. Where were me and Paul? Well we hadn't been running together in a while. So, with the clipboard that the doctors had Stephanie's notes attached to, I chased him up and down seven floors, through the canteen twice and around the delivery room at least four times, for putting my sister through so much pain.

Shane, Mom and Dad had arrived panic stricken on mine and Paul's last run through reception. Shane caught hold of my wrist and yanked me back, while Dad caught Paul. Dad and Shane dragged us back to the delivery room just in time to see the birth of Aurora Rose McMahon. Mom cried. I cried. Steph cried. Laura cried, and so did Paul. Stephanie held her daughter close and smiled nervously. Was she really ready to be a mother?

Little less than a month later it became apparent that Stephanie couldn't cope. She was becoming more and more depressed as each day passed, and for that she resented poor little Aurora. We tired everything to help her. Paul took time off work, Mom moved in with Stephanie to help when Paul wasn't around, Fallon and Laura babysat in the hope that a few nights out would do Stephanie and Paul good. But, Steph's mothering problems aren't the only thing clouding my mind. Two months after Aurora's birth, Laura came to me.

FLASHBACK

"Hey girl." I walked into the kitchen of Stephanie and Paul's mansion, Laura stood with holding a sleeping Aurora, looking out of the window onto the pool. She turned and smiled at me. Her eyes lacked sleep and her face was drained of its usual colour.

"Hi." She whispered.

"You ok? You should really get some sleep." I said, worrying about why she had called me over anyway. Steph and Paul had gone shopping, and Mom was away on business, Fallon had enrolled in acting classes at the high school down the road from where we now lived.

"I'm fine. But the book does say that I should sleep when she does." Laura smiled looking down at Aurora in her arms. She walked over to her moses basket and laid her down gently. I eyed her suspiciously as I sat down at the table.

"Whats really wrong?" I asked, knowing that she couldn't lie to me.

"Me and Randy have been trying for a baby." She annonced. I hugged her immediately, not wanting to scream in case I woke the baby. She let me calm down. "We wanted to have a child of our own before the wedding. We think we're ready." She smiled. She looked down at the coffee mug infront of her that had obviously been there for a while.

"But?"

"How'd you know there was a but?" She asked getting defensive.

"I've known you since before either of us could talk, there is always a but with you."

"We can't."

"What do you mean you can't. Like you can't have kids?" I asked, trying to take it what I was hearing, she was my best friend. She was going to get married and have kids, it was just something she was supposed to do. Any kid would be lucky to have her as their mother.

"Yeah. We went to the doctors a few weeks ago and apparently I cant get pregnant." Laura sniffed back the tears that slowly ran down her face. I hugged her tightly. "It just makes me feel worse knowing that Stephanie doesn't want Aurora. When me and Randy would kill for her."

"This might sound a bit weird but have you thought about adopting Aurora?" I asked unsure of her answer.

"Every single minute of every day since she was born." Laura kept staring out of the window, would Stephanie agree? Maybe. What about Paul, would he agree? Probally not.

"You and Randy need to talk to Stephanie and Paul, if you're serious about this."

"I know." She took a deep breath. Then looked me in the eye, "How's John?" it was my turn to stare at the floor. Truth was I didnt know. I hadnt seen him in ages. Weeks. Not since we argued about me and Jeff.

"I don't know." I replied flatly. "He expected me to have no past. He didnt want me, he wanted a blow up doll." He never did like the fact that me and Jeff were close, and when he found out that we had been married. Well that just topped it all off for him.

"You know that's not true. He loved you, he still loves you Ry." Laura said knowing that I knew she was right. "He was just jealous of how much Jeff understands you. Its hard for him to see his girlfriend with another man."

"Ex-girlfriend." I corrected her.

"You haven't broken up yet." She scolded me, "Your exact words were, "I think we should have a break, go do your movie then come back and we'll try again." So there. I win." Laura stuck out her tongue. I loved how she could still make me laugh when we should be serious.

"If you say so."

END OF FLASHBACK

Not long after that conversation Stephanie anonnoced that Aurora would be apdoted by Laura and Randy. The papers were signed and soon enough Aurora will be able to move into her new home. What happened to me and John?

He found out that me and Jeff had been married, he could take that we were friends but knowing that we had been together was a little too much from him. He no longer trusted Jeff around me alone, so he never let me out of his sight. He grew paranoid when I demanded the freedom he wouldn't give me. He asked why I wanted to be alone with Jeff, what was I doing with Jeff that I couldn't do with him watching. I couldn't live like that.

So I told him that we needed a break, it just so happened that he could spend this break filming his movie, "The Marine", Dad gave me time off to get settled into my new home with Fallon and Jeff. Jeff took the basement as his bedroom, since he split with Beth he didnt like going back to his old place, "too many memories" he'd say. Whereas I took the attic room, with balconies over looking the gardens, a spiral staircase from my balcony took me down to Fallon's balcony, where she would sit with her new friends.

I was wary of them girls. They'd hang around the house, full of teenage lust every time Jeff or Randy walked into the room. Fallon was never like that. These men were more like her brothers than anything else. Jeff being her only father figure.

So I have this huge new house, a whole new state to explore, I'm closer to my family than I've ever been before. So why am I so unhappy?

A/N: Okay ama end that chappie there coz im reli tired. Review it please, I've been toying with this idea for a while so it would be good to know what you guys think. Thanks, Abbey xxx