I gazed at myself in the mirror-just like I had done earlier in the evening with Alice. But this time it was in my room, alone. I thought back to what she had asked me.

"So, how do you feel about him?" Alice asked, using a curling iron as thick as my arm in my hair.

"I don't know, Ally." I sighed, closing my eyes. I found I handled Alice's beauty torture better with my eyes closed. Her collection of curling irons made me nervous. They looked more like weapons to me.

"How does he feel about you?" She asked, spritzing me with hair spray.

"I don't know that either." I said with a heavy sigh. "He's just so sweet though. But, he's always been good to me. And when we sleep together it's just-"

"You've slept together?!" She squealed.

"No, I mean, we actually sleep. Well, there was that one time, but... Ugh, I'm sorry Alice, you don't want to hear about this." I said, blushing brightly.

"Yes, I do!" She giggled. "So, what? Do you snuggle or something? He's always been a big cuddly bear." She said, skipping over the sex part. Thankfully...I didn't know if I could talk to her about that without feeling completely awkward.

"Yeah, for about a week now. I just feel so safe and warm in his arms."

She sighed heavily, "That sounds so romantic." It wasn't an unhappy sound though. You could tell she was actually happy about this.

I had lost some of my new found boldness after that night with Edward. Saying goodbye to him like that was harder than I thought it would be. It was easier when he was playing the bad guy in my head. I knew he wasn't. But, that somehow relieved some of the guilt that I felt. I hadn't cheated on Edward. We had already broken up by then, but still. It was there

It wasn't like I hadn't enjoyed that night, or our nights since. I actually loved it. It was comforting and safe. I never felt like there was some magic boundary I could not cross. Though, old habits die hard. But, I wanted to change that part of myself.

I couldn't keep my hands off of him on the ride home. I'm almost surprised that we didn't get pulled over for speeding. I let my hand drag up his inner thigh, kissing his neck as we drove. When he reached the elevator our of building I literally attacked him, jumping into his arms as I kissed him fiercely.

I was prepared for him to tease me about being over eager, but it never came. The locks on the apartment couldn't unlocked fast enough. Before the door even finished closing I shoved Jasper hard against the door, tugging on his hair as we kissed. He moaned softly against my mouth, his hand pushing my jacket off of my shoulders.

He decided to take control and walk me backwards towards the couch. My knees hit the back of it and I fell onto the soft cushions. He crawled on top of me, kissing my cloth covered body as he went until he reached my mouth. I met him halfway there and kissed him hard. My fingers worked on the buttons of his shirt, though not very successfully. I only undid two before I got frustrated with my lack of progress. But, he was doing a fantastic job of distracting me. Without even thinking about it my leg wrapped around one of his hips. His large hand started to explore my tight covered thigh, causing my hips to buck towards his. He groaned, sucking my bottom lip into his mouth.

"God, you're sexy." He said kissing my chin lightly. "And, you smell amazing..." He said, taking a deep breath while running his nose against my jaw. I couldn't help the shudder that ran down my spine. He softly kissed the top of my ear, then ran his nose against the lobe before whisper. "I want to make love to you."

So, that's when I started to get a little nervous. He was so intense. I knew he'd never force me into anything if I didn't want to. Oh and I wanted to. It was just a little much to handle. When I was drunk or in charge it didn't seem to effect me so much. I had honestly never been turned on so much before in my life- over anything.

I pushed him back gently, surprising him. He sat up quickly, as did I. He looked terrified, like he had hurt me or something. I leaned over and kissed his lips softly to reassure him otherwise. I leaned my forehead against his, running my fingers over his soft lips. "I'm going to get more comfortable."

So, here I was, looking at myself in the mirror. I pulled off my dress and tossed it to the side. The horrid boots that Alice forced me to wear were the next to go. Then the tights, which were probably the only thing keeping me from freezing in the park earlier. I looked at my reflection now. I sucked in my stomach, and ran my hand over it. I frowned a little bit. It was a little too late to do sit ups now. Note to self: get a gym membership.

I honestly had no idea how I was going to get more comfortable. I didn't have a ton of 'sexy clothing.' I did have some nightgowns that I wore to try to tempt Edward, but they never worked. They weren't that seductive, but they were the best I had. Edward was conservative in his tastes, and most of my 'sexy clothing' reflected that. Another note to self: Visit Victoria Secret.

I slipped on the silk black night gown that was hanging up, barely used, in my closet. It had lace at the top and went all the way to my feet. Though, there were slits up to nearly my hip. I'm still sure I looked like an old woman or something in this. I needed to go in there before I lost all of my courage. I took a deep breath and padded my way to the living room.

But, he wasn't there. I bit my lip and made my way to his room. The door was slightly cracked open and the light was on. I peaked inside, watching Jasper. He was still fully dress, but his shoes and socks were off. Music was playing, and I smiled when I realized that the single candle he kept in his room was burning. He fidgeted around, running his fingers through his hair. I could tell he was trying to figure out what to do. It was nice to know I wasn't the only one that was a little nervous.

I knocked on the door, getting his attention. I leaned against the door frame, waiting for his reaction. But, he just looked at me. I didn't know how to take it.

I turned quickly, my coward side getting the best of me. "Alright, I'm going to bed then."

I heard him laugh behind me and the thumping of his feet. Jasper's arms wrapped around my waist, pulling me close to him. "And, where do you think you're going? You can't just can't tease me, looking that sexy and walk away. It's mean."

"I look like a granny." I complained, trying to push out of his grip.

"Bella, don't be crazy! You look incredibly delicious." He said, lowering his mouth to my bare shoulder. Lightly he showered it with kisses. My head lulled back and I threaded my fingers into his beautiful curly blond hair.

Slowly, I turned in his arms to face. I decided it was time for him to lose his shirt. I think he could feel my frustration earlier, so he allowed me to unbutton without distraction. His hands ran up and down my arms, from my elbow to shoulder. It was amazing how soft his hands were. When I finally reached the bottom I pushed it off of his shoulders.

Then he did something very unexpected. He picked me up, bridal style. I squealed in surprised, my arms wrapping tightly around his neck. "Darlin, I'm not going to drop you. Don't you trust me?"

"I don't trust myself. I'll do something to make you drop me."

"Yeah, you might be right..." He said, eying me with a little smile. Suddenly, his arms unwrapped from around me, causing me to squeal-again, also making me plummet towards... the bed. I landed on my bottom, my arms still around his neck.

I swatted at his chest. "You scared me."

"Darlin, I can't promise that I'm not ever going to drop you, but I will always try my best not to. I always try my best to keep you safe." He said in a low, seductive voice, slowly leaning me back against the bed.

He sat on his knees beside me. He was looking me over with nothing but lust in his eyes. He licked his bottom lip. "What are you thinking about?" I asked, running my hand up his thigh.

"I just don't know where to start." He said, pushing my nightgown away from one of my legs. His large hand slid from my knee to the junction between my thighs. I sucked in a heavy breath, spreading my legs a little bit for him. "Tell me what you want."

Boldness. I wanted to be bolder, I reminded myself. And, this just wasn't about me. He had been so good to me the other day. I wanted to return the favor. "Take off your pants and sit on the bed."

He seemed surprised by my request. Jasper hopped off the bed and an instant later his pants were on the ground, leaving him only in his black boxer briefs. They hugged his body perfectly and didn't hide much the imagination. I sat up and scooted over, patting the spot in which I wanted him to sit.

As he crawled to the middle of bed I moved to my knees. He leaned against the headboard, watching me with curiosity. But, as I tried to move towards him, the long nightgown got in my way. Finally having enough of it I pulled it off and tossed it to the side. He gave me a small smile, the amusement clear on his face. I straddled his waist, wrapping my arms around his neck.

His large hands explored my body, only barely touching my bra and panties as he passed. I leaned forward and lightly kissed his lips, grabbing his attention away from my body. I could feel him stiff between my legs, rubbing against my hot center as we kissed, moving together. I sucked his bottom lip into my mouth, causing him to groan loudly. It was beyond sexy.

I slid down his body, kissing as I went. He tasted amazing. I remembered how he tasted the other day. He felt perfect in my mouth and I wanted that again. I slid his underwear off, tossing it to the floor. I didn't hesitate to take him into my mouth.

I let out a long moan as I slid as much as I could of him in my mouth. He let a long breath, his hand coming to brush my hair away from my face. I wrapped my fingers around the huge length and moved at a steady pace, making sure not go faster or slower. I could feel him twitch in my mouth, shudder and shivering at my touch. I glanced up at him, his head was lulled back with his mouth open.

I was flicking my tongue playfully over his head he I felt both of his hands on my forearms. Before I could even realize what was happening I was on my back with Jasper beside me. His mouth was on mine an instant later, kissing me furiously.

He moved to his knees, leaning over my body as he kissed my chest. His warm mouth went to one of my lace covered breasts and began to suck. I was so distracted by his fantastically talented mouth that I didn't even notice that my panties were now gone. His caresses were gentle and soft, my legs instantly spreading wider for him. He slid down my body, his eyes holding my gaze the entire time. But, the instant that his mouth wrapped around my over sensitive clit I was gone.

Long slow licks, soft kisses, and gentle sucking put me on the edge. I was gripping the pillows above my head, bucking my hips up to meet his mouth all while calling out his name. His hands slid up my sides, brushing his thumbs across my nipples. Just as he was doing so Jasper sucked my sucked my clit into his mouth, flicking it hard with his tongue.

My body jerked and I lost my vision for a minute. I knew there was sound coming from my mouth, but all I could hear was the pounding of blood through my ears. I was panting heavily, trying to catch my breath again. Suddenly, Jasper's lips were on my neck, kissing it lightly. "Are you ready for more?" He whispered into my ear.

I nodded, not even bothering to open my tightly closed eyes. I was ready for whatever he wanted to give me. And, apparently, he wanted to give me all of himself. I wondered how much time had passed because his gloriously thick condom covered shaft slid into me. I wonder when he even had time to retrieve the condom in the first place.

"Open your eyes," he said in a soft voice. Slowly, I did so, looking up into his worried face. "Is this okay?"

"Jasper, make love to me. Please." I begged in a voice that was barely above a whisper.

Slowly he began to move inside of me, pulling completely out before going back in with a forceful thrust. I wrapped my leg around his hip, like I had done on the couch, bringing him closer to me. He brought his hand to rest behind my knee, holding it in place. He held my gaze for a long moment before leaning down and kissing my collarbone.

He was so steady in his movements, so smooth. Jasper was showering my upper chest, neck, shoulders and face with kisses as he moved, every once in a while capturing my lips in a searing, toe curling, kiss. The spring in my stomach began to wrap tightly again, warning me of the undoing.

"Isabella," he said in a soft, sexual tone, grabbing my attention. He pulled down the cup of my bra with his teeth before speaking again. "I'm not going to be able to hold out my longer. Come with me."

As soon as his mouth descended on swollen hard peak I was flying. He growled against my chest and I felt him between to twitch inside of me. He bit down gently on one of my nipples, which just threw me over the edge again. I felt my thighs become completely soaked-worse than before. I screamed out, digging my nails into his shoulders.

A few minutes later, he was laying beside me, his strong arms wrapped around my body. I laid on my stomach to look at him, my head on one of my arms which was resting on his chest. "Hi..." I said lamely. I didn't know what else to say.

"Hello there," He said, a large lazy smile on his face. He ran his fingers over my cheek, tucking my hair behind her ear. "You are lovely."

"You were amazing." I said, leaning down to kiss his bare chest.

He chuckled, blushing a light pink across his cheeks and nose. "Um, well. I wouldn't say that. Though I do think I burned off enough calories to have a piece of cheesecake." Jasper teased.

It suddenly dawned on me. "Crap! We left it in the car. I bet it's half frozen by now."

"I'll go get it."

I pushed him back before he could sit up completely. "I'll go get it. I want to see how bad the snow has gotten."

"Are you sure?" He asked, though you could tell he was distracted by my body as I crawled off the bed.

"Yeah, I'm sure." I went to his closet and pulled on one of his hoodies. It could have been a dress. I grabbed the truck keys off the dress, shoving them in the pocket, before heading to my room. I pulled on a pair of sleep pants, not even bothering to find panties. After pulling on a pair of sneaker I headed out towards the elevator.

It was only about eight in the evening, really kind of early. I wondered what else we would do with our days off. It was nice to have them. I knew when we got back there would be a lot of change going on, so it was nice to be prepared. I had only met our new boss, Emmett, once but he seemed to be an interesting man. I just hoped he didn't do anything to screw up the place. I liked my job and didn't want a new one.

When the doors opened I found Alice standing on the other side of them. She had a couple of tot bags full of groceries, and yet she still looked fantastic.

"Hey! What are you doing home so early? And dressed like that?" She asked, letting the elevator doors close.

"Um..." I trailed off, looking down at my feet.

"Um? Oh... OH! Okay, but what are you doing out here?" She asked after finally figuring it out. A classic Alice smirk was spread over her lips.

"Well, we kind of forgot to get our dessert in our rush to get inside. I decided to come out to get it." I said, shrugging my shoulders.

She giggled. "Well, I'll go inside and let you get your dessert." She pressed the elevator door and it opened instantly. Alice wiggled her perfectly groomed eyebrows at me. "Have fun."

Before I could retort the doors closed, leaving me alone. Well, I'm sure she'd embarrass me more later. Probably tomorrow.

I was thinking about what just happened when my thinking suddenly halted. "Holy crow..." I muttered, looking at the amount of snow that had gathered on ground. It was probably already two inches deep and it wasn't suppose to stop at all tonight. I was really glad I got supplies now. I didn't want to leave the apartment anyway.

I trudge my way to the white truck parked right next to mine. I clicked the button, causing it to beep. I sat inside, grabbing the cheesecake and sitting it on my lap. The cab smelled amazingly like him. That wonderful citrus smell that I adored so much. I decided not to linger too long, not wanting the snow to melt in there. Wet carpet is not a good smell.

I looked at myself in the mirror above my head in the elevator. I looked a mess. My lips were slightly stained purple from my lipstick earlier. My hair was everywhere. I looked like a slob in the huge hoodie and sleep pants. All I needed was a tub of ice cream to make my outfit complete. Then I remembered the cheesecake. Yup- total lazy slob.

I was just about to step out of the elevator when I looked up. At my open door was a half dressed Jasper and on the other side Edward. My eyes grew wide and as they both looked at me, I panicked. And like the chicken that I am I stepped back into the elevator and pressed the close door button.

I didn't have my keys, and I wasn't about to steal Jasper's truck because I was a giant coward. So, I headed to the best place I knew. I knocked on her door and only a second later Alice opened. I held up the big pink box. "How about some cheesecake?"

So, I've pretty much had the most craptastic day ever. I'm really surprised I could write this. I just wanted something to distract myself with. I hope it's alright. Review and let me know.