"Hey," Bill heard a close voice say, from its usual direction. He opened his eyes more and let out a tiny whimper; he was still sleepy. A yawn exuded from his throat as he stretched as much as he could, turning his head to look over at Tom. His face was red and his eyes, too. Bill reached up with his hand to touch Tom's face. Tom covered Bill's hand with his and leaned into the touch, leaving the hand there," how do you feel, Bill?"
"Eh. The same," he looked sad as he met Tom's eyes with his. And he was; he and Tom might have just ruined the band for good. For what? He supposed that it was a tad selfish….but who can help who they fall in love with? They knew that they couldn't keep it to themselves any longer, "I feel like its all my fault. It was me who really pushed the issue….you know, about telling everyone." God, Bill. Please don't cry. Not anymore. They kept their gaze.
"Are you saying I wanted it less than you? Because I didn't, I still don't want it any less. I want you," Bill blushed majorly, his cheeks coated with a pinkish tint. Tom always found the right thing to say. Then Bill's face turned into a serious look again.
"Are you sad?"
"About what?"
"About how……about how we might've lost Tokio Hotel."
"Oh, yeah…..It hurts a lot to think about it."
"Do you regret it then? Them finding out?"
"No," Tom answered bluntly. His lips formed a half smirk.
"You don't? But---but why? I thought you would be so devastated."
"You are all I need," now the smile was whole.
"Wh-what," Bill was a bit caught off-guard. His eyes grew a bit wide as he still stared at Tom, who now leaned over him. He placed a kiss on Bill's forehead and spoke softly and slow.
"I said you are all I need, and I mean that. Yeah, the music is important," Bill could tell it made him sad to say that, "and we might've lost what we have known of for so long. But, nothing compares to you. If I had to choose between the band and you, I'd pick you every time." He tried to smile down at Bill but before he could, his twin yanked him down and crashed their lips together fiercely. Bill's tongue explored the inside of Tom's mouth and he moaned quietly. Tom gained entrance into Bill's, their tongues massaging each other's. It felt so good. They were able to forget about their sorrow for the moment and just appreciate each other. Tom cupped the sides of Bill's face and Bill sent his arms into Tom's dreads as they embraced, losing themselves in each other. It was, indeed, a beautiful moment.
Bill murmured against Tom's lips as they still pressed together, " I love you." It made Tom come up a bit, pulling away from Bill's lips. Bill protested some with whiney sounds, but Tom smiled.
"I love you, too," he whispered. The hovering body pulled up more and away, out of Bill's grasp when he heard a protruding voice. He sat down in the chair next to the cot. It was a nurse coming in to check up on Bill and she knocked on the door.
"Hey, alright if I come in," she said. The nurse's hair was curly and a red-brunette color. She was a bit tall and somewhat old. Her scrub top was an orange, Bill's favorite color, and then her pants white. She looked over at Bill who smiled back at her as she approached, "Well hi sweetie. How ya feelin'?" Tom's hand clenched a bit. He HATED it when the nurses used a pet name for Bill like 'sweetie', 'babe', 'darling'. He was the only one supposed to do that.
"I'm getting a lot better," Bill replied, still with a forced smile stuck on his face.
"You look a lot better. But we need to take your temperature and all that good stuff to make sure you are as good as you look, okay?"
"Okay," he even showed his teeth as he said it, "When can I go home?"
She looked at him, "Honey, not for a few weeks yet. You just woke from a coma. The doctor needs to keep you under observation to make sure nothing else happens." Bill just stuck out his bottom lip and gave her a pouty face, whining like a little puppy. It caused her to chuckle a lot similar to the mix between a hyena and a pig. Tom couldn't help smiling at his twin's cuteness, either.
"Can I get anything for you, dear? Anything you need or want," she asked as she fluffed up his pillow after checking all the medical matters.
"Hmmm," he started, tapping at his chin like he was really thinking on the question, "Can I have some ice cream?" Tom just laughed. Typical Bill to be childish at any given time.
"Haha, I will see if I can get you some."
Bill clapped in amusement and through his hands in the air in triumph, "YAY!" The nurse and Tom both laughed at that.
"Alright, hun. I will go see if I can get that for ya. Keep getting better," she said as she gathered her clipboard and an empty plate from earlier, heading for the doorway.
"Thank you," Bill replied.
The nurse went out of the door and was replaced by someone else; their mother. She stood there in the doorway, smiling and looking over at her two sons. They both smiled up at her truly. The boys always loved seeing their momma. The both of them decided that the next time they saw her that they would tell her the truth as well. Tom and Bill already suspected that the end result will not be good, but they want her to find out by their word of mouth before media exposes it, if it does anytime soon.
She had tears in her eyes as she rushed to the side that Tom didn't occupy. It was the first time she had seen Bill since he awoke, and she missed her boy so much.
"Oh, Bill," she cried as she hugged him to her close and not wanting to let go. Tom smiled big at the sight, tears almost wanting to fall as he watched. His mom loved him and his twin so much and they were so lucky to have someone like her. Bill teared up too and smiled over her shoulder.
"How are you feeling," she asked through her tears as she sat down in the chair available on her side. Simone pulled it closer to the bedside and smiled at Tom and Bill, both, "Hey Tom. You're looking a lot better." Tom smiled back at her toothily, giving Bill a chance to speak up.
"Well," he started and got quieter. Tom could tell he was thinking about the dispute with Georg and Gustav. Well, mostly Georg. Gustav didn't say much and if anything, it wasn't bad.
"Well? Well what, Bill? What's wrong," Simone questioned in concern. She had that worried parental look on her face.
"Mum," Bill began, not looking at her in the eyes as he did so, "Tom and I have something to tell you."
She was even more worried now, "Oh God, Bill. What did you guys do?"
He looked at Tom with a pleading look, asking for his help on this. Bill didn't know what to say to that, and neither of them could predict her reaction. They were scared, they didn't want the same reaction from her like they got from Georg. And so they told her in the same way as they did the guys beforehand, telling it together and only looking at each other, as if it protected them from anything they got in the instant future.
She really didn't have much of a reaction at first. Her face was frozen in an unreadable expression, like she was numbed. They were worried and watched attentively.
"Oh," was all she could find herself to say, still keeping the same face.
"We had been wanting to tell everyone the night of the accident. Georg and Gustav found out and they weren't too happy…," Tom told her. His stomach turned in nervousness, angst. All those feelings at once didn't feel too nice.
Bill dropped a tear from his eye, " Yeah, mum……this might be it for us. And it's all my fault." He sniffled and hanged his head low.
"Bill, no it isn't," Tom reassured him. Well, tried to. Bill just continued to cry as Tom ran his fingers along his twin's arm.
"Shh," Simone cooed as she reached to Bill and hugged his head to her. Her face still was frozen in its same state, unreadable. She held his head and rocked him until he calmed down some. Tom just sat there and watched, a bit relieved that she had a better reaction then the boys did. He hoped that it made Bill feel better.
"Mum," Bill spoke up against her shirt.
"What, babe?"
"Do you still love us….?"
"Bill," she tore away to look at him, and reached out for one of Tom's hands, "Nothing that you guys do will EVER make me not love you…..ever. I may be disappointed and confused, a bit disgusted. But, I still love you no matter what," she put her hands out wide, "Now, come here. Both of you."
They reached up and the three of them hugged together, Tom breathed out in relief. Yes, they did have the best mother out there.
This is probably my favorite so far. I really enjoyed it, and quite proud of it.
I'm not saying that anyone will, but if anyone copies the content in this story, reposts it without permission, etc. and I find out….I WILL come after you. I didn't spend hours on writing it just so someone else will get credit for it. So, be respectful. Don't steal my work.
Ann