Ritsuka's World

Disclaimer: Loveless not belong to me

Pairing: SoubixRitsuka, SeimeixSoubi, SeimeixRitsuka

Summary: The world in Ritsuka eyes.

Seimei's world (part 1)

Seimei is my world. I lived in his world. The only world that accepted me.

Ritsuka is Ritsuka.

Seimei is the only one who accepts me fully. He did not ask me to become the old Ritsuka. He cares about me. He loved me as me now.

When mother goes berserk like that again, come find me.

Seimei is the one who always protecting me. When mother hits me, he is the one who defending me. When mother goes too much, he got angry for my sake. When I'm hurt, he is the one who taking care of my wounds. When I'm sad, he is the one who comforting me.

Ritsuka, I love you.

Seimei is always so gentle with me. He said he loved me, and I believe him. Every caress is showed how much he loved me. Every word he says is always so soft. Every actions proof how much I means to him.

Every time we spend together is means so much to me. I'll never forget every single of them, I'll treasure it with all my heart. I still remember, we spend many times to talk and do many things. We often take a bathe together. Sometimes we even sleep together.

We were always together. Even if Seimei going somewhere, he still always come back to me, for me. Even he was busy, Seimei still always spending his time with me. Even if I bothering him when he was reading or doing something else, Seimei never seem bothered with me. When I need him, he is always there for me. Seimei is always make me smile, make me laugh. He makes my day felt better. His presence is enough to chase away all the bad things from me.

I love you, Seimei.

And yes, I do. I love him more than anyone else. I feel secure in his embrace. I feel worth to live. I find a place where I belong. And most of all, I feel loved. Only Seimei could make me feel comfortable, make me feel complete. Even mother hits me, even father leave me, and even 'Ritsuka' friends avoiding me, it's alright. As long as I have Seimei in my side, then I didn't need anything else. As long as Seimei…

Ritsuka, I'll tell only to you my real name. Beloved. The ones to be loved. Don't forget it.

Beloved. The ones to be loved. When the first time I learn that name, all I think was how beautiful that name is. Never did cross my mind, that name will be the last beautiful thing I heard from Seimei.

I'm opening my eyes, my tears are falling slowly. I'm standing in the middle of Seimei's room. But there is no Seimei. There is no comforting embrace. There is no sound of Seimei soft voice calling my name.

Ritsuka, I love you.

No one is gonna told me that ever again. No one is gonna defend me when mother go berserk ever again. No Seimei to taking care of my wounds. No Seimei to comforting me. No Seimei to loving me.

I'm laying in his bed now. I still can smell his scent. My body still remembers his body heat when we sleep together. I clutch his pillow, my body shock harder as my tears fall faster.

Even if I'm crying, no Seimei soft hand to calm me now. Even if I calling him, no Seimei voice will answer me. Even if I came into his room, no Seimei will greet me. No matter how much I hope, no matter how much I beg, Seimei will not coming back.

Seimei is my world. But it has been taken away from me cruelly. All left for me is memories to hold on. What an ironic things to do for someone like me, someone who lose his memories.

Seimei, you are my world. When you're gone, my world has destroyed too. So why the world wasn't end yet?

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Chapter 3 is done too. This one is about Ritsuka's feeling about Seimei and the time they spend together until Seimei faking his death. Still have problem with grammar. Review, please?