Ritsuka's World

Disclaimer: Loveless not belong to me

Pairing: SoubixRitsuka, SeimeixSoubi, SeimeixRitsuka

Summary: The world in Ritsuka eyes.

Misaki's world

I lived in mother's world. When her world is destroyed, mine was started.

She was screamed again, she was cried again "You are not my Ritsuka! Where is my Ritsuka?!" Another plate is being thrown "Give me back my son! Give me back my Ritsuka! Ritsuka!!"

My cheek hurt, it's bleeding slowly.

"You're an imposter! You take my Ritsuka! Give him back! Give him back!" She picked up a knife and advanced toward me violently. The knife is being stabbed into my right hand, I screamed in pain, the blood is tickling down.

It's hurt, so much hurt. Not only because the knife stabbed, but because mother is the one who doing this to me. My chest rising and falling with each rapid breath I took. Every breath is pain, everywhere in my body feel hurt, but nothing compare to the pain in my heart.

She still screams as she hitting me. She still screams as she hurt me more. She still screams as she crying.

I didn't do anything, just let her be. My body feels hurt to move, my eyes feel so heavy. I let her do whatever she wants to do with me. I didn't have any right to fight her, not when I deserve this.

Because, she is crying, she is hurting herself. Every time she hurt me, she was in pain too. Every time she going berserk, we shared a pain.

It's alright, I deserve it. I was the sinister one. I take everything that belonged to her Ritsuka. I take away her beloved, cheerful son from her. Ritsuka is her world. Ritsuka is her everything. And I take it all. I destroyed her world.

I understand her pain, I feel the same about Seimei. I know how much is hurt when your everything, your most loved person, your whole world had been taken away.

This is punishment. This is what I got for destroying mother's world. Even now, my entire existence is still hurting her. Every time she saw me. Every time I have failed in her test. Every time she realizes that I'm not the one she hopped for. I'm destroying her world again and again. I was the sinister ones.

She is not doing anything wrong, she just doing the same as I did to her. By destroying my world, she is sharing her pain.

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Chapter 4 is done. I hope this chapter is make a sense. I just want to describe Ritsuka's feeling about her mother abuse. By the way, anyone know what Ritsuka's father name is? Please review.