A/N: THIS IS SEXUAL! PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT LIKE SEXUAL STUFF!!
I took a deep breath. This is what I want. I told myself as I tried to quell the nervous butterflies in my stomach. After taking a few more breathes I walked over to Him.
The smiled that played on his perfect lips caused my stomach to turn summersaults.
"Kaori…" His voice was as smooth as silk; I shuddered.
"Sesshoumaru…" I breathed as I stopped and gazed up into his face.
He pulled me to his chest; his breast plate had been removed. "Kaori…" He murmured as he ran his fingers up and down my spine.
I lifted my face to him, my eyes closed and my lips slightly parted; I was as ready as I could be.
The moment his lips brushed mine my carefully placed control came crashing down… my left hand twisted into his hair while my right gripped his shirt.
Sesshoumaru moaned as his pulled me into the kiss, his left hand pulling my hair while his right hand sliding my left leg up against his hip.
I whimpered. "Wait, wait…" I gasped as I pulled away from the kiss.
He groaned. "I don't want to wait…"
I laughed and untangled myself from him, stepping away. "Just wait, I promise I'll make it good…" I turned my back to him and walked over to the lake. After sliding the michiyuki and kimono off I laid them down on the rock and turned back to Sesshoumaru, making sure he could see just how sheer my nagajugan really was.
Something flashed in his eyes as he stalked over to me. "You're doing this on purpose…" He teased as he ran his fingers over my shoulders then down the front of my breasts; I moaned as he hit his mark on my left one.
"I thought you would like to see it…" I whispered as I slowly opened his shirt, trying to keep him from noticing.
He laughed and leaned over, placing his nose against the side of my face. "I do like it…"
I grinned. "Good…" I quickly leaned my head into his chest and bit him harder than I had the first time I did it.
He stiffened; hand on my shoulders, as he fought to keep himself in control. "Oh don't…"
I smirked. "But I want to…" I sunk my teeth in harder as I tried to leave him a mark like my own without having fangs to do it with.
I knew when I had breached the skin when Sesshoumaru ripped me off of him and slammed me into a tree.
I gasped, tears prickling my eyes, as I tried to reorient myself.
"Oh god…" Sesshoumaru mumbled. "Kaori… I… I'm so sorry…" he pleaded when he realized what he had done.
"Don't…" I gasped as I leaned down to him. "Please… Don't stop now…" I kissed him, nipping his lip then sucking on it, as I fumbled to free him of his shirt.
He moaned and moved his lips away from mine. "I won't be gentle…"
I nipped his ear, causing him to shudder. "You can be gentle the second time…"
That seemed to satisfy him since he lifted me with one arm, removed his clothing with the other, and then set me back in the right spot.
"Are you ready…?" he murmured as he kissed, licked, and nipped from my ear to my breasts.
"Yes…" I whispered as I tried to keep my head.
I wasn't as ready as I thought I was…
Sesshoumaru shoved himself deep and hard inside me, crushing his lips against mine to muffle the scream he knew was going to try to escape my mouth. Tears spilled down my cheeks as he rocked himself in and out of me hard and fast. He stopped as he felt the tears trickle across his own cheek.
"Do you want me to stop…?" He whispered.
I shook my head. "Please… don't…" I knew he had warned me at how much pain he would cause me the first time he mated with me; he had said that his father always warned him to pick a strong mate because, being a dog demon, he wouldn't be able to control his urges to be "top" the first time he lays with her. I was warned… I should have taken it to heart more than I really had… So I leaned down and bit into his shoulder; it got him going again like I had hoped.
He pounded deep inside me as he pulled open the top of my nagajugan. His tongue lapped over the mark he left me on my left breast causing me to moan; then he moved to my nipple. Sucking, nipping, and licking at the left one then moving to the right.
I gasped; I never realized that, even with the immense pain, the pleasure took total control. I could feel the pleasure building up inside, not only me, but both of us. New sensations ran through me as he continued to rip into me.
I knew when he was close to the end of... well… this mating… as he began to tear into me fast and hard and sharp. I bit into his shoulder yet again as I screamed over and over while he forced himself into me again and again.
Suddenly I felt him swell inside me. My eyes widened and I couldn't keep my mouth locked onto his shoulder; I leaned back, arching myself against the tree, trying to have his swelling rub against every inch inside me.
"Sesshoumaru…" I gasped as I felt something building inside me.
He looked up into my eyes; I couldn't look away. He moved both his hands to my hips and abruptly shoved me down onto him as he released into me, crushing his lips to mine to keep me from screaming. The pleasure that had been building up broke free and crashed over me as I screamed into his quelling kiss.
When he finished releasing himself into me he pulled away slowly from the kiss, laying his forehead against mine. "Did I hurt you…?"
I shook my head, hoping the tears trickling down my cheeks weren't noticeable.
"I did…" He murmured as he kissed away the tears on my cheeks. "We don't have to do this again…"
"I want to…" I mumbled. "Besides… You still have to go into my room." I smiled weakly at him.
He laughed and kissed my nose. "Hold your breath…"
I nodded and held my breath; I knew what he was going to do next.
Carefully he pulled himself out of me, inch by inch. Each time I whimpered he'd stop until he felt I could take a little more; finally, he was free.
"All better…?" He murmured as he kissed my nose and cheeks.
"I'm fine…" I breathed as I moved my head to his shoulder; he cringed slightly and I shot up. "Oh god… I hurt you… I'm sorry."
He touched the tip of his finger to my lips. "That's nothing compared to what I put you through… I'll heal faster than you as well… Don't apologize." He smiled at me. He lifted me easily into his arms and pulled me free of my nagajugan as he walked over to the water's edge. "This should help with some of the pain…" He murmured as he set me carefully into the water. "I'll be right back…"
I turned my head to watch him dress, smiling as he did; I hadn't been able to admire his body the first time, I was sure as hell going to enjoy it now. When he turned around he caught me staring; I blushed. "I can't help it…" I mumbled.
He smiled and walked back over to me. "You're body is beautiful… did you know that…?"
"Is not…" I muttered, blushing.
He laughed as he gently lifted me out of the water, draping my clothing over his arm, and ran me back to the secret entrance to my room. "I'll be right back…" He whispered as he carefully draped the michiyuki over my shoulders.
I smiled at him, grabbing the nagajugan and pressing the front of it to the lower area of me, hoping some of my blood would transfer onto it.
"Lady Kaori…" Seiji murmured at my door. "The Lord is here to see you…"
I blinked; I had totally forgotten that it had to be so formal. "Send him in…" I answered as I slid myself behind the partition the women had set up to hide me as Sesshoumaru entered.
Once Seiji had slid opened the door I sighed quietly, complimenting myself for leaving the panel open when I had left the first time.
The door slid shut and I stared out the sheer screen at the form of my husband. He came around and lifted me up gently, then laid me down softly on the bed. "Are you sure…?"
I smiled up at him and kissed him. "Of course I am…"
He sighed, but smiled as he leaned over me. "I'll be gentle… I promise…"
"I know you will…"