Things pretty much went back to normal after that. I did go to the doctor and I did get birth control. I didn't get a pill like I thought I would either. Instead I got a new device, a ring of some sort that lasted for a couple of years, that way I wouldn't have to worry about it for a long time. Until I was ready for that. Which, was a very good thing.
Alice took me to the outpatient clinic to get it done but not without a lot of teasing and 'I told you sos' first. I took my medicine, so to speak. I knew I was being far too emotional before and it was probably because of PMS. She was amused by the fact that I freaked out the first time I 'got some.' But, I could tell she was glad that I wasn't. I knew she worried about me and I wasn't ready for that yet.
Jasper was handling me almost with kid gloves now. I think my sudden distance scared him. I felt horribly guilty about that and now knew that I was being stupid. I knew it wasn't the answer to my problems. I made sure to make it up to him by snuggling close to him every night since we got back from Thanksgiving in Forks. It was the least I could do. I wish I could have done more but I wasn't sure what.
I think it kind of put him off though that I didn't tell my parents. I didn't want to get crap from them about Edward and certainly didn't want the added questions if they knew I was now dating Jasper. I didn't want that from anyone. Our quick change in status certainly didn't look good, for either one of us. I would tell them, sooner or later. Probably after the first of the year.
The only people that knew we were dating was Seth and Alice, who were now joined at the hip. Though, I was about to tell Jacob, right after I punched him, if he didn't let up with the flirting. I knew he meant no harm by it, but it didn't make it any less annoying. I knew Jasper was sick of it too. It certainly made work a lot more... frustrating.
But, I was surprised when they actually took some of the suggestions we made up at work. We were now closed on Sundays and Monday. And there was a new floor manager. Not that I liked Rosalie very much. But, she was good to have on your side when a guest got too touchy. I had seen her punch out a two hundred pound military man, which was beyond impressive. I just think she doesn't know how to act around women, which didn't surprise me. Almost every female in the place was jealous of her and that was probably hard to deal with. She's probably had to deal with it all her life.
It had been a week and a half since Thanksgiving. It was early afternoon and we had to go to work in a few hours. Usually this was our time to relax together but Jasper seemed nervous about something. "What's the matter?" I asked, leaning my head on his shoulder.
"Just thinking." He shrugged.
"About?" I pressed.
"Nothing. It's stupid." He said, looking away embarrassedly. It was so unlike him. But it was rather adorable as well.
I sighed and moved so that I was straddling his waist. I placed my hands on his shoulders, shaking him playfully. "Tell me." I commanded.
He placed his hands on my waist and looked down. I was surprised to see him blushing. "I was thinking about you moving in with me."
"But, we already live together." I said, confused. Was I missing something?
He rolled his eyes. "I meant into my room. Maybe get some stuff to make it ours and not just mine. Maybe even think about getting a one bedroom. I mean, it would save us some money, if anything else." He said in an embarrassed rush.
I flushed as well and looked into my lap. "I don't know, Jazz."
"See, it was stupid. Forget I said anything." He said carefully placing me back on the couch. "I've got a headache. I think I'm going to lay down for a while before work."
I watched his retreating form with a heavy sigh. I felt horribly guilty about this. I was taking so much in this relationship and giving him so little return. I would have felt frustrated if I was him too. He couldn't even tell people we were dating. I needed to make it up to him.
He was quiet all through the ride to work. Not that I blamed him. He wasn't giving me the cold shoulder or anything like that, he just seemed to have a lot on his mind so I left him alone. I knew I had to think to. I had to try to think of something. I kept coming up with blanks, it would seem. I felt like an idiot.
It was about five thirty when we got in. I didn't have to start until six, but I didn't mind going in a little early with Jasper. I had always enjoyed riding with him, even before we were dating. I went to the bar and took a seat. He gave me a small coke before he started his work checking to make sure the bar was fully stocked. Embry was the last one at the bar and he tended to leave in a hurry.
Jasper went to the back to get some beers and to check that the kegs were ready for the night when Jake came in. He saw me and smiled brightly. I sighed to myself. He was starting to get very annoying. I knew he liked me. And I liked him too, as a friend, nothing more.
"Hey, Bells! How you doing?" He asked as he came to sit beside me.
"Fine," I answered a bit wearily, not even bothering to look at him.
"So, I was wondering if you'd like to go to the movies with me on Sunday?" He tried to asked in a smooth voice. I suppose it would have worked with some. He was an attractive man.
Jasper had just come back, setting a couple cases down at his feet. When he realized what was happening he simply rolled his eyes. This was happening more and more often lately. He bent to put the beers into the cooler at his feet for later, probably not wanting to see this disaster in the making. It always seem to end the same way. Not very well.
I looked at the top Jasper's blond head and then turned my attention back to Jacob. "Actually Jake, I've got a boyfriend."
He rolled his eyes dramatically, not noticing Jasper who shot up, banging his head against the side of the bar. I looked at him sympathetically as he rubbed the top of his head. His eyes were wide, his brows scrunched together as he was trying to figure out what I was doing.
"Yeah, right Bella. Whatever. If you don't want to go out with me just say so." Jacob said, crossing his arms over his chest.
"I've been saying no for weeks now!" I groaned, throwing my hands up in the air. "But, that's not the point. Jake, I have a boyfriend."
"Oh, and who is this boyfriend of yours?" He asked in a sarcastic tone. I could tell he didn't believe me.
"Jasper." I said honestly.
Jacob snorted. "Sure, sure."
I growled. What was so unbelievable about that? So, to prove it to him I decided to take matters into my own hands. I hopped on the bar, reached over and forcefully grabbed Jasper's collar. I pulled him to me and kissed him deeply. He moaned into my mouth, his hands going to my hips as he kissed me back. I felt him smile against my lips before I slowly licked them, asking to deepen the kiss even more.
I heard Jacob huff as he stomped away. But it didn't matter. I was too wrapped up in the amazing kisser in front of me. At that moment I wanted nothing more than to have Jasper throw me back on the bar and basically give the place a free show. I didn't care if there were people around as his tongue massaged mine hungrily.
I heard a loud cough behind us, and a snicker, which caused Jasper to pull away. I whined and pouted, not bothering to see who had interrupted my kiss. Jasper blushed a bright red, rubbing the back of his neck.
"As much fun as that looks, that's not what I pay you for." Emmett laughed.
"Sorry," I muttered as I hopped back down.
I didn't even realize that Rosalie was there until she stomped off, her arms crossed over her chest. I'm sure that wasn't a good thing. I sighed to myself, blushing brightly. Suddenly my feet were far more interesting than anything else in the room. I kept my eyes to them, to embarrassed to look at either man.
"Sorry about that, boss." Jasper said, coming to my rescue, of course. "Bella was just trying to get Jake to leave her the hell alone. He's been trying to get her to go out for weeks. She's been saying no for weeks. Apparently he can't take no for an answer."
"I hope it didn't work for your sake, Jasper." Emmett snickered.
"Me, too." I said under my breath, apparently just loud enough for Jasper to hear. He smiled brightly at me. "Alright, I better go clock in." I added quickly, turning before I could make a bigger idiot of myself.
I went to the employee lounge and clocked in. It was 5:55. Well, that was a good way to waste to twenty minutes. I knew I had a big stupid grin on my face. Nothing could remove it though. I didn't want to. It was a good feeling to tell someone, even they didn't seem to believe me. I knew it made Jasper happy as well. I could tell by the way he kissed me.
"Are you seeing Jasper?" I heard a female voice ask behind me.
I turned and looked at Rosalie. "Yes." I answered simply. "Is there any rule against that?"
"No, there isn't. Look, I understand having a relationship with your coworkers. That's how I meant Emmett. Just don't let it effect your work. You're both good workers." She said as she crossed her arms over her chest. Her movements were full of authority. I could tell she liked being the boss. Or maybe she didn't know how not to be the boss.
"Yes, ma'am." I said before turning back to the time clock. I stamped my card quickly, ready to get out of this confided space.
"Glad we understand each other." She said coldly before turning to leave, her high heels clicking loudly against the concrete floor.
"Frost queen." I muttered. Though, this was the nicest she had been to me, if I was being honest.
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I was surprised at the end of the night to realize that I had not been bombarded with questions by two dozen different people. Either Jacob still didn't believe me or was simply too surprised to say anything. Either way that would change, and soon. He had a big mouth and was never good at keeping a secret. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, but that didn't mean I had to enjoy it.
Jasper didn't say anything to me really the rest of the night. We were surprisingly busy and he was the only bartender. We kept it strictly business. Though the look in his eyes and the slight smile spoke volumes. I didn't do wrong.
We closed the place down tonight and since I was one of the only a few waitress there I had to work my ass of to get my section clean, which was huge. By the time I was done Jasper was waiting for me, with my coat in hand. "Ready, darlin?" He asked, his eyes raking over me as I moved towards him.
I smiled and nodded. He helped me into my coat, like a proper gentlemen. I took his hand, intertwining my fingers with his long ones. I didn't care who saw us now. He smiled brightly at me, his blue eyes sparkling.
"You didn't have to do that, you know." He said as we walked to his truck.
"Yes, I did." I said, shrugging my shoulders.
"No, not for me you didn't." I said, pulling me to his side. His arm slipped around my waist, holding him close to me. And even though he sort of smelled like beer I could still smell the citrus scent that I loved so much. I had to fight the urge to bury my nose in his chest.
"I did it for Jake, too. I was about to punch him in the jaw." I answered sarcastically as I leaned my head against his shoulder.
"Seriously Bella." His face was dead serious as he pushed me against the passenger side door. It was gentle, the way his hands touched me. "You didn't."
"I'm not ashamed of you or what we have." I said barely above a whisper, taken in by his deep blue eyes and his striking features. His lips were only inches away but it was still too far.
"I never said you were." He answered his eyes stormy with an emotion I couldn't understand. I wanted to ask him about it but now didn't really seem like the right time. I would have to ask him later.
"I've been so selfish. I want to be more considerate of you and-"
Jasper cut me off with his mouth, pressing it to mine in a furious kiss. I moaned into his mouth, winding my fingers into his beautiful curly hair as I pushed myself closer to him. "Bella," he moaned, my name barely a whisper on his lips. "Honey, trust me. I knew what I was getting-"
"But, I didn't! Jasper, I didn't know I'd feel this strongly. I want you to be happy. I can feel your frustration and it bothers me. I caused it and I hate it." I said in a straggled voice. I tugged on his jacket, my eyes examining it. I wanted to hide the heavy blush that was covering my cheeks.
"What am I feeling right now?" He asked with a sly little smile on his lips. His finger tips glided from my waist to my outer thigh, stroking them a little bit. Electric currents surged through my body and twirled in the pit of my stomach. I took in a shuddered breath before I cleared my throat to answer.
"My ass." I answered sarcastically causing him to laugh. I loved the sound.
"Jasper..." I said forcing him to look at me. I grabbed his collar like I had done earlier and kissed him- hard. His hands went to my backside, gripping it tightly. He lifted me up, wrapping my legs around his waist. I ground against his very obvious arousal, moaning at the friction of his slack against my cotton panties. He pressed me roughly against the door again, causing me to squeal in his mouth. "Honey, I'm not wearing pants." I panted out as he began to attack my neck.
"I know," was his brilliant answer, smiling against my neck.
"It's cold." I whispered into his ear.
"Oh... Oh!" He answered dumbly, blushing, as he settled me back to my feet. He opened the door and let me slip in. He actually ran to the other side. He brought the truck to life quickly, instantly turning the heat up.
I giggled at his eagerness. "Come on. Lets go home."
Sorry this chapter took a couple days and it's a little short. My daughter decided it was a good time to throw up (and since she's only thrown up like 10 times in her entire life, including spitting up as a baby, I tend to pay attention when that happens) The next chapter will be longer and have a lemon from Jasper's POV. First one of the story. Should be interesting.
Who loved what Bella did to Jasper?