Ritsuka's World
Disclaimer: Loveless not belong to me
Pairing: SoubixRitsuka, SeimeixSoubi, SeimeixRitsuka
Summary: The world in Ritsuka eyes.
Soubi's world (part 2)
I was Soubi's world, as Seimei replacement.
Because Ritsuka didn't come to my place, I'm coming to you.
How can I come to you when I know nothing of you? Before you come to me, you didn't exist in my world, Soubi.
Give me strength, Ritsuka. Ritsuka wa otosu.
What kind of pervert you are? Suddenly kissing an 12 years old boy you just meet hours ago? Even though you say you wouldn't do anything to me. Soubi, did you realize how lucky you are because your victim is me? Any sane person would run like hell, or calling the cops (after run like hell).
Punish me, Ritsuka.
Another proof how insane you are. No right in mind person would ask 12 year old to hurt them. No, Soubi, I will not raise my hands on anyone.
Suki dayo, Ritsuka.
Stop! I said stop saying those lie! I didn't want to hear those meaningless word. The word you use to bind me, to bind yourself, to fulfill Seimei's order. A spell to love. A love spell to make us believe. Why are you keep saying that, even you know it hurting me? But deep inside I know, you kept saying that to hurt me, so I can hurt you just the same. Why pain always there between us, Soubi?
I am no kid, Soubi. Ever since the first time I wake up as not the 'real' Ritsuka, I was never a kid. A kid time is reserved for the 'real' Ritsuka, those happy, playful, innocent time is not mine to have. But still, there are so many things I cannot understand just yet. And since I meet you Soubi, I understand things as much as I didn't understand them. You make me so confused, Soubi.
If Seimei order you to kill me, would you do that, Soubi?
Did you know why I'm asking you that? It's not because I don't trust you or doubt you. No, it's because I'm scared, I don't think I can refuse Seimei's wish, and I know you do too. Seimei is dead, I shouldn't think something crazy like this. But I just couldn't stop thinking about it.
I will
What kind of answer I actually hope? I know your answer without even asking you. So why did it hurt so much when you do answer? Why I'm feeling like crying?
If that day came, I'll die too
I didn't expect you to say that, Soubi. Your answer lift a heavy burden I feel. So I lean into your embrace and crying silently. I can feel you cry with me, and I know we cry for the same reason. Cry for relieve, happy feeling. Somehow the distance between us is getting short, make us feel close to each other. In other side, we cry for sad, pathetic feeling we have. Because it shown how much power Seimei have upon us, and how weak we are in presence of him. How much more sickening we could be, Soubi? Prefer to die rather than say 'no' to Seimei, even though he asks for insane things.
We walk home hand in hand. Seimei is still between us, and his place is still unshakeable. But maybe, just maybe, we can try. Even we still struggle with the darkness within us, maybe we can support each other to keep on walking. Hopefully, a more beautiful night is waiting for us.
Soubi is my world, and I was Soubi's world. I hope it can last.
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More will come. Next will be about Ritsuka's feeling about Seimei's other side and when he does return. Review is much needed.