Authors note: i hated that they killed her off! but i figured i'd write this anyway, just to show that kate still affected the team in more ways than one after her death :D KIBBS all the way for me :D anyway let me know what you think :D
Gibbs poured himself another drink, the pain he felt inside barely dimmed by the burning of the alcohol down his throat. He glanced at his boat but instead of taking the hand tools and working on it, he took a seat in the corner, looking at his drink. "Gibbs?" the word whispered across his senses, his mind swore that he hadn't had heard it. "Gibbs...what have you done to yourself?" again it came, in the fog of alcohol he looked up; resting against his boat was her, the one woman who had captured his heart after Shannon. He said tipping the cup towards her "you're dead" she twitched her lip, but said softly "yes Gibbs, I'm dead...but you're not...although at the moment you can't be far from it...when was the last time you ate?" he shrugged "I don't care, and neither should you" she sighed "but I do, and you should too" he shrugged again, taking another swig of the alcohol "why Gibbs? Why are you doing this to yourself?" his head snapped up, glaring at her "I am doing *this* because I deserve it, I am the reason you're dead, if I'd killed Ari when I had the chance then you'd still be alive!" her face softened "don't...don't blame yourself for my death" he threw the cup against the ground, letting it shatter "it's my fault! You'd be alive if I'd done what I thought I should have!" she flinched "no! No Gibbs!" he froze, her voice cutting through the fog of despair that clouded his mind "no Gibbs...the only person that can be blamed for my death is the guy that shot me...and to tell you the truth, I wouldn't have had it any other way, I saved you...that was good enough for me" tears were welling up in his eyes, his sense of pride refused to let them fall.
She sighed softly, leaving her stand near the boat "you haven't finished it?" he laughed mockingly "no, didn't see the point anymore...I wasn't going to use it" "yes you will, Gibbs I want you to finish this, for me and for you, please?" he didn't reply, instead he just stared at her, then a few moments later "I've...missed you Kate" she smiled "I've missed you too Jethro, but I've never left you, I've watched you, all of you" he stayed silent, then moving unthinkingly toward her "I..I loved you" she smiled, his heart twisted but he felt warmth from it "I knew it, I knew because I loved you too, with all of my heart...something like that had to have been returned...Gibbs...please, you can't keep doing this to yourself...there are murderers, thieves and criminals out there that it is your destiny to catch, don't throw away those that need you, please stop hurting yourself like this, if not for yourself then for me, for your team, they need you Gibbs. And when your time comes, we'll be together again, I promise, I'll always be here, watching over you, I love you Gibbs, so don't waste away like this, become the Gibbs that I knew and loved, not this shadow of him!" she reached out and he closed his eyes, imagining her touch, it caressed his face like a soft breeze, trailing over his lips. Then the sense was gone, his eyes snapped open, but the scent of roses still echoed around him, filling his space with her scent.