and eternity (A Study of Lust)

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lila lila i love you

this is love

where are you going

what will you do

this is love

don't forget what you owe you stupid bitch i love younononono

this is love

don't run away-!

this is... love?

die for me lila die for me, i love you

i love you feed you keep you clothe you strip you hit you hold you own you

i love you love you hate you so much it hurts hurts hurts

it's okay die for me lila i-

i'll bring you back i promise i-

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She rises, calm-eyed, from the circle, pale-skinned, black-haired, dressed in black.

She feels the material whisper and slide around her, a part of her own body.

Her own clothes, not his.

The room must be cold- his eager breath mists in the air, his hands slide harshly over her flesh- she feels each hair on his arms extended fiercely in goosebumps. He makes a choked, wet noise as he crashes into a corner, startled, so startled, watching her examine herself with slow, clinical touches, as if she had not just backhanded him with almost contemptuous ease.

Her body. Not his.

She studies her hands, clean and straight- black, as if she is gloved to the upper arms, but the darkness is as much a part of her flesh as the clothes-not-clothes are. Delicate hands, not the broken, twisted ruins they once were, strong but graceful, unmarred.

Her hands. Not his.

The tips of her fingers extend smoothly with a thought, like claws- yes, like claws, like daggers, like swords.

Not his.

Another wet noise bubbles from his lips at the slow, experimental flex of her hands. Turning to look at him is reflexive, natural, instinctive. She is predator. He is prey. She will no longer allow herself to be loved.

Not anymore.

And her first smile is for the ruin of his body, the fetid stink of shredded bowel, the first scent of freedom.

For herself, finally, finally, finally.

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And so the first Sin came.

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A/N : I depress myself sometimes. Oh wait, no, that's NaNoWriMo. *cries*

Well, that's the first chapter in a long, long time; hopefully it isn't too bad. It's also pure speculation on my part because I stopped reading the manga after the bit where Gluttony goes apeshit. Sorry :

Next one will probably be Scieszka (which I will probably end up spelling Sheska) just because someone asked for it. Yeah. *shifty eyes*