Move Along
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Chapter 4
Il vostro angelo del guardiano
Your Guardian Angel
When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
(Kat's P.O.V)
I wish I could lie within my dreams and never wake up. The tire on my body wears me down and I want to rest. I want to sleep to dream to be with you again. To have you embrace me and tell me you love me. Make you promise to never ever leave me. I want to tell you how sorry I am that I couldn't protect you from the one nightmare I couldn't escape. To beg you not to go with the mornings sun. To tell you how much I love you. To embrace you. To promise to never let you get hurt again.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
But I know that's not how life works. That's not how life intended we be. That's not what happened. The truth is, you died. I didn't save you. I failed you. I wasn't strong enough to save you. I watched you die before my very eyes.
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
But If I just had another chance then I would never let that sick twisted excuse for an animal touch you. I would tear his arm right out of his body before he even thought about it. I would hold you to me and tell you it was alright. "You are safe. I'm going to protect you"
I will never let you fall
I would catch you before you'd fall overboard I'd make sure you were surgically attached to my hip.
I'll stand up for you forever
And I'd make sure not a scratch was on you that not even the wind would cause you harm. I would not let it happen again.
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
I'd die if it meant saving you. I would, truly I would. I know you wouldn't approve of me thinking this but it's true. I can't bear the sight of you pained face engraved in my memory.
it's ok, it's ok
it's ok-e-a-e-a-a-a-aaaaaaa
Where are you? Why did you have to leave? Don't you know how much I need you. How much we need you. I'm pregnant you know. I'm having your child and you wont be around to see him.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
It's a boy you know. I wonder if you were alive what would you have insisted we named him. I wonder, would you have been a good father. I know you would have. I have the gut feeling that pure instinct.
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I miss you so much it hurts. Ray……… You don't know how much I need you now more than ever. You've done so much for me. You taught me how to trust against all odds and how to learn to open myself up to you and to everyone else that cares about me.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
You made me know that not all men were bastards who only wanted to rape innocent women. No, you were far from it. You showed me how to love again. Truly love. An honest feeling from the pit of your heart. The most truest of feelings. That's what you made me feel.
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
But even still I need you now the most. I'm scared for him, Ray. I'm scared I won't be a good mother. I'm scared that all this commotion and traveling will put the baby in danger. I'm scared that I'll lose him before he's even born. I'm scared Ray. And what's worse is you aren't here to sooth my fear.
Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
I'm truly selfish to want this much but I can't help it. I'm not the best person in the world. I miss you Ray, really I do.
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and,
Please tell me you'll stay, woah stay woah
I have to wake up everyday and remind myself that you're not here. I have to dig my face into my pillow till the tears stop flowing. I have to lie in bed for an hour broken missing your warmth next to mine.
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
Never have I had a doubt on your love for me. That day when we got married not so long ago but decades ago all the same, I saw it in you eyes as you accepted me to be you wife. I could see the raw emotion that needed to translator to decipher the meaning. It was clear as the stars in the sky that night.
And I know I'll be ok
Every night I pray. Please give me another chance. I can't save you. I promise I will. Please just please give me another chance.
Though my skies are turning gray
And Every morning I awake to face a new day without you and every morning I have to wake up alone. Without you. I can't handle it and I break down. Every morning. Then I found out about our child. Proof that you were real and not a figment of my lonley heart. This gift you gave me I swear to you I will love with all that is left of me. He woun't grow up not knowing you. I will make sure his daddy is known.
I will never let you fall
And every morning since I found out I have pushed myself up from my sorrow for you and for him. I use all the strenght I have and get up to my feet. I move forward for him. Because he needs me. Just like I need you.
I'll stand up for you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
I'll be there for him even though I am withering away. He will never know of how much pain I suffer. I wil be strong because I thought I didn't have any reason to live but now I do. You gave me another reason to live. Thank you my love I will be sure to protect our son with my life.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
I will be there. Don't fret I'm fine and I'm living, even though each breath without your presence slices a peice of my heart. Even tough realizing you're not here freezes my heart over with a numb feeling to block out the pain.
I will never let you fall
Do you remember when I said I thought I knew you. I remember when I was small I went to China with my mother for a buissness conference. And I remember running away because she told me daddy was leaving us all alone. That he didn't love us. That he hated us. I remember I was a very sneaky girl and I managed to go way into the outskirts of China all with my kindergarden backpack and sneaky ways. I was wandering around in the woods scared because well...I'd never seen the real woods...
I'll stand up for you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
x-x-x
The heat was sweltering creating beads of sweat along their foreheads and necks. Yep this was Australia all right.
"Kat are you sure you're ok you were moaning a lot in your sleep and you kept wincing." Mika questioned holding out a water bottle to her. Kat greedily drank from it before giving her answer.
"I'm fine, it was just the- him, kicking is all." she handed back the water bottle following the rest of the group to the hotel they were checking into. She gazed up at the giant sign that read Desert Rose Inn. She sighed as she walked in following along with their ruse that they were on a Euro trip and all so they could get the hotel room.
She was really feeling faint and she wanted to get some real rest, on a soft bed or close to it. All the traveling was starting to weigh her down she was now seven months pregnant and she couldn't hide the fact that she was with child any loner.
People gave her questioning looks and made faces at her as if she were a disgrace. To be so young and already be with child was something looked down upon. Only a few times would a woman see the pain in her eyes or the agony she was sometimes in and give her comforting gestures that would lift her spirits. She walked slowly behind them and glanced at a woman who looked as if she understood the pain in her expression and the reasons behind it.
She looked away quickly. She didn't know how much she could take. She didn't know how much longer she could survive with out her soul. She'd tried. Heavens knows she was trying so hard for her baby. She needed to survive for him because who else would be there for him.
She would not be like her own parents who abandoned her and left her to fend for themselves even though both were living. She was going to be there for her baby…… for her Ryoma.
They'd gotten two rooms with two bedrooms and were waiting to go up in the elevator when they saw three men walk in. They were all the same, with the same black suits and the same grim expressions and the same black glasses. They questioned the front desk and they pointed to the back as the men disappeared through the back.
"It's them." Kat murmured. These months had trained her to spy out her enemies and they were it.
"I'll go." Mika whispered already taking off.
"Wait!" Mushra muttered and stalked after her telling them to get Kat upstairs. She looked as if she were getting ready to collapse. They nodded and the two small boys followed close behind their eyes trained and ready to strike.
"Tch, This is the last batch for the boss." Mika listened to the old bastards conversation and watched as he loaded a bag of unknowns. She jumped a little when she heard footsteps behind her but noticed it was only Mushra and looked back at the men.
"Hey could ya give me the directions again I always get lost in this vast wasteland." One of the men climbed into the driver's side and started the engine.
"Yeah just go north on Railway Tce and turn and onto the Todd river. It's dry so you should be able to follow in it for a few miles to the institution." The first man huffed and turned to his own car. They sped away quickly without anymore chitchat as Mika and Mushra looked at one another and nodded. They ran up the stairs to their floor not bothering with the elevator. Mika knocked on the door and rushed inside when Sakura opened the door.
"I know where their base is!" She broke out as soon as the door was closed. She watched them and told them the same thing they heard.
"When do we go?" questioned Kat. She looked horrible noted Mika. She was pale and thin even for her 7 month pregnant form. There were bags under her eyes that she'd noticed since the day she was reunited with her.
"I'm worried about you Kat. You shouldn't be doing missions like these. You look terrible and sick. You should stay here while we go check it out. You look like you could use some sleep." Mika confessed.
"No, I want to go save those children and I'm not sitting here like a helpless duck, I refuse." Kat huffed in response.
"I know you do Kat but think of my nephew. The stress of all this can't be good for him and you both need to rest. Think of what my brother would want. I don't think he would want you to be put in that kind of danger now would he?" Mika questioned. Kat glared but nodded in defeat. She wasn't really thinking of her baby and she knew she should. She may have been stronger in the beginning but she was becoming weaker and she needed to take it easy. Mika nodded and looked at the others.
"We'll go tonight if possible I don't really like being in enemy territory especially with their prize goal." Mika continued. " I'll go scout at sundown as Apolla, I'll come back a few hours after and tell you what I've seen, we'll make a game plan then. I think right now we need to rest." Mika closed the discussion without another word and stalked off to the bedroom with Kat and shut the door softly.
X-x-X
The night was unusually cold. Bittersweet with the afternoons weather. Mika sniffled and pounced off the roof into the shadows. She ran at top speeds though the vast desert land. She made note of all the animals she passed noticing which were dangerous and which were safe. Maping out a rout that would be safest. She reached her destination in a matter of minutes. She barked out a laugh. She couldn't believe this was the all might base. It was a ratty old abandoned factory. A pathetic small one at that. She could handle this.
Mika!
She froze in her predatory crouch. She growled a warning menace.
Don't underestimate my Grandfather, Mika.
What? You're not going to try and stop me?
You won't even listen to my explanations, why would I think you would listen to my commands.
You've got a point there. Hey at least you have some brains for that deduction. Great Work Sherlock.
Mika listen to me! Don't underestimate him, you don't know my grandfather like I do I-
Of coarse I don't Kai, Of coarse I don't I only lived with him some what 5 odd years.
Mika cut the fucking sarcasm and listen to what I'm saying.
Don't you dare tell me what to do! I know he's an evil conniving son of a bitch. He only reminded me ever single day of the fucking 5 years of my prison. Don't act superior to me! How'd you even start this connection?
I didn't, Apolla did.
I would never-
I said Apolla, not you.
Why the fu- why did she-
I don't know but what I do know is that if you are going to go in there without a plan or back up you better be fucking careful. Where are you? I'll come for you.
Australia, and don't bother I don't want you with me, and by the time you find get here I'll be long gone.
Australia? Mika please be careful, you'd kill me if you died.
Nice Romeo, Did you say that to your lover while you fucked her?
Mika, that was not my lover.
What? Was she some whore you hired because I wouldn't be your fuck toy.
Mika you are not a fuck toy. Stop saying that! I wouldn't care if you ever let me make love to you I would just want to be wi-
Make love? I didn't know that was in your vocabulary. Wow a real Romeo aren't you.
Mika, would you just let me fucking explain!
No, not really. I don't have patience for liars.
I'm not going to lie to you Mika listen to me. That woman, I met her at the store she bumped in-
Oh how lovely, was it love at first sight Kai. Did you're heart stutter and your breath come o-
Mika shut the fuck up. It wasn't like that, it wa-
How was it Kat did she lure you into her spell? Did you enjoy leading her back to our apartment and fucking her in our bed?
Mika I didn't know it was her! You've got to believe me!
You didn't know it was her? Did you think it was 5 o'clock appointment? Did you thin it was me?
Yes! I did. I was-
Cut the crap Kat I don't want to hear pathetic-
Mika yelped in pain as a burning sensation spread through her leg up. She toppled over as guards attacked her with bats and wires while she struggled to break through the burning fire that was spreading through her veins.
Mika! NO!
Kai snarled in her head as she bit the first guard she could reach and slashed the other in the chest. She kicked another and stepped on another crushing his skull. She yelped as a blow to the head knocked her still.
"Hey there pretty baby. There now calm down. You wouldn't want your head to be smashed so bad your boyfriend wouldn't recognize you anymore. Mika snarled snapping at the female. She knew that voice. That pitch moaning was the reason she was currently in this mess with the man she loved but hated with a passion.
It's her.
She heard Kai hiss and she snarled even more lunging for her throat. The woman laughed and retreated back not anticipating Mika would still me in the game. Mika lunged on top of the female and bared her long canines. She snarled biting down hard on the females shoulder.
She screamed as her shoulder popped and cracked. Mika growled when she felt more bats on her back. She lunged for the remaining guards and snapped their heads clear off with one bite, she spit out the remains and caught sight of more guards coming form the inside of the factory and she lunged for them as well. She smashed four into the wall breaking their skulls in the process. She stomped on two and snapped the heads of five in one bite. She smashed trough the wall making a huge hole in the wall. She noticed ten glass cells holding fifty odd stuffed kids who looked frightened.
Mika watch out for the kids.
Mika snarled beyond reason knocking wired computers here and there. She smashed open one of the walls and destroyed another machine that had some of the older more reasonable kids cheering but the cowering in fear when Mika turned her head to them. Her lips pulled back over her teeth and advanced toward them.
Mika! Wait stop! Don't hurt them, they're kids!
Mika growled and then pounced on another guard who tried to sneak up on her and she smashed another of the glass prisons smashing a desk into two more cells. Five of the ten were opened when she was knocked into the three cells by that woman.
Mika careful tahlly.
Mika growled at the woman and lunged for her but the woman smirked throwing a bomb at her. It managed to explode at her shoulder but she was knocked into the two remaining cells. When she managed to recover she noticed kids running around her running for holes in the walls or for the exit.
A small orange haired girl with sparkling green eyes fell in front of her. Mika snarled baring her teeth at the small girl. She was ready to pounch when she heard a cry in her head.
Tahlly NO!! Don't hurt her, Mika come to your senses, she'd an innocent girl, don't do this!
Mika backed away from the girl. She blinked away the red she had been seeing and looked down at the small girl. She was petrified. Not moving, not blinking. Mika bent down to nudge the little girl who cowered screaming in fear. Mika backed away in horror. What had she done. She looked around to see some kids cowering in corners and looking at her with horrified tear filled eyes.
Oh god she was a monster.
No, no tahlly, it's all right, just calm down, you didn't hurt any of them.
She was past her rage at him to manage to tell him to leave her alone. She wanted his comfort, his soothing words that always managed to get her to calm down after a while of her fit full rage. The soothing tones of his deep milky tone, he used only for her.
Kai, I… I didn't hurt them?
No Tahlly you didn't.
Oh god I- I could have killed her!
Mika shook her head and backed away from the girl and was instantly knocked into the wall by the other female. She felt a small crack and slid down the wall slowly reverting to her small, 5'3 stature and screamed in pain. She looked down at her naked body. She'd transformed into a more primal version of her fox goddess and was thus left clothless.
She panted holding the side of her skull where she'd gotten smacked she slid to the ground moaning as she felt heat lick her skin.
Mika! Get out of there now.
Mika got up only to be knocked back down. She looked up to see the woman staring down at her with scorn. She looked up lazily glaring. It was all her fault she'd fought with her only love, Kai.
"Hmpf, I know why she fucked me so willingly now. Why would he do something pathetic like me when he could have a goddess like me," she laughed and kicked her in the hip, "Honestly no curves." The woman reached down and cupped her breasts pinching her nipples until she cried out in pain. The woman got a wood of burning fire and held it above her aching peeks.
Mika screamed in agony trying to slap the woman's hands away. The woman laughed and threw the torch away pinching the burnt skin.
Mika! Mika! What's wrong?
Now that she had reverted back to her human form the connection was fuzzy. She only barely wanted Kai there and she was blacking out so the connection was weak and out of focus he couldn't see anything. He could only hear the cries of pure undiluted agony ringing in his ears.
Tahlly!
"What are you a boy? You have no breasts! Your ugly scarred body would never please anybody! With these lanky arms and fat legs! Your disfigured face only a mother could love, but not even your mother can stand to look at you, can she?"
That bitch! Tahlly don't listen to her! You're beautiful! Tahlly stay with me!
Mika whimpered at the pain in her skull and glared openly at the woman. She felt her words cutting deep into her skin. Was that why all the guys he'd liked never gave her the time of day. Why Kai went and cheated on her with this woman. Who was so much better than she was?
"And this." She said reaching in between her legs. Mika screamed when something rough was stuck inside her. It burned her cavern, "you can't even have the most basic of things in there what makes you think you can pleasure a male."
Tahlly what is she doing?
Although Kai couldn't see he had a pretty good feeling of what was happening to her. He growled in rage and tried to get past the fog.
"No! Get it out! Ow go-Oh god!" Mika screamed as the woman dove it deeper and pulled it out. It scratched her insides drawing blood. The woman toyed with her and after a while pulled out the dick looking device with small spikes. Mika moaned curling into a ball placing a hand at her entrance as if she could stop the pain or the bleeding.
Tally. What is she doing to you!! Tahlly stay with me.
Oh…god, somebody……..help me, please, oh god. Please
Tahlly, what. STAY WITH ME!
Mika curled into herself tighter and whimpered in pain. The woman laughed but gasped abruptly.
"Mika!" she heard a voice call out to her. She let herself drift and let go of the pain.
x-X-x
"Kai!" there was a painful jab to his ribs that left him waking up gasping for air. He snapped his eyes wide open and snarled with fury. He watched as the blond boy fell back in surprise.
"What the fuck do you want??!!" He snarled getting up from the futon and slamming poor Max into the wall. The boy yelped staring into the crimson orbs that were swirling with fury. Kai let the boy go after a few moments trying to control his labored breathing and almost succeeded but was caught in the sounds of her fight echoing in his ear.
Was she alright? Did somebody help her? Was she safe now? Damnit, Damnit, Damnit!!
"Kai what's wrong? You were tossing around like you were on fire." he heard the new deeper more serious tone. He turned to stare at his friend and rival, Tyson.
"It's her, she's in some kind of trouble and I can't be there to protect her." Kai muttered at the edge of fury. He walked to the window bracing himself before he did something stupid.
"You don't know that Kai, she could be back at home waiting in your apartment for all you know." Max tried to reason with the steamed man.
"No I know she's in trouble!" Kai growled out at his apparent stupidity.
"How Kai?" Tyson shot back sarcastically.
"Because of this!" Kat brought out his golden pendant is shimmered faintly disappearing as the connection faded. He could still feel the echo of pain. "I have a connection with her and I can see and almost feel what she's feeling if we're really connected! I can experience what she's experiencing like I was her!" Kai
"Whoa Kai, dude I'm sorry I didn't know." Max muttered looking at the floor without any response.
"I need to! Arg! She's probably right! She'll be gone by the time I get there. She's in Australia right now and if I were to go she'd probably be gone either by kidnapping or her own escape! Damnit!" Kai started out muttering to himself but ended up yelling in fury.
" Australia?" Tyson repeated looking away as if formulating a plan.
"Kai can't you reestablish the connection?" Max questioned flipping up his phone texting something to someone.
"I don't know, I've always been asleep for those connections and she's always started them unconsciously. I can't fucking sleep right now and I don't know how to start it!" Kai paused closing his eyes and placing a hand over his face.
"Try it, I'll call Lenny see if he can do anything to trace them." Max said flipping his phone closed. Tyson nodded and stalked out of the room muttering something about food.
x-X-x
"Mika?" she was beyond pain at the moment her name was called softly. She supposed that was the reason why she woke up, the pain. It was everywhere, mostly in the places she wished she could forget she had. She opened her eyes slowly flinching as the white light broke through her daze.
"She's coming to, She can see, her eyes are unharmed, the pupil are dilating so she's not in shock. Her other injuries are healing and not infected in any way, he head injury isn't so bad just a chip to the skull but I do recommend waking her up ever hour to make sure she's not going into a coma, give her this every 6 hours for the pain just increase the medicine a bit in case the pain is extremely unberible. I don't think any of her other bones are broken and I think she'll be fine." She heard a familiar male voice say. She blinked moaning as she moved her head to the side. It was throbbing and she though she could hear her name being called over and over again.
"I'm up! I know, what?" she muttered blinking back the film that made her vision blurry.
"What's wrong Mika?" Satoshi quickly came to her side probing her skull lightly.
"Who keeps calling my name?" she sighed as it continued to get louder and more focused.
"No one Mika, it's just me and Satoshi." She turned her head to see Kat standing in the back and Satoshi probing her skull. She didn't see anybody else. She winced; she kept hearing it, deep masculine voice layered with worry and panic.
Mika, tahlly, Mika, Mika, Mika.
Yes, yes, yes! Shut up my head is killing me!
Tahlly are you all right? Are you safe?
Who? I-I'm fine, I don't feel fine but I'm with Kat, I- ow my head.
Oh, fuck!
Kai? Oh shit, what the hell do you want now, can't you just leave me alone!
Mika snapped her head shut and cast the connection away. She groaned fighting to get up. She succeeded but was caught with a head rush and fell back down with a soft thud.
"Oh shit I feel like hell." She muttered dragging a hand down her worn face. She winced as she felt a bruise colored her cheek.
"I'm sure you do." Kat laughed a small hysterical laugh. Her face hardened in an instant. " What in the fudge were you thinking! I- why didn't you just scout the place like we'd planed. Why couldn't you just listen to us this once, why must you always choose to do things the hard way what the heck were you thinking??!" Kat started a mad rampage.
Mika winced at the loud voice Kat was using.
"I did but they saw me and attacked me and I couldn't really control anything!" Mika shot back. She groaned as the volume of her voice increased her headache.
"What do you mean? Wait- you don't mean-" Kat stared at her sister in horror. This was not happening.
"Yeah Apolla's dark side is breaking out. I'm not sure if it was intentional, I was just so mad and the next thing I know they started attacking me and I think that's what triggered it." Mika sighed looking at Kat's frowning face, the worry there. Kat sighed and placed a cold hand on Mika's forehead. She sighed contently; the coolness of Kat's hand was a relief to her burning forehead.
"Well you did a good job, you freed all the kids without a single child casualty and the authorities think all the men holding them captive burned in the fire to ash with an explosion of their machines. There was nothing left and they can't believe all the children made it out alive. About a quarter of the children reported missing were in there. They're all being sent back to their families." Kat smiled wistfully staring at the injured girl.
"I'm glad." Mika smiled closing her eyes. She still felt very tired. She moved around wincing the pain between her legs was not very comfortable to say the least.
"Mika, we need to leave soon. If Voltaire knows you're here, he'll know I'm here and I can't jeopardize my son like that. I will never let Voltaire get his filthy hands on my and Ray's son." Kat stared intently at Mika.
"I know, we'll leave tonight if you want." Mika sighed getting up.
"Mika you're not well enough for travel, I think you should stay here and rest, I'll ask Kyo or Sakura to stay with you but after this you need to go back home, this is not safe for you." Kat spoke in a firm tone.
"No, I'm not going to leave you, It may be dangerous but that's all the more reason for me to come with you! I have to! I swore I would protect you and the baby for my brother I know he would have wanted that. I'm fine! I'm ready." Mika sat up as fast as she could and jumped off the bed glaring at the pregnant woman.
"No Mika lay down." Kat gasped watching the crazy woman walk dizzily to her.
"I will not sleep if that is your plan, I will not let you leave me." Mika growled walking to the closet that was where she guessed her clothes were. She ripped off the flimsy gown and started putting on her clothes hastily wincing and only letting little whimpers escape her. She bit her lip to keep from screaming as her muscles protested and her privates burned. She heard Kat gasp behind her.
"No stop it Mika stop!" Kat screamed. Mika ignored it and continued to dress. When she was finished she turned and faced Kat.
"I'm fine. Let's go." Mika glared protectively ignoring the burning in her body and standing.
"Mika please stop this! I- fine we'll wait for you but please lay down you're not feeling well. Oh my god!" Kat gasped watching Mika lurch forward. Kat managed to catch her. " I won't leave I promise please sleep." Kat murmured quietly leading the injured woman to the bed.
"Don't leave." Mika commanded before falling into a restless sleep full of horrific nightmares.
Geeze If I even have any fans sorry for the long wait I had major writers block and well yeah. I had so much going on this year from my sweet 16(that was killer I was so nervous about performing a dance) to going to mexico. I was kinda depressed for a while, I had to give my babies(dogs) away and well yes I've been busy.
But I'm going on with this story I will finish this story
Yes so read and review you know the deal, it gives me inspiration
And btw for any twilight fans I loved the Movie, yes it was different and yes some parts I wish they included from the book but it was an awesome movie, they said from the beginning it was going to be twilight the movie not twilight the book that got turned into a movie. It was beautifully done and rob was amazing and so was Kristen.
I can't wait till new moon!