Chapter eight: Frustration

It had been a couple of weeks since I spoke to Charlie and since then I had called my mom to let her know that I was getting married in a couple of months. That didn't go so well.

"Bella, why? Why are you getting married now?" my mother asked with a mixture of anger and worry. "You are too young to get married right now; you still have college to think about."

"Mom I am going to college, Edward and I was accepted to the same school and we will be going together."

"Still Bella you are a little girl."

"No mom I am not a little girl, I am young yes, but I know that I love Edward and that he loves me just as much."

"Honey please think about this, at least wait until…"

"No mom, I am not going to wait. I am going to marry Edward in August and I would really like it if you and Phil can make it. It's a time that I would like to share with you."

"But Bella honey, right out of high school?"

"Yes, but don't tell me you are going to judge me on that fact," she was quiet for a little bit. When she finally spoke she was really angry.

"Bella just because I got married out of high school doesn't mean that you can."

"Mom, please. Give me a little more credit than that. I am just saying that you can't honestly tell me it's something I cannot do. You married Charlie, but just because your marriage failed doesn't mean that my marriage with Edward will." I can tell I hit a nerve.

"Well if you think you know so much you don't need me anymore than."

"No mom that is not wha…"

"No Bella its fine. I will leave you to your happy life and I hope that all YOUR wishes come true and that you get the happy life that you deserve."

"Mom stop being silly and think about what you are saying."

"Oh so now I am silly? I am just a ditz who doesn't know what she is saying. Well Bella honey you have a fabulous wedding and a happily ever after," then she hung up the phone. I just stared at the receiver for a while and Edward came in and forced the phone out of my hand and returned it to its cradle. He sat next to me and put his hand on my cheek and turned me to face him.

"I take it, it did not go as you would have liked." I shook my head and moved to his lap. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I rested my head on his shoulder. "They will be there Bella." I know he was trying to encourage me, but it wasn't working.

"No Edward. Don't say that, I know you just want me to feel better but that will not do it right now. I just lost my best friend, my mother, and my father," he began to look pained to know that I felt so much loss. "But, I have you," I rested a hand on his cheek, "and the rest of your family. Or should I say our family?" He pulled my hand from his cheek to his lips and kissed my palm, "Either way, I have you all and I am more than fine with that," and I kissed his lips lightly and he pulled me in tight and soon our kiss became passionate and deep. Then as always before things got too out of hand he pulled away leaving my cheeks and lips on fire. He gave me his perfect crooked smile.

"So what are the plans for the day my love?" he asked. I did not know what to say. I was still bothered by the conversation I had just had with Renee.

"I need to think. Can we go to our meadow?" I asked sheepishly. He smiled, nodded and lifted me to my feet. We walked to the front door and I hopped onto his back wrapped my arms around his neck tight, closed my eyes and buried my face into his shoulder. Once he knew I was secure he took off running. It took us a few minutes to get to our meadow, but once I was there and laid in the grass I could feel my nerves calm. I closed my eyes and thought about the past couple of weeks. Then I realized, the one relationship I thought would heat up and end was the only calm conversation I had, and maybe even some acceptance.

"What are you thinking my love," my angel asked from his place at my side.

"I am just barely seeing the irony in my situation and it is a bit entertaining," I said with a small smile. He propped himself up on his elbow and looked down into my eyes.

"Care to explain those thoughts love?"

I giggled, "Well I was just thinking that the one person I thought would cause the biggest scene and show the most anger gave me all the acceptance and peace from the other two." Edward gave me a confused look. "Okay so I knew I wasn't going to get peace and acceptance at all from them, but I thought I would get some understanding. Instead I got desertion." I looked down, feeling sorry for myself because I would not want anyone else to feel it for me, but Edward lifted my face with a finger and smiled down to me.

"Bella it is not wrong for you to feel that your parents should respect your wishes. Although they are also free to make of the situation what they will. Like you said their involvement is completely up to them." I rested my cheek in his palm and sighed. He was right, I knew they had a right to be angry, but to now enough to not want me around? I couldn't take that. In time I will see if they grow to accept us and be in my life. Then again, maybe this is better. They chose not to be in my life so I do not have to worry about my actual decision and I wouldn't have to lie about it.

After that I just curled up against my angel and closed my eyes and began to day dream of what my life was going to be like after I changed. I did not really have high hopes for a power I figured I was too ordinary and that should be the least of my worries. It would actually be great if I did not gain a power that way the Volturi would have no reason to come anywhere near me or my family because I was done being the source of trouble for them.