Yesterday...
Edward had me cradled in his chest on the couch in his room. We had just finished talking about what we had to do tomorrow, but there was still one more thing that I wanted to tell Charlie tomorrow that Edward and I hadn't talked about yet.
"Edward."
"Hmm." he was inhaling/kissing in circles in the curve of my neck, if my mind wasn't so stressed, scared, full I probably would have been light headed by now.
"Um there's one more thing that I want to tell Charlie tomorrow."
He stopped dead ((Get it dead...anyway)) in his kissing/inhaling circles. "No." It was mumbled against my skin, but I still could hear the sterness in it.
"But Edward I think he has a right to know."
"No."
"But-"
"No." he started his circles on my neck again, closing the subject, or so he thought.
"Why?"
He pulled away from my neck then flipped me over so that we were facing eachother. He cupped my warm, gentle face with his strong, cold hands. My eyes got locked in his intense stare. There was something in that stare that I didn't see at first it was so tiny. It was sadness.
"Because what are you going to say when he asks who the father is?" that's what this was about, the fact that he didn't believe/trust me on that subject.
"Edward Mason-Cullen, the love of my life." I wasn't going to let him win. "Because if I said the love of my existence, he might take that differently. I think existence would be too strong of a word for him. Don't you?" I smiled at him sweetly.
Edward returned the smile, but not fully, "Let's wait until we know for sure." I had to strain to hear him say it. His voice was weak and dripping with sorrow and doubt.
I was getting sick of him not believing me. Of everyone not believing me. Anger pulsed hotly through my veins. Suddenly I wanted to throw something at the wall. Before I was responsible for a big hole in the wall I decided to leave. I pushed against Edward's chest, trying to get down. He saw what I was trying to do, and reluctantly with a faint sigh sat up. I ended up in his lap.
"No Bella! Please don't go!" Alice yelled from downstairs. "Rose and I were gonna do your nails!"
I stood up and started to walk out of the room, when I was stopped by Edward's hand pulling mine.
"Bella," his voice was still the same "please let's talk about this." Hadn't that been what I was trying to do, and he just kept shutting me out?
"I already tried." I tried to pull free from his hand, with no success. "I'm leaving now." my voice sounded meaner than I meant it to.
He looked at me. I thought he was going to give in, so I turned around and was gonna storm out of the room quickly. I started to 'storm' but let out a gasp.
"Edward let go." when he didn't respond I added. "You're hurting me." His eyes were hard, firm. Then they softened a little and his grip loosened.
"Bella sit down so we can talk."
"I tried to talk and you just cut me off, again. Now I'm going home." He still didn't let go of my arm. I pulled harder. Either he let go or my arm popped out of the socket, his choice. He finally let go, making me fall flat on the floor. Well I would have anyway. He caught me and scooped me up. Sitting on the couch he still didn't let go.
"Are you gonna talk about this or are you going to leave?"
"Well I really don't have a choice, do I?" he shook his head. "Then I guess I'm gonna stay and talk." his frame relaxed and he was no longer holding me against my will but craddling me, like he had so many times.
"What are you really gonna tell Charlie?" it was a whisper in my hair.
"That you're the father and that it only happened once, and that we used protection but it didn't work." Charlie'd buy that, wouldn't he?
Edward was quiet, thoughtful for I don't know how long. "Okay." he said it so suddenly that I thought I was imagining it.
"What?"
"Okay. We can tell him tomorrow." he looked at me and smiled.
"Really?" I sounded like an eager five year old who was just promised a pony, but I didn't care. If I was five then this was my pony.
"Yes. We'll tell him tomorrow. Together."
I kissed him and he kissed back. "Thank you." I said when we parted so I could get air.
"I'm sorry love. I should have been more open minded about it. If you wanted to tell him it was your decision."
"But it's your decision too..." I knew he was gonna bring up what I said next later, "I guess I'm kinda moody."
He laughed and that noise alone made my heart flutter. "Yes Bella, love, you are very moody."
"Oh really?"
"Yes. You are the moodiest human I've ever had sex with." I pretended to look shocked.
"You mean you weren't a virgin. Wow you fooled me."
"Oh really?" Then we were rolling on the floor and next thing he was on top of me. He leaned down and kissed me.
This wasn't one of his normal kisses though. It started out like it always did, lips closed, then I felt him open his mouth and found myself doing the same. My skin tingled where his hand wandered up my leg, stopping on my upper thigh. My heart almost gave up on me and I let out a gasp as his tongue wandered into my mouth, and his hand that had been on my thigh went up to below my chest.. His tongue played with mine and I went light headed. Chuckling he pulled away and let me gasp for air.
"Still think I'm a virgin?" he asked as he rolled off me. I noticed that he was trying to cover the fact that he was panting also.
I giggled,"Yah I know that you're not. I was there." He rolled back on top of me and started kissing and touching the outline of my bra again. I felt his hand move up farther then-
"Bella! Edward! I wouldn't do that! Bella has to get home soon!!"
Edward and I both moaned loudly as he peeled us apart and rolled onto the floor, again. We were both panting and gasping for air.
"Bella!!"
Edward growled as he sat up, "Alice bug off!! You ruined it!" she must have made a remark in her head because I saw Edward's eyes flash and then he was gone. I heard a crash and screaming from downstairs.
"Esme! Edward threw me into the wall!" There was another crash..."Esme!! Help me!! Jasper!!" I heard Jasper chuckling from down the hall.
"I'm coming Alice..." I finally ended up saying, seeing that Jasper was laughing too hard to go help his own lover. As I ran out of Edward's golden room, I thought that there was no where else that I'd rather be than here. I couldn't wait to spend eternity with this family. And couldn't wait to give Edward a baby, his baby.