But now, she was screamed to her inner bones. The question was if she needed the sleep. Could she just stay awake instead of fall asleep.

Maybe he didn't come tonight

His smell. Her heart jumped, not again

A very odd dream, full of emotions and disappointing signs that didn't leave her alone. She had always felt secure on Naboo. But these past days had been nothing but scary and odd. Nothing like her glory days. She walked to the mirror and was her brayed hair on one side, looking in her own eyes they felt cold and old. Like the belonged to a other person, older experienced women in her eighties. Not hers.

It felt like forever, and her entire life flashed her by in the mirror.

At the moment all she wanted was to leave the planet, find a new problem out there and get it done. Not staying here with this weird feeling in her heart that her entire world would change very soon. Something she really didn't see herself ready for at all. Being calm, something she was famous for, was not some thing she couldn't find in her mind. All that training Obi-Wan had made her do, all for nothing, seemed to have gone away. Her safety was on her spaceship, and she wasn't there, she was standing in her old room.

With a heavy heart, she turned her back to the mirror. Not knowing what was awaiting her in the other room.

Sola wasn't happy, and she didn't do anything to hide her feelings towards the blonde woman sitting in the chair next to her. Obi-Wan had a quiet conversation with a man in the other corner, she had never seen the man before. That concerned her, and what was worse was that they were here to talk to her sister.

What would Kylantha want to talk to her sister about?

And why at all care about her sisters safety, she was the woman who didn't want Padmé to get back.

It was a tense air in the room, she didn't have to be a Jedi to feel it. It was to easy. Quiet footsteps walking towards the door, made every person in the room look at the door. Sola didn't care that the queen herself was in the room, she rose to her feet to greet the person who was on its way in. But was stopped at the door by one of Kylantha's guards.

" Excuse me? "

" It's okey " She heard the calm voice of Kylantha say behind her back. It made her blood boil for a short second that she held the power in her own house. But as she reached for the door and she saw her sisters face in the hallway, she started to feel calm again.

" Hi? " She looked at Sola suspicious. She never answered her sisters question, just opened the door a little bit more to show the others in the room. Padmé looked tiered at once, only her cold eyes. Nothing else in her little sister showed it, but her eyes.

" Padmé Naberrie! " Kylantha was on her feet looking at the two sisters. Nodded and looked more intense on Padmé

" Can I have a word with you? " Padmé walked into the room " In private? " Sola reacted, turning around looking angry at the blonde woman.

" Sola! " Padmés voice stopped her before she had the chance to say anything " You can all leave us? " She pronounced the word all, a little extra, and it was something cold about the words she said. Sola just looked at Padmé and walked out from the room. Waiting in the hall.

Padmé only was Sola in the door opening, but those eyes was the ones she had grown up with and when she didn't even answer her question, she knew it was something off. And it was, the queen was in her house. It felt almost like an insult right into her face for her. But she couldn't deny the queen her percents.

" Padmé Naberrie, I can't say I'm happy to be here " She started, not such a good start for a conversation in Padmés eyes.

" Well, I can't say anything different " Didn't feel like she had to be more softer then Kylantha, or warmer.

" Straight to the point, you don't want me here for to long, it's about the letter! " Padmé looked at her, didn't show any emotions what so ever. That was something she had learned in all those trips around in the universe.

" Yes? You were talking about something about hate for one person " Padmé had no interest in the dead, so why even ask about it. They were already dead if they were. Kylantha took her seat once more in the chair, just like Padmé did. But in a safe distance away from her. Might be respect somewhere in her heart. Not that she would show her that, she was her queen nothing more nothing less.

" Better for you to love your family, then love me and be dead. That's why I won't say 'happy staying' but I will say a 'happy good bye' 'Cause then we'll know you will survive here "

She made a dramatic pause, something Padmé knew she had learnt in the capital, and the school the 'good' girls went to.

" Can you tell me, straight out, what your doing? " All she wanted was straight answers, They had nothing more. Just questions and answers. It was questions that needed answers, that was it.

" No, not if you want to be alive " She said easy as if it was just air coming out " What I can tell you, is to be careful "

" I have been, always! " She corrected the serious blonde who looked a bit shocked at her words, weak spot " What is so dangerous that the calm queen can't tell what might be the death of the former queen? " Padmé looked into the queens eyes, knowing that she would win, just a matter if time

" You know who I am, what I have done, and what I can do. What and who is my threat? "

" Yes, I know exactly what you can do. But under no circumstances can I tell you who it is, only that the person are watching us right now " That was cryptic, Padmé didn't like it.

" Only one? "

" One! "

" They have to be more then one to be a threat to me. Every one know that! Who? " The last word was nothing that could be connected with friendly. It was as cold as her eyes at the moment.

" Can't pronounce the name " She avoided to answer.

" What sex? If you can't say the name, tell me who it is " This was not a question, this was a command. Something the queen was not used to. She was very offended, this was shown by her face.

" Male "

" Good, next! " Kylantha didn't want to look her in the eyes. She acted like a child in front of the former queen. Suddenly she rose to her feet and didn't say a word. Until she reached the door. Turned around and looked at the brunette.

" I'll tell you, when you need to know. But don't contact me, I'm your queen. Your not the queen anymore, don't act like one" She stated and walked out. Padmé didn't understand, why she acted like she did. At first she got the impression that Kylantha was protecting her, in the end it felt like she was protecting herself.

A frosty conversation outside the not closed door, was heard and then people leaving her parents house. For a short moment the entire house was quiet, then she heard her sisters quiet voice talk to Obi-Wan. Padmé was tired of words. Looking at the shadows behind the door, she had no intentions to talk to them now.

The window was open due to the heat in the room.

A huge deep sign and she decide that the dress isn't to much in the way.

He just watched from abroad, behind the garden he could see two other figures. One of them he knew very well. One he had never visited in the years of a life he had in shadow. He wanted to when it only had been just a month or even less.

But he couldn't possibly do that with out being caught as a traitor by the new council and police on Coruscant. But his old friend didn't seem to miss him to much. Some rules must have been re made since his last visit to Coruscant.

Feelings are not to be made or formed. That had been his anger in all his years as a Jedi. It had been what had forced him to do it all. But it had been her, his only one, who had turned it around.

He could never forget that day it haunted him like the ghost of his mother. It had been the two things he never could get into his mind why it all happened to him.

Watching the two figures walking hand in hand, not bothering to hid their emotions. It was a knife that had hit him, a knife of pain. That could have been he and Padmé to, but it wasn't. Thinking about her made him turn his head around to see her getting closer to him. With out making any sound at all, he walked away a few meters so she wouldn't see him. It had started.

His heart made a few flips as he saw her face turn around and her hair flew like a soft flowered wind, he could feel her soft hair curls even thought they weren't near him. But he missed her, so much.

She picked out flowers as she walked over the grass, a smaller copy of her walked behind her. Smiling and happy, but something in the air made him wonder if she really was.

She seemed tense when she walked, stressed by something. Like she was worried about her safety and others. He remembered her face, for a second there she let it through she showed her concerned about something he had no idea off what it could be.

A strong emotion came over him, he wanted to scream to her, ask what was wrong.

Nothing could describe his emotions for her.

Obi-Wan felt it instantly. Looking over at Sola, who walked beside him. It wasn't her emotions, she tried not to show them to much. But this was so intense, so strong, angry and loving he could understand where it came from. Looking over to his sister-in-law it wasn't from her either. She was most worried, felt sad as always these days. This was a new emotion, uncontrollable and it was like fire against all this calm around them. He tried to locate it, but it seemed to be everywhere.

" What's wrong, honey? " Sola had her beautiful eyes locked with his.

" Oh, sorry! " He had a fake smile, he could feel that, on his lips " Nothing, nothing Sola. It's fine "

" Okey, now I know your lying now " She had stopped him and stared into his eyes " What is it Obi? "

" It's just a strange feeling in the force " He admitted, but not really show how bad it might be.

" But it's not concerning her right? " Sola looked worried over to her younger sister who walked with one of their cousins children, teaching. And what it looked like from this distance, didn't have any worries in the universe. But knowing Padmé, she would never show her worries or concern to anyone, not in public.

" No! " He lied to his fiancée. Knowing if something happened to Sola's sister, his head would be very lose in her eyes. He didn't lie to her usually so it felt odd. Not something he liked that much.

" Maybe we should get back "

That exact night, a soft knock is heard on Padmés window towards the garden.

She wasn't in bed yet, luckily for her. Because that had been a warning. Two seconds later she heard someone loading a gun. Dewing down her desk, she merely comes into safety before the shooting starts.

She was panicking, alone and scared. She admitted she was terrified. Shouldn't been but she was, so many attempts on her life, she should been used to it by now. But never she would be used to feeling that nobody really wanted her alive. Only one single tear is crawling down her cheek.

Suddenly it stops, quiet for a second.

Then two fists trying to knock someone down. A fight out side her window, but she was to scared to look out side. Just looking around her room from her hiding spot, all she could do was to cry. Her bed was totally ruined and the opposite wall with pictures from her youth was destroyed by holes. Small sobs was all she could come up with from her throat.

Someone was knocked down, she heard a scream and the abrupt silence.

It was a oddly feeling crawling up her spine.

She had heard a very familiar sound. But it didn't stick in her mind, it was her past that was taken away from her. Seeing all her memories on the wall burn slowly as some of them are just destroyed as the faces of her family are just holes. It was a strike into her heart, someone killed her emotionally, even though her absolute favourite photo had already been destroyed. Could hear footsteps running down the corridor, and the second later.

Her mother stands in the door screaming as she can't see her daughter. Shortly after her father is in the door, looking first at the wall the directly at her. Padmé couldn't hear the voices above her, she is shocked by the sound before the sight in front of her as the memories of her happy time as a child is destroyed on the wall.

She is walked away with her mother.

And for the first time in many years, she is sleeping in the loving arms of her mother.

Obi-Wan searched the garden. No signs of where the dead man got there. But the worst part was, a Jedi seemed to be the killer. No one else had that kind of a weapon that sliced a human like that.

It had to be a lightsaber that killed the man.

Sola didn't want him out there, but as Padmé wasn't back to her normal state. She was to occupied to notice that he went out. His instincts acted for him and he could see Yoda as a halo image in the garden. Knowing that he was talking to the council as he said the first two words.

" There is a problem master Yoda " He started, and his master looked sad. That normal look he had as you started your conversation like that.

" What have you found young master? " Yoda's voice seemed old suddenly.

" Someone tried to take the life of Padmé Amidala last night "

" So we heard the news, Master Kenobi " The voice and halo of Master Windu came instead of Yoda's " Luckily for all you were there to stop the action " He could see them all with their proud faces that the Jedi had saved such a important person to the life of many. And here he would come to ruin their news they apparently got wrong.

" Master Windu, I'm sorry but you must have gotten the news wrong…"

" You didn't save Padmé? She is dead? " Master Windu asked shocked.

" Padmé is with her sister Sola, inside. But we have no idea who her saviour were " He said slowly " The most disturbing circumstances around Padmés murderer, is not a good story. I got the queen to change the fact around it " He admitted.

" What is it that is frighten you so much, Obi-Wan? " The young master Hanoi, a young Jedi just begun her time on the council " You seem to be afraid of our respond " And she was right, he was. Because it was his worst fear, but his only hope and what he was longing for.

" The cause of death for the man is… " He didn't know if he wanted to tell them, or just hid somewhere faraway

" It was a lightsaber "

There was a thick silence between the halo figure of Master Hanoi and himself. No words, but the quiet wind that played just in silence with his light cape.

" Disturbing news you bring, Obi-Wan! Yoda declared after a minute of silence " You sure of fact? "

" I was the one who found the body, who had the first look. I'm defiantly sure about the fact " Obi-Wan made a brief sigh and started to breath again.

" You know what that might mean Obi-Wan. We never found the body " Master Hanoi said with concern in her voice. A bit worried about his answer that would come " Is it safe for anyone to be on Naboo? Specially you and young Padmé Naberrie " Strange to say Young to Padmé, thinking about it Hanoi was three years younger then the brunette inside.

" I wouldn't be worried about Padmé. What I'm worried about is 'him' " He admitted no idea in lying to a whole council of Jedi's.

" We all know you were his master, but you can't hesitate. Knowing what he have done in the past " Master Windu's voice told him. He must be brought back to Coruscant, must be brought in front of the council. Obi-Wan knew that fact all to well.

Something in his heart became heavy by the words coming at him. A short good bye and he left the garden as fast as he could, didn't walk back in, but to the small river next to the house.

Waking up after a night of terror, it was the same as always. You wake up with your breath in your throat, trying to calm yourself down again. All just to keep yourself to the thought that you are really alive again, your not dead. They tried, but they filed and you won. You showed them that your the stronger one, and you are a survivor.

But still you feel extremely venerable and fragile, shaking like a leaf.

No one was in the room she woke up in, didn't connect in her brain at first. But then she realised she was in her parents bed. Felt safe waking up there, but she felt so tiered and wounded. On what she felt shaky legs she came up from the bed. She had the wall to hold her up as she walked the few meters from her safety in the bed to the door.

Then looking out in the hallway she didn't see anyone near. Finally her legs beard her weight, and she could walk on steady legs to her door. It wasn't closed, and inside she could see her mother stand beside the window. And her room was empty.

" What time is it? " The question woke her mother up, looking sad at her daughter.

" It's afternoon sweetie " She answered with a tiered voice. Padmé walked into the room, nothing was left. Totally empty and hallow.

" What have you done? " She had a small shock in her voice, and she was shocked.

" We couldn't have it like it was... " She walked towards her daughter and took her in a hug " I'm so sorry, sweetie. But we couldn't... "

" I know! I know mother "

Blood was dripping from his arm. But the pain was nothing, all the scars his body had. It was just a other one. And he gladly took it for her, all he did after all was for her. He wasn't about to just leave her like that. The only mistake was to leave that huge clue behind. The cold stones under his booths made the whole hallway echo after him. Knocking on the door, no answer. One more knock.

" Yes? " A guard looked out the door, first searching the hallway then looking at him.

" I'm here to see the Queen of Naboo! " He answered with a no tone. Using the force to make him pass the guard without any more questions. Walking into the study the Queen had in the palace. Finding Kylantha in a book behind her desk, no body else but two more guards by the window behind her.

" You made an ass of yourself " The young queen said without looking at him, but continued to read the papers " First you go against me, then you protect her. I don't want her here " She stated very harsh, or as harsh as she could.

" Leave us! " He said in a strong voice to the three guards. Kylantha looked at him, with cold eyes.

" They stay! Tell me what's going on and what you are. Now! " She demanded like the spoiled child she was. She was used to get what she wanted, it was shown in her eyes. What he didn't like was her emotions towards him, he felt it every time she knew he was around. She started to pump a amount of blood around, only a woman in a certain emotional state would do. And he knew that very well.

" You know who I am " He answered back with a clam voice, after years of not being aloud to show who he was. He was used to shape his voice into someone else. The calm one. Nothing like the old him, the young and spiritual and the Jedi who was controlled by his feelings

" I am the man who saved you to many times that you can't count "

" But still you haven't given me any name to call you "

" You don't have to have a name to know who I am, or might have been or am at this point! " He said coldly, with a stern voice. " You shouldn't ask again, you understand? " The cold feeling was still there and all she could do was to nod.

" Then why are you here? " She tried to act without emotions, didn't work so good.

" Your gonna tell me what was in that letter " Kylantha looked at him in shock.

" I want you to leave! " She was furious.

" You are gonna answer my question "

Okee so a new year... yeah I no' its been a while, but there was a new chapter and all...

Keep on the reviewing plz... I really needed to countinue :p

Anyhow ... hoped u enjoyed it!

Love S