A/N: Wow, I'm so sorry it's taken so long. Between travelling so much, vacations, and just life in general, my story has had to take a backseat. My apologies, to those that were still interested in this piece. I'm easing my way back into things, so hopefully this doesn't disappoint. The beginning (in italics) is a quick reminder of the ending of the previous chapter. Leave me some feedback, let me know your thoughts...hope this doesn't totally disappoint.
Disclaimer: No change here...never has, never will!
"Not Kyla," Spencer stated. "You're not disappointed, right?"
Ashley looked down and then back up at the blonde before shaking her head no.
"But, where's..."
"She's in my office," Spencer cut the brunette off, while staring to the side, playing with her fingers. "She's staying there tonight...so I can be here with you..." Spencer admitted, meeting Ashley's gaze, "I mean, if that's okay."
Ashley dropped the clothes in her hand and made her way over to the blonde standing in front of her, taking her right hand in her own and placing her other hand on the girl's cheek.
"It's more than okay," Ashley whispered. "You look so beautiful."
Spencer could feel her cheeks turning red at Ashley's compliment, but couldn't control the smile that graced her lips.
Ashley took a step back, not wanting to rush this moment, and pulled Spencer further into her room.
"Have a seat Spence, let me just get changed and we can watch a movie or something."
"Umm…okay. That sounds good."
Stopping in the doorway to the bathroom, Ashley turned around, watching Spencer sitting in her favorite, over-sized chair, just staring at her fingers.
"Do you want something to sleep in, Spence? I can't imagine that what you have on will be very comfortable," Ashley asked, smiling at the blonde in front of her.
Spencer simply nodded her head and whispered out a quiet, 'sure, thanks.'
Ashley took note of Spencer's demeanor, wondering why she appeared so downtrodden, but grabbed her some clothes and sat them in her lap before retreating to the bathroom to change as well. I'll have to ask her later why she seems so sad, Ashley thought.
After getting changed, Ashley took one step back into the room and noticed Spencer was just pulling the borrowed t-shirt over her head. Ashley couldn't help but stare at the smooth, ceramic-like skin of Spencer's back. Getting lost in her thoughts, Ashley didn't notice Spencer had finished dressing and was now turned and facing her.
"That hideous?" Spencer inquired, with raised brows.
Ashley looked up instantly, meeting Spencer's eyes, and shook her head no.
"Umm…no, not at all…quite the opposite actually," Ashley embarrassingly admitted.
Spencer grinned at how shy the brunette instantly became, and took a few steps forward, grasping Ashley's hands and pulling her over to the bed…motioning for her to sit down next to her.
Spencer kept hold of Ashley's hands as she started to inhale deeply, "Ash, we have some things we need to talk about…"
"I know Spencer," Ashley replied, cutting Spencer off before she could finish, "I just want you to know that I'm sorry about the other day. I just freaked out…and I got scared…and I don't know, I guess I just shut down…which isn't the healthiest thing to do, I know, but all this…" she motioned between them with her hand, still holding Spencer's hand, "it's got me scared shitless, Spence."
Spencer couldn't help the grin that was creeping across her face, or the giggle that made its way out of her chest.
"What's so funny?" Ashley asked, sounding a little hurt.
"You're just really cute when you start rambling."
Ashley turned a darker shade of crimson and bowed her head, avoiding eye-contact.
Spencer ran her hand across Ashley's cheek and down to her chin, slowly tilting her face up to meet her eyes. She smiled the instant they made eye contact.
"Ashley, you are…" Spencer's smile grew as she got lost in the brunette's eyes, "you are…absolutely amazing."
Ashley exhaled the breath she was anonymously holding hostage, and reached out to tuck a stray strand of blonde hair behind Spencer's ear.
Spencer leaned forward, capturing Ashley's waiting lips in a soft, yet searing kiss.
Hands over hands, hearts to hearts, breath to breath…Spencer relished in the butterflies tumbling around in her stomach and her heightened pulse and heart rate.
Touching her warm tongue to Ashley's bottom lip, Spencer begged for entrance into the safe haven of Ashley's mouth…and was granted immediate access.
The moment their tongues met, Ashley released a low moan from deep inside her throat, instantly pushing Spencer down on her bed and straddling her, ultimately breaking their kiss.
Spencer couldn't help but smile at the want and need she could read in Ashley's eyes. The girl's vibrant eyes were now a deep, dark, brown - almost black - as they roamed over Spencer's features.
"Anxious much? You just pushed me over like you were a linebacker," Spencer chuckled.
Ashley smirked, running her thumb across Spencer's bottom lip, only to have the doctor take her thumb into her mouth and suck gently on the tip.
"Who's anxious now?" Ashley whispered, smirk still in place.
Spencer released her love's thumb and reached forward, pulling Ashley's face toward her, crashing their lips together once again.
"Mmm…Ashley that feels so good," Spencer moaned as the brunetted moved down her neck, lightly sucking on her pulse point.
Ashley smiled against Spencer's neck, knowing she was causing the moans that were filling her ears and increasing the heat between her thighs.
"God, Ash…I want you so bad right now," Spencer breathed out.
Ashley pulled back and stared at Spencer with a slight hesitance, "Are you sure about this, Spence? I mean, I know there is a lot we need to talk about, and I just want you to be sure this is okay," Ashley spoke, her voice laced with such emotion.
Before Spencer could allow herself to think rationally she pulled Ashley down to her, allowing the brunette's weight to pin her to the bed in the most delicious manner. Placing a kiss on her cheek, then allowing her nose to lightly brush against Ashley's before whispering in her ear, "I need you baby...please."
Needing no other reassurance, Ashley brought their lips together again, immediately deepening the kiss and relishing in the feel of Spencer's warm tongue massaging her own. Getting lost in the kiss, Ashley allowed her hands to begin to roam over her blonde's body, slipping her fingertips underneath the hem of her shirt and sliding upwards, tracing patterns on her skin as she went.
Spencer felt as though her skin was on fire, feeling every touch from Ashley. She quickly covered Ashley's hands with her own and brought them back to the hem of her shirt, helping Ashley remove the offending garment...only breaking their kiss as she brought the shirt over her head.
Ashley stared down at the girl underneath her and sighed, "So beautiful..." she whispered before leaning down to capture a hardening nipple in her mouth. She sucked the nipple in a soothing manner before taking it between her teeth, biting down slightly and pulling it toward her.
Spencer gasped at the feelings she was experiencing. She felt lightheaded and dizzy with desire as she watched Ashley switch to her other breast, lavishing it with the same attention.
"God, Ash...that feels...incredible," Spencer moaned, running her hands through the curly brunette locks before her.
Ashley raised her head to Spencer, kissing her softly, before making her way down the blonde's body, leaving a trail of heat in her wake. Swirling her tongue softly around each nipple along the way, and allowing her hands to mark their own path down her lover's body, slowly making their way under Spencer's lower back. She hooked her fingers in the borrowed shorts and slowly pulled them from her girl's body.
Ashley placed a kiss on Spencer's inner thigh before slowly spreading her legs and settling down to inhale the scent of her lover. She felt her insides tumble as she leaned forward for her first, tentative, taste.
"Oh God..." Spencer exhaled, bucking her hips forward, seeking more contact.
Ashley smiled, reaching forward to hold the girls hips down...allowing her tongue to circle the engorged clit of the girl she loved so much.
"Mmmm..." Ashley hummed against her clit before suckling it. "You taste so good."
Spencer's hands found their way into Ashley's hair as she pulled her into her even further.
Taking one long lick, Ashley moved up Spencer's body and kissed her lover while entering her at the same time. Spencer gasped into the kiss, but allowed her tongue to fight for dominance, tasting herself in the kiss.
Ashley continued pushing deeper, and deeper, as Spencer's breaths became increasingly ragged.
"So close baby...uhnn...go deeper," Spencer moaned.
With one final thrust, Ashley felt Spencer clamp down hard around her fingers and kissed her mouth closed to keep her from screaming aloud.
As her breathing slowed to a more normal pace, Spencer felt the tears release themselves from her eyes as she pulled her love closer to her.
Ashley held the trembling blonde before feeling a tear transfer to her arm. Looking up, she saw crystal blue eyes staring back at her with love and sadness.
"Spencer?" Ashley questioned. "Baby, what's wrong? Why are you crying?"
Spencer grinned slightly before breaking completely in the arms of the girl who held her heart.
"I have never felt more alive than I do at this moment, Ash," Spencer choked out. "I love you so much more than I ever dreamed possible."
"Is there a 'but' in this, Spencer?"
"No, there is no 'but.' I love you completely. Nothing will ever change that. I hope you know that," Spencer confessed, feeling the beginning pangs of guilt wash over her.
I just made love to the most beautiful woman, and now I have to tell her I'm leaving her. I'm going to break her. This is all my fault.
Ashley pulled her blonde beauty into her side and wrapped her arms around her. "Just sleep baby. I love you so much, and tomorrow is a new beginning for us."
I hope she still means that tomorrow, Spencer thought, before closing her eyes to enjoy being in the warm arms of her lover, if only for the night.