The room was glowing red as Ashley slowly opened her eyes. In the corner of her room, on the small round table, sat her alarm clock; numbers glowing and staring back at Ashley in a dominating manner.

3:26 am

Turning her gaze back to her bed, Ashley realized she was alone.

Scanning her small living quarters, Ashley found her missing link sitting in the round chair, staring out the window into almost complete darkness. The red glow played off the blonde's face in the most solemn of ways.

"Spencer?" Ashley whispered into the night.

Ashley twisted her body, dangling her legs over the side of the bed, so she could face the girl before her.

"Spence?"

Craning her neck forward, propelling the rest of her body into an upright position, Ashley scuffed here way across the room toward her heart.

Spencer had not moved a muscle the entire time Ashley was waking up and calling out to her. She was lost in the darkness she stared into, and wasn't sure she wanted to come back out. She woke in a panic around 2 am, needing to put some physical distance between herself and Ashley. The guilt rushing over her body was almost too much to handle, with Ashley being so close to her. She crawled out of bed and took residence in the current chair, before losing herself in darkness.

Ashley was kneeled down in front of Spencer, one hand resting on the girl's knee as the other gripped the side of the chair for balance. She wasn't sure she was fully awake just yet, but she could tell Spencer was totally lost in the night.

"Spencer," Ashley breathed again, a little louder than before.

The voice rang loudly in Spencer's ears as she slowly dropped her eyes to the girl in front of her. Allowing a small, tentative grin to grace her lips, Spencer covered the hand on her knee with her own.

"Where did you go? I woke up alone and was afraid you'd left me."

The vulnerability in Ashley's voice shook Spencer to the core. She was starting to hate herself even more.

Reaching forward with her free hand, Spencer cradled the brunettes face in her palm, lightly running her thumb across her cheek.

"You are so beautiful," Spencer whispered, her voice breaking just slightly.

"Spence, you're starting to scare me a little here. Are you okay?"

Nodding her head, she clasped Ashley's hand pulling her toward her and into the chair she was occupying. Ashley moved slightly to adjust herself, and then settled down in the blonde's lap, allowing both arms to wrap around her lover's neck.

Spencer nuzzled into the neck of the girl in her arms and breathed deeply the scent of the woman she loved more every day.

"I will never walk out of your life again, Ash," Spencered murmured into the smaller girl's neck.

Ashley pulled away slightly, and ducked her head down, capturing the blonde's lips in a warm kiss. Sighing against her mouth, Ashley broke the kiss and started running her fingers through blonde locks.

Having no physical barriers between them, after their earlier activities, Spencer could feel Ashley's heat building against her legs. Against her better judgement, but not being able to stop, she leaned forward and took a firm nipple into her mouth, sucking softly, before raking her teeth across the hard nub.

Ashley moaned softly, pulling her lover closer to her, seeking as much contact as she could find.

Spencer found her hands with a mind of their own as they stroked down Ashley's sides, electricity sparking under her touch.

"God you make me lose all control," the blonde confessed, while exhaling warm puffs of air against her lover's chest.

"Then let go Spencer...let go and lose control in me."

Twisting her head against the brunette's chest in a tortured manner, Spencer ran a hand across the girl's thigh, scratching the skin as she went.

Ashley pulled herself forward and turned in Spencer's lap, effectively straddling the girl. She ran her fingers back through blonde locks, before settling down on the girl's lap.

"Spencer, look at me."

Looking up into pools of darkness, Spencer once again lost herself in the night. Maintaining her grip on the girl's hips, she slowly blinked away any doubts she had and focused on her lover.

"I need you, Spencer," Ashley whispered, before leaning down and touching her lips, in a featherlike manner, to those of her blonde beauty. "I need you inside me."

Groaning at the girl's confession, Spencer ran a hand down a delicate hip, across a thigh, and instantly entered Ashley with a slender middle finger.

Ashley leaned her forearms on the chairback behind Spencer's shoulders and slowly set the pace as she rose and fell on her lover's finger.

"Baby...more," she whispered into the blonde's ear. "I need more of you."

Wrapping one arm around the brunette, Spencer added another finger, and began to match her lover thrust, for thrust...all while pulling her body closer. She attached her lips to Ashley's collar bone and began leaving a wet trail across her lover's chest.

Ashley could feel stars shining behind her eyes as she crept closer to her climax. She locked her arms behind Spencer's neck and allowed her body to tremor in delight as she started to break loose.

Feeling her lover's body grasp her fingers over and over, Spencer curled them inside her and pushed her completely over the edge.

Slowly regaining her breath, Ashley pulled back slightly to capture Spencer's lips once again, in a deep kiss. Massaging the girl's tongue with her own, and relishing in the feel of her fingers still insider her as she came back down.

Ashley shivered as Spencer removed her fingers and felt her heart leap at Spencer's soft confession of, "I love you."

Standing up on wobbly legs, Ashley pulled the blonde with her, making her way back to the bed. Pulling Spencer down with her, she curled up next to her lover, tracing little patterns across Spencer's stomach.

"Ashley...I have to leave Memories."

All movement from the brunette ceased as she tried to process the words she thought she just heard.

My world will not crash around me. This cannot be happening to me...again. She lied.

Looking over to the clock, Ashley stared at the red numbers threatening her.

5:06 am

Ashley sat up and moved away from Spencer shaking her head.

"You lied."

"No, Ashley...wait a second..."

"NO! You. Lied." Ashley seethed. "You lied...then you fucked me..."

"That is not what happened Ash, you know it. I love you. I most certainly did not just fuck you."

"Well what would you call it Spencer? You tell someone you'll never leave them, get what you want, and then go?"

"I know I should have said something before any of this happened..."

"Yeah, that would have been nice."

"...but you would have reacted the same way. I just need you to hear me out...please, Ash," Spencer begged, on the verge of breaking down.

Ashley, for her part, grew silent. She stared ahead at the wall over Spencer's shoulder and said nothing.

"People are finding out about us, Ash. If I don't go...I may lose my job," Spencer explained. "I don't care about my job, but my license is irreplaceable Ash...and dad offered me a position with him, at his office...so we can work on things once you finish your program. You only have 2 more weeks."

Ashley sat taking in every word Spencer was saying, and in reality, it all made perfect sense...but in her mind, she couldn't stop herself from feeling anger for not being told sooner.

Spencer reached forward and touched Ashley's arm, only to have her jerk away in an instant.

"Do not...touch me. Not now." Ashley pulled the comforter around her body and moved to the other side of her room.

"Ash..."

Ashley raised her hand, effectively cutting Spencer's pleas off before she could utter another word.

"You should go," Ashley stated with little emotion.

"Ashley, please."

Shaking her head, Ashley refused to back down, "You really should go...and now, before I lose myself completely, and I don't want to do that Spencer. I know I love you. I know this is best for you... but I feel broken...a-and...used...and...I just need to not be near you right now."

"Ashley, please...I love you..m-more than anything. Can we please talk about this...please?"

"How about we talk at 9 am, huh, Spence? That's my next 'session' with you," Ashley bitterly suggested.

Spencer's head dropped, as the weight of the situation sat on her shoulders.

Standing from her spot, she started moving about the room in a slow manner.

"Let me just get my things...and I'll go."

Placing a hand, tentatively on the blonde's forearm, Ashley whispered, "I still love you," without ever making any eye contact.

Spencer just nodded and headed into the bathroom to re-group before leaving a girl she wasn't sure would ever want to see her again.