Ok everyone sorry for the LONG wait. I know it's been A LONG time between chapters and I hope this chapter makes up for it! Forgive me if it is a bit stilted and not that good in the beginning but that part gave me trouble and for the life of me I can't figure out what to do to fix it.

First warning... This chapter is quite long (something that I also hope with put me in good graces with the masses...) and

Second warning... SMUT ALERT. There is explicit sex in this chapter. If you do not like smut only read the first portion (there is vital info in the first 500 words!) then skip to the end. All those that do like smut (Everyone right?) enjoy! Oh and another note. The next chapter will almost probably be smutty also.

Attn: I don't own John or Natalie or any other OLTL character. I do own everyone else though.

Chapter 13

John lay in bed, his arms wrapped around the gorgeous redhead he had come to love. The past three weeks had been the weirdest yet the happiest he had ever known. His job was going well and when he wasn't working he was spending all his free time with Natalie. Natalie... Just her name could make his heart skip a beat. He felt so much for her and he didn't ever want to stop.

The past three weeks had been hard for Natalie. After the robbery and then the attack on Antonio she had started sleepwalking. A week after the robbery she had called him in the middle of the night crying. She had woken up in the middle of the lawn at Llanfair and didn't know how she had gotten there. After that Her mom had had to fly to London for a heart procedure and Jessica, true to her nature, had abandoned Natalie in favor of taking car of Antonio, leaving Natalie alone at Llanfair. Rex had been practically attached to Natalie's side however and John was forever grateful for that.

The bond between Rex and Natalie was something special and he was glad that she had that. But even Rex couldn't e there all the time so John had suggested that Natalie stay with him until Carlo was caught, or at least until she felt safe enough to be on her own. It broke his heart to see such a strong woman be so fearful and Natalie was the strongest woman, the strongest person period, he had ever met. So she had gone back to work and then had started staying with him. They went out and played pool, they went to dinner together and did almost everything else together as well. Their friendship was solid and the undercurrents of desire and affection were pushed aside for the moment.

Until last night... He tightened his hold on her his body becoming hard and aching as he thought back on the previous night.

They had just gotten to his apartment when he had given in to the urge to kiss her. Things had progressed but then he had gotten a phone call from the station about a suspected robbery. Natalie had been staying with him since the attack on Antonio, his attacker was still out there. She was scared to stay alone at Llanfair, Vicki had gone out of town to London for a heart operation and Jessica was staying at the hospital and then at Antonio's until he got better...

He had gone to check out the robbery and when he had come back Natalie had changed for bed and was sitting on it reading a book, with a 9mm sitting on the nightstand next to her, just in case. Naturally he had been surprised about the gun but when he had gazed into her eyes he had lost all train of thought. He had blurted out he loved her and then they had been all over each other.

"I love you Natalie," he blurted out, then his eyes widened in shock. He hadn't meant to say that but he meant it more than he had ever thought possible.

Natalie's gasped in surprised pleasure at that unexpected admission and her eyes flew to his face. She could tell he was just as surprised by his words as she was but she could also tell he meant them, love was written in every line of his face. "I love you too John!" She admitted a little shyly. She shifted towards him and the shoulder of her robe gaped just a little, giving him a glimpse of her nightgown underneath.

John gazed at Natalie his heart pumping hard at the sight of her barely clad body. His blood sang with joy at her admission and also with fierce desire as he leaned forward and pressed his lips to her. Kissing her with a leashed passion he moaned into her mouth when it opened to his questing tongue. Thrust his tongue past her lips and licked the inner recesses, reveling in her moan.

Natalie kissed John back with equal fever and tangled her hands into his hair, pulling him closer. The weeks of fear and suppressed longing were forgotten as the tidal wave of desire and need overwhelmed them both. She gasped into his mouth as he brought his hands to her shoulders and pushed off the silky blue robe she wore. Underneath was a skimpy negligee that he had bought her for some occasion that she couldn't quite remember with his hands on her body.

Taking her hands from his hair she brought them to his chest and trailed them down his stomach to the hem of the t-shirt he wore. Gripping it she broke their heated kiss and pulled it over his head, leaving him bare-chested. Throwing the shirt on the floor behind her she grinned up at him thru the red vale of hair as she leaned forward. Pushing him back she leaned over him and began to kiss his stomach delighting in his gasp and full body shudder at the feel of her lips on his skin.

John was in heaven; the feel of Natalie's lips on his body was exquisite. Fire raced across his nerve endings, he burned everywhere she touched him and he loved every minute of it. He tangled his hands into her hair loving the silky feel of her fiery tresses as they slid sensuously between his fingers. As her mouth slid up his chest and her hands caressed his sides he moaned, his fingers caressed the side of her face even as they burrowed deeper into her hair. Wanting to see her face he tightened his hold on her hair, pulling it slightly.

Natalie glanced up at the slight tug of her hair. Her breath caught in her throat at the look he gave her. His beautiful blue eyes blaze with love and an inner fire that was all consuming. Knowing it would drive him crazy she gave him a sinful smirk then licked at his nipple.

When the wet heat of her tongue laved his nipple John groaned and arched up a little. Some men weren't sensitive in that area but John wasn't one of them. The feel of her mouth on his manly nipples sent a bolt of pure lust rocketing thru him, his head fell back to the pillow and he let out a deep groan. After a few minutes of Natalie's attention he couldn't take it any more. He pulled her up his body and hungrily attacked her mouth with his own. Wrapping his arms around her waist he cupped her but in his palms and pushed her down on to his throbbing erection, needing for her to feel what she did to him. The both moaned in pleasure at the contact.

Rolling over, John's hands were clumsy with want as they pushed the straps of the sexy nightgown down Natalie's shoulders baring her to the waist. He groaned at the sight of her breasts. They were milky white with dusky tips and big enough to fill his hand and then some. She was so beautiful! "Natalie!" he rasped out in a voice gone husky with intense desire and love. Bending he took her left nipple in his mouth as he touched and caressed her other breast with his eager hand.

"Oh God, John!" Natalie moaned out at the feel of him all over her. Her heart raced and her breath was ragged with her need. Heat pooled between her legs and a rush of moisture flooded her aching womanhood. Her mind was clouded with desire as John licked and sucked her breasts alternating with his hands and mouth between the two. Her hips began to move restlessly underneath him and her hands roamed his back, scoring him slightly with her nails.

John loved the feel and the taste of her body, the feel of her hands on his back made him cry out. He trailed hot openmouthed kisses down her stomach but kept his hands on her breasts, kneading them. He laved her navel with his tongue dipping into her belly button. He grinned at the barely audible exclamation that escaped her. Reaching the edge of the nightgown that was pooled around her waist he finally took his hands from her breasts and tugged on the gown, pushing it down her hips when she lifted them for him.

Clad in only her skimpy panties and panting with desire Natalie pushed at his boxers until he lifted himself away from her and removed them, leaving him naked and obviously VERY aroused. She moaned at the sight of his jutting shaft. Squirming underneath him she slid down the bed until she could grasp his hardness in her hands then gave him a slow teasing stroke from the base to the tip.

John felt her hands on him and his hips jerked in reaction before he could stop himself. He groaned loudly at her slow almost teasing caress his need going up another notch and his groin tightened painfully. His shaft was a hot throbbing bar of need and the feel of her hand on him made it difficult not to simply tear her underwear off her and plunge into her waiting heat, especially when she began moving that hand on him in a slow stead rhythm. Steeling himself he pulled away her, took a deep stabilizing breath as he tugged her back up the bed. Pushing her back firmly into the mattress he continued kissing and caressing his way down her body until he came to the moist curls at the apex of her thighs.

Using his hands he gently moved her knees apart granting him access to her core. Inwardly he groaned as he inhaled the musky sent of her need. He slid his fingers thru the damp curls, loving the pleasured gasps of need she gave. Spreading her open he grinned up at her then lowered his mouth onto her. With long slow strokes of his tongue he began to drive her over the edge into the abyss of pure sensation.

"John!" Natalie cried out as his licks became faster and he took his finger and pushed it slowly, teasingly, into her slick cannel. She was soaked with need and trembled at his touch. Her passion rose until she was consumed by it. Her hips moved into his caresses in time with the strokes of his finger into her body. Bucking into him Natalie let out plaintive wail as he kept her on the edge not letting her go over until he was certain she could take no more.

He loved that he could make her this crazy for him. As he heard her keening wail he looked up at Natalie, seeing her flushed face and her writhing body he decided she had had enough and he added another finger into her pulsing heat, curling them up and hitting that spot inside her that made her moan loudly. Stroking his fingers into her he sped up his rhythm and clamped his lips onto her clit, sucking strongly. She flew over the cliff and into ecstasy, her body arching up and her hands pulling at his hair roughly.

Natalie was awash in a sea of pleasure, wave after wave hit her as she climaxed onto his fingers and into his mouth. Finally after a long minute she relaxed and fell back to the bed limply. "God!" she gasped.

John pulled out his fingers from her body and then, unable to stop himself, he gave her one last lick, tasting her juices, thinking they were the best thing he had ever tasted. Seeing her climax escalated his need until he could no longer wait to claim her, he had to take her now or he would die of want. He moved up her body, trailing nibbling kisses up until he reached her mouth then he positioned himself at her entrance he said, "Just wait..." then slid into her.

Natalie gasped as he filled her, stretching her wide, but then wrapped her legs around his waist with renewed passion. She had been limp and replete just a moment ago but now the fire in her burned again, just as fiercely as before at the feel of him deep inside her, "John," she whispered as he again kissed her passionately.

As he kissed her he began moving his hips, unable to be still. The feel of her under him, surrounding him driving past all control. He quickened his pace as the need for release clawed at him. Tearing his mouth away from her he moaned, "Natalie!" before trailing his lips down her cheek and latching onto her neck. He sucked on her skin at the sensitive place just below her ear, leaving his mark on her skin, his primal side wanting her to be marked as his.

The combination of her earlier orgasm, the feel of his throbbing shaft pushing into her body and the suction of his mouth below her ear sent Natalie into another climax, this one more powerful than the last. She screamed out and tightened her legs around his waist as her inner muscles rippled and clenched around his length. Fire ripped thru her body and blasted her brain.

The sounds and feel of Natalie's release triggered his own and with a cry he came hard, thrusting violently into her again and again, his seed pumping out of him and leaving him empty. Finally he stopped moving and collapsed on top of her and rested his head into her neck. "I love you Natalie," he whispered to her for the second time that night, needing her to hear it again almost as much as he needed to say it.

Natalie lay beneath him spent and languid, her heart still hammering and her breath coming in choppy gasps but when she heard his whisper she stopped breathing all together in wonder. He has said it before and she knew he meant it but every time she heard those words they seared her soul with happiness. "I love you too John." Peace filled her and she felt better than she ever had before in her life.

After a long moment of satisfied silence John pulled out of her, only then realizing that he had not used protection but he couldn't bring himself to care at the moment. He gathered Natalie close to him and then pulled the blankets over him silently, content for the moment to let all their other problems be for now. They would deal with everything else in the morning.

To be continued...